When it's over....after long M/s relationship

[esclave_PP]

Well, my news, my time with Master is over. We parted nicely last week but it is very weird not to be owned anymore. I am still Mistress to my girl, which is wonderful, but is it strange not to feel sad? Strange not to be wanting to be owned anymore? Guess it's more growth than anything else.

Long story short, Master broke our contract and then lied and denied about it over and over rather than just being truthful. Didn't help that I am moving cross-country either now to Florida. I had begged for release and he wouldn't do it and shoved his heels into the ground. Finally, the other slave (whom he also released same time as me) told me what he had been doing, and it was just the last straw. Too many times getting hand caught in the cookie jar. Now, let me preface I never minded of course Master playing with others as long as he was upfront about it. But he would sneak around. Grrrr.

Well here is the point of my post. After being in a relationship long-term (this one was about 7 years), is it normal to feel this sense of relief, is it normal to also feel guilty about breaking it off? Even if the other person isn't showing their devastation, I still feel awful about it. I wrote him an email to check on how he was doing but of course haven't heard anything. He says he wasn't going to go on the computer but other friends have seen him and spoken to him. I suppose he just needs his space which is fine, but I don't just chuck people off. I have positive relationships with x's of mine so it just baffles me I guess.

Well hope this doesn't sound too whiney. Any advice you can give me? I don't wish to find another Master, but any tips on promoting discussion? I know he will eventually....oh well. sorry for the ramble.

Malcah

 

[catalina_francisco]

Sorry to hear your news, especially when you were so looking forward to the move and all it would mean. Haven't any advice except keep the positive, strong attitude you seem to be holding and see it as another step in your journey. I know what you mean about staying friendly with ex's, and not having a problem with it...is how I usually am but have found some just can't operate that way as break up to them means there should be drama, hurt feelings, snubbing, or whatever. Think you are showing your class in checking on him, pity he doesn't seem able to match it. Keep smiling, the future is yours.

Catalina

 

[esclave_PP]

((hUgs)))) thank you so much Catalina -- your words are very kind and appreciated! Like you said, yep beginning of new adventures

 

[Kajira Callista]

Be prepared for a wide range of emotions changing daily for a bit malcah...its normal and dont deny yourself the feelings good or bad. Healing isnt easy but if you know that you will be fine *hug*

 

[Desdemona]

I would think a whole range of feelings are normal, given your situation. I'm so sorry it happened and I wish you well as you walk the path of healing. des

 

[esclave_PP]

Thanks. It is really strange but I am looking forward to "moving forward" and exploring and growing. Thank you again for the kind words. I actually gave my collar to a friend of mine who are exploring the lifestyle, she is one of my best friends and I know she'll get lots of use out it

 

[esclave_PP]

An update: Talked with ex-Master tonight -- we are managing to stay friends and still talk -- whew. I am glad. We actually had a really nice conversation -- he is a sweet man -- and I hope he is able to find someone else --- he's convinced right now he can't (he's 53 but what is age right?) but I told him that he really should find a good girl who is local who can serve him how he needs. All he could say is I just want you...sigh. Oh well. At least we're still friends and happy about that. Thanks again everyone!