What was that cold chill??

[tumbledown]

Recently I experienced an interesting new mental state during the very end of a scene, and wondered if it were common or just one of those things that sometimes happens... Haven't been exploring my Domme nature for very long so a lot of things are still new to me.

I was kind of in that old familiar zone where the world has disappeared. Then suddenly click, I was cold. I felt completely emotionless, he met my gaze and looking into his eyes stirred nothing inside me. I felt purely in control, it was so different, my mind felt... smooth. No ripples, no static. Pure, strong and quiet.

I still am not decided if it was a good feeling or it wasn't. It was so powerfully neutral, as if it had reduced every quality of the scene to "this just is" instead of "this is good/bad/hot/squishy/etc."

It continued for few moments, finished the scene in this state, decided not to think on it and simply lay with him for a time. I came out of it slowly and things were fine, went on to have a great time afterward. But it has remained a question in my mind... it made quite an impression on me and I'm curious to see if it occurs again and if I can gain any insight into it.

 

[Netzach]

Recently I experienced an interesting new mental state during the very end of a scene, and wondered if it were common or just one of those things that sometimes happens... Haven't been exploring my Domme nature for very long so a lot of things are still new to me.

I was kind of in that old familiar zone where the world has disappeared. Then suddenly click, I was cold. I felt completely emotionless, he met my gaze and looking into his eyes stirred nothing inside me. I felt purely in control, it was so different, my mind felt... smooth. No ripples, no static. Pure, strong and quiet.

I still am not decided if it was a good feeling or it wasn't. It was so powerfully neutral, as if it had reduced every quality of the scene to "this just is" instead of "this is good/bad/hot/squishy/etc."

It continued for few moments, finished the scene in this state, decided not to think on it and simply lay with him for a time. I came out of it slowly and things were fine, went on to have a great time afterward. But it has remained a question in my mind... it made quite an impression on me and I'm curious to see if it occurs again and if I can gain any insight into it.

I experience that sometimes when scenes are really really good, I kind of see it as the height of Topspace. It's a very happy zen zone for me. It's not warm and fuzzy and loving and it has very little to do with *connecting* with the other person, it's about me. That's fine and dandy, in my world, and I like to touch that zone when I can.

 

[MasterNico]

Bingo! I too get this at times and I agree, it's all about me at that moment. there's a purity there that I just don't find anywhere else. I kind of imagine it being like that moment in the matrix when Neo first stands up and bends the space around him and sees the matrix in the green code. I suddenly find my place of power.






geez, what a geek I am