What do you fear?

[INSIDEYOURMIND]

I want to know what simply scares the proverbial shit out of you, and why.

Not looking for "Imma askared of da dark, because dere's monsters".

I will start, it should give you the degree of seriousness I am looking for.

I am afraid of my heart not lasting until the new ones arrives.

More of serious life's situation rather than I am afarid of bugs.

I would like to keep this going, and in a serious manner. I have done some serious thought lately, and want all of us to know that next guy has it worse than you do.

I have recently been put in a wheelchair, and was feeling sorry for myself, but I was recently with a friend, he is seriously disabled, I mean his hands are attached at his shoulders, and his legs are horribly mishapen, this guy drives, walks, and does his best with the cards they dealt him.

I am not looking for simpathy, just want to hear what we all feel are our real fears........

 

[satindesire]

Growing old terrifies me. I have become so used to being dealt with differently and getting benefits because I am attractive, that the day I stop being attractive will be...devastating.

I am so lame.

 

[paulthewetcd]

Three Huge Fears

1) Being in a fire and the pain of burning

2) Becoming demented, and knowing that I am becoming demented

3) Developing diabetes, and not eating real chocolate ever again

 

[graceanne]

I'm afraid of dying before my kids are full grown.

I'm afraid of being abandoned.

 

[Mrs. Sanj]

Becoming like my mother, in my opinion she turned into a complete nut.

Large spiders. The small ones don't bother me unless they can jump, then I scream.

 

[serijules]

Loosing my eyesight. My eyesight is very bad as it is and gets worse all the time. I can't "hear" without my ears, so it really bothers me every time I go in and my sight has worsened. I can handle loosing what little hearing I have left as I'm so used to being without it anyhow that what I do have left is a nice bonus, but I don't depend on it. My eyesight....sigh.

My family dying. Wyatt Earp dying. He's my hearing dog and I depend on him very much, we have an amazing connection. He's only 3, but I worry he will go before his time. He is more than a pet, he's invaluable to me with my disability. Death in general terrifies me. I'm very close to my family and I have only lost a few people. I'm 30...it's going to start happening soon and I'm scared I just can't deal with it.

Alzheimer's or dementia. My memory is terrible, worse than I feel is normal for someone my age. I watched my Aunts mom die at age 55 to Alzheimers and it was the most terrifying thing I've ever witnessed. When one is elderly and has lived a long full life, it's unfortunate and sad but understandable. 55? That's the fucking prime of your life. Scary shit.

 

[dakotagirl]

Something horrible happening to my children that i can do nothing to stop.

Being in horrible pain for a long time before i die

Being burned alive

 

[madetotakeit]

Alzheimer's

I have seen what it did to my Grandmother and I felt what it was like to be one of the ones left behind. I never want to put anyone through that. There was no way to console her fears when she looked and saw strangers in the faces of those that loved her and there was nothing that could take away the helpless feeling of seeing her go through that.

 

[DeservingBitch]

Not getting out of this depression. Ruining everything I've worked so hard and so long for. Getting to a point where I just don't give a shit anymore.

 

[Violette]

That I may have missed my chance to bear children.

 

[LittleJade]

What do I fear?


Losing my breath. I mean- suffocating, drowning, being strangled...

Ever since I was born, I've feared it- and then was almost murdered by strangulation.

I wake sometimes, in the night, gasping for air, if the blanket has been pulled too close to my face.

 

[LittleJade]

Losing my mind.

I don't mean, going nuts.

I mean, losing my intelligence. Losing my ability to think.

My brain has been the thing that's made me different, my whole life.

 

[sanjuaneros]

I cannot think of anything I fear.

 

[Bandit58]

I'm afraid of Sir dying. We've been together such a short time (4 years). I never thought I'd find a love like this, I don't want to lose it too soon.....

 

[HottieMama]

Not living to see my children grow up.
Becoming an active addict again.
My friend David passing away. He saved my life when i was a junkie...i wish i could take the HIV away from him.
That those i love don't believe that i love them. i compensate for this by telling them constantly.

 

[LittleJade]

HM's post made me think-






I fear Him dying. I fear it.

 

[HottieMama]

HM's post made me think-






I fear Him dying. I fear it.

Me too...so much so i have tears in my eyes at this moment...

 

[Netzach]

Undermining myself, not doing the things I'm capable of doing because of my own flaws.

