What did you learn in 2019?

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I've been in a reflective mood of late and took the time to look back at 2019. As I tallied the events of the year, both good and bad, I realised I encountered some unexpected lessons.

I was laid off in the summer and learnt that I could be jealous. Jealous of those coworkers who remained and got to "adult" in a way that I couldn't. Jealous that they got to go to conferences and I was knee deep in diapers. But I learnt that I could be jealous and it didn't make me ugly. It reminded me that I'm human and I'm capable of working through grief, in all its unpleasant forms to come out the other side as a stronger, more determined, vibrant person.

So, friends.... What did you learn? Learn something about yourself? Learn something about the world? Learn something seemingly insignificant? Share it work me (and all the pervs who lurk my threads in hopes of smutty pictures).
 
I learned that I’m way more kinky than I ever realized. I’ve also learned what I really want. It may not sound very profound or earth shattering, but for me it kinda was.
 
I learned how to do something without gagging. That was a big accomplishment... and my boo is so proud of me. :D
 
I learned that true love is there if you close your eyes and let your heart look for you. :heart:
 
I learned that I’m way more kinky than I ever realized. I’ve also learned what I really want. It may not sound very profound or earth shattering, but for me it kinda was.

Honestly, figuring that shit out in your first lifetime is as revolutionary as it gets. Most people die without this depth of intimacy with themselves.
 
I learned what I wished I had learned years ago about getting healthy and getting things in order, and how to bounce back.
 
To take better care of my skin. I wish I would’ve started taking better care of it when I was younger.
 
I learned I'm not who I want to be.

Part of me knew that already. Part of me learned it.

All of me learned that being better, even if not good enough, is more acceptable than lying to myself.

So, I learned a degree of self-acceptance, and not to hate the guy in the mirror quite as much as I once did.

I also learned how hard it is to come up with a new username on this site...twice. I'm not particularly imaginative. At least I spotted myself the "Lurking" part so I'm not an alt. I was just overly emotional. Twice. :rolleyes:
 
I learned once and for all that what other people think about me doesn't mean anything at all to my life and how I must live it. I will always take the road less traveled. Even if I walk it alone forever.
 
No matter how loud they state it, the USA is Not the best country in the world to live in, however if you're into BS, blowhards and political fuckups , they are the place to be..
 
I learned to have more patience, love and forgiveness. It was a rough year.
 
I learned no one is gonna save me and I can't save anyone else.

I also learned about iniquities and generational curses....now reading alanon and identifying patterns in my behavior that are dysfunctional in the way families with alcoholics adapt even though my family of origin had no drinkers. Fascinating....
 
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Never take for granted the opportunities you have. That’s more looking back.
 
Never take for granted the opportunities you have. That’s more looking back.

Right?!

I'm in awe of the Aussie that existed in the early months of 2020.

Truth be told, I had a lot of growing to do. I just wish it didn't take this much suffering for me to have to go through it. And I've had it easy in comparison to my neighbors.

It's a pretty heavy time for many, many people right now.
 
That the adventure associated with being asked to go back to work as a contractor after retiring did not make up for the relaxed and calm lifestyle I had while retired.
 
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