What is wrong with me

[MisterWolf26]

I married a women 20 years older than me when I was 20. She passed away last October

She loved me in a way that I just have to accept is not to be replicated.

That's not depression or doomerism. I will move on. There will be future relationships, but....

I, intellectually, told myself I wasn't ready for another relationship yet. AND that when I was I needed to break my habit of dating older. (Every successive girlfriend since I was in the single digits represented a larger age gap than the last.)

But I quickly started flirting with an old acquaintance that I already knew I was fond of. So much like my wife. About 5 years older than her lol. Artist. Not afraid to be wierd.

Perhaps, fortunately, she seems uninterested in taking on a man whose not done grieving yet.

I'm tired. I'm lonely. I haven't really been single in 25 years.

 

[Raybies93]

I married a women 20 years older than me when I was 20. She passed away last October

She loved me in a way that I just have to accept is not to be replicated.

That's not depression or doomerism. I will move on. There will be future relationships, but....

I, intellectually, told myself I wasn't ready for another relationship yet. AND that when I was I needed to break my habit of dating older. (Every successive girlfriend since I was in the single digits represented a larger age gap than the last.)

But I quickly started flirting with an old acquaintance that I already knew I was fond of. So much like my wife. About 5 years older than her lol. Artist. Not afraid to be wierd.

Perhaps, fortunately, she seems uninterested in taking on a man whose not done grieving yet.

I'm tired. I'm lonely. I haven't really been single in 25 years.

you need to break out of your familiar circle of friends

 

[lifeis2short2b]

I married a women 20 years older than me when I was 20. She passed away last October

She loved me in a way that I just have to accept is not to be replicated.

That's not depression or doomerism. I will move on. There will be future relationships, but....

I, intellectually, told myself I wasn't ready for another relationship yet. AND that when I was I needed to break my habit of dating older. (Every successive girlfriend since I was in the single digits represented a larger age gap than the last.)

But I quickly started flirting with an old acquaintance that I already knew I was fond of. So much like my wife. About 5 years older than her lol. Artist. Not afraid to be wierd.

Perhaps, fortunately, she seems uninterested in taking on a man whose not done grieving yet.

I'm tired. I'm lonely. I haven't really been single in 25 years.

Older and wiser.