Crohns. Surgery. Ileostomy. Fistula. Meds and surgery not working. Winding up dying of short gut.

Heights, falling from great height to my death. There's an irrational one, but it's pretty profound, and not even valium touches it much when it's time to fly somewhere.

Losing my loved ones in a really abrupt fashion. I know we all lose one another ultimately, but I'm a control freak. I know that everyone dies and I know I'm going to have to say goodbye, possibly sooner than that anyway. I want them to be good goodbyes. I want to be sure I leave 'em better than I found 'em or at least as good.

My health directive states that if I can write, draw, or read, or may ever be able to do those things again, I'm to be kept alive. Obviously not being able to do those things absolutely terrifies me.

Footnote. There is always someone sicker than you are, no matter how sick you are. I don't find comfort in that, personally, when I realized this and when I realized how much sicker C person actually is than B person who are BOTH much worse off than I am the planet seems like an even more unfair and messed up place. Ugh.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

My biggest fear is my children dying before me. I have lost my mum and one sister. I know that losing one of my children would break me. I am also terrified of losing my eye sight. My mum had cataracts before she passed away. *sighs* Most anything else I can handle (i think) but not being able to see my children or losing one of them to illness or accidents..that thought hurts me deep down where no parent wants to feel that pain.

Also (an unreasoning fear...but terrifying nonetheless) being tortured and killed by fire/water. I have nightmares about this. I wake up crying, not being able to breathe, choking in panic.

 

[00Syd]

I've always been afraid of being lost. I used to have the most terrifying nightmares about being lost, or being abandoned. I think it may be my greatest fear.

I'm also afraid of Alzheimer's, not so much for me, but for my mother. I never knew my bubbie because she never knew who I was. She always just thought that I was her best friend, who I'm named after. Eventually she didn't even recognize her own daughter. I watched my mother's heart being town out by this disease and I'm terrified of experiencing that same sadness. I'm really scared that my mother will get Alzheimer's.

I'm also very afraid of becoming a vegetable.

I'm not really afraid of getting old, but of getting so senile that I can't take care of myself. Or being bed-ridden. If I ever get to a point like that where I'm unable to do what i want to do, I may just take a crap load of LSD and call it a night.

 

[myinnerslut]

losing control. im bipolar and managed so well that nobody knows at this point in my life unless i enlighten them. im terrified of losing who i am and being abandoned becuase ive become too much to deal with.

 

[Daddy2mylilgirl]

Being a failure in life.

 

[BiBunny]

Being a failure in life.

Yeah, that.

~Fire
~Heights
~Actually talking about my feelings to the people involved (i.e., ranting to Kitty about something my mother or someone did to hurt me doesn't count)

And then I'm just painfully shy in general, which I suppose counts as a phobia in and of itself.

 

[minx1]

flying...actually I flying is good. I fear crashing.

I fear my mum dying. I watched my dad die and my mum is my only family. I love her so much I don't think I could bear it.

I fear the thought of not being with my M...of him releasing me.

I fear not being loved, or not being loved enough, like before.

not having choices. Some of things are too personal to write here but the thought of running out of time or options being removed kinda sums it up.

the things my heart keeps doing. Scary

 

[YourCaptor]

I am fearless, hear me roar!!! Just kidding, but at the moment I don’t fear anything. I know the things that would absolutely devastate me, but I don’t fear them until they are near. There aren’t even many of those, 1. my significant other dying, and 2. losing control over my sadistic side

I have done some serious thought lately, and want all of us to know that next guy has it worse than you do.

I have recently been put in a wheelchair, and was feeling sorry for myself, but I was recently with a friend, he is seriously disabled, I mean his hands are attached at his shoulders, and his legs are horribly mishapen, this guy drives, walks, and does his best with the cards they dealt him.

Your thinking about this all wrong, it doesn’t matter if there is someone worse of then you, it doesn’t matter if you are the one human being who has it worse then any other in all time, you keep fighting anyway. This is all about you, you got a serious fight on you hands, and your gonna take care of it. The fighting spirit is important, it will push you far beyond what you ever thought possible, so feed your sprit with pride, joy, and knowing that you will kick all this shit and leave it in the dust.

I bet what you saw in that man you spook of was not that he is worse off then you, but that he has a really strong spirit that wont let his condition overshadow him. You can be the same, every time you feel less because of it, find a way around it, you can only win the war if you focus on every battle.