What Are You Thinking? Continued 14

That's something I struggle with sometimes. The need to be thought of or cared for or desired is all totally fine but I still feel like I ask for too much
Feeling needy, pathetic, a pest. Just for desiring some attention.

@LustfulIntentions2 is right. Our brains have a lot to answer for.

But everyone in this site has variations of this, in different ways. Know you're not alone, and I've got you, lovely friend.
 
This guy from my hometown (who both my best friend and I fucked 🤪) married an absolutely stunning musician. Every time I see pics of them on Facebook I get envious of him. She’s so my type. I wish we were still buddies so I could meet her lol
I think you could send this treatment to the Hallmark Channel.
 
If it’s one thing I learnt while working in healthcare, is that it’s healthy to share a laugh with your colleagues. One healthcare provider shared with me that she was talking to a lady on the phone who’s lifeline went off and the ambulance was looking for her in the field and in her house in the country when in fact she was in town. She (the healthcare provider) suggested that she should tell Siri to dial 911 for her if she’s distressed if she’s having trouble with it. And wouldn’t you know it? Siri dialled 911 at my coworker’s cellphone and she ended up talking to them telling them she doesn’t need help. Later she repeated the story to another colleague and her cellphone did it again and she wasn’t fast enough to stop it. So she ended up talking to the 911 operator twice in a day.

Moral: be careful what you say around Siri
Other moral: Siri hates you and has an evil sense of humor.
 
That's something I struggle with sometimes. The need to be thought of or cared for or desired is all totally fine but I still feel like I ask for too much
I crave it right now, like water after a hard run.
And here is worst part: after going through school and being told I am not attractive, often to my face, and spending a majority of my long marriage being rejected sexually, when someone tells me I'm attractive, my first response is "they just think they have to say that." It gets to be a vicious circle. When I end up with someone who won't, or sometimes is unable, to fulfill that need, it amps up my feelings of inadequacy, which then make me feel, and probably act, less attractive. I'm working hard to break out of that paradigm, but it doesn't make the hunger for it less, at least not yet.

And it isn't always that bad, or even that often. But right now?
 
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And here is worst part: after going through school and being told I am not attractive, often to my face, and spending a majority of my long marriage being rejected sexually, when someone tells me I'm attractive, my first response is "they just think they have to say that." It gets to be a viscous circle. When I end up with someone who won't, or sometimes is unable, to fulfill that need, it amps up my feelings of inadequacy, which then make me feel, and probably act, less attractive. I'm working hard to break out of that paradigm, but it doesn't make the hunger for it less, at least not yet.

And it isn't always that bad, or even that often. But right now?
Maaaaaan, the older I get the less and less I trust my stupid brain. Thinks it’s so smart but remembers all the dumbest things.

Unrelated I just finished season 4 of the Boys and I’m pretty sure the only thing I liked about it was Sage giving herself a lobotomy to have stupid sex with fish boy 🤣
 
And here is worst part: after going through school and being told I am not attractive, often to my face, and spending a majority of my long marriage being rejected sexually, when someone tells me I'm attractive, my first response is "they just think they have to say that." It gets to be a viscous circle. When I end up with someone who won't, or sometimes is unable, to fulfill that need, it amps up my feelings of inadequacy, which then make me feel, and probably act, less attractive. I'm working hard to break out of that paradigm, but it doesn't make the hunger for it less, at least not yet.

And it isn't always that bad, or even that often. But right now?
Yeah I have similar reactions and a similar history. It's rough.

Especially when you hit that air pocket of loneliness mixed with self doubt.

Lit can be the best and worst place at times like these
 
And here is worst part: after going through school and being told I am not attractive, often to my face, and spending a majority of my long marriage being rejected sexually, when someone tells me I'm attractive, my first response is "they just think they have to say that." It gets to be a vicious circle. When I end up with someone who won't, or sometimes is unable, to fulfill that need, it amps up my feelings of inadequacy, which then make me feel, and probably act, less attractive. I'm working hard to break out of that paradigm, but it doesn't make the hunger for it less, at least not yet.

And it isn't always that bad, or even that often. But right now?
Get out of my head. You're attractive though bro, and your voice is 🔥
 
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