I'm going to preface My post with this disclaimer: I realize that most of this section is based on skin to skin BDSM. This is slightly different, not really online, but what I would call Long Distance D/s.
Having said that, I have been exploring D/s with a submissive for the last year or so. I'd known her for a year or more before that. Wwe had become great deep friends and it was almost a natural progression to D/s. Wwe played the online thing, and created a site together, scened, etc. It progressed to much more, voice and constant communication, etc. . I know her better than I believe she knows herself. Wwe explored so much, and truly pushed Oour limits, as far as they could go. They only thing lacking was the actually touch, but that was to come, I have no doubt.
Some have said that it can't be "true" D/s without it beign RL. I can't comment on the RL, but I only know that this was more intense than anything I have ever experienced. The mental control was intense and Wwe were deeper than I could ever imagine two people ever could be.
My main concern was always her safety, making sure I didn't push her too far. Afterall, in order for it to work long distance, she has to be so deep in with Me, to do what I want, and sometimes to herself, because that is what I want. She dressed as I liked, acted as I wanted, constantly being "with" Me, but I kept her safe.
So as I said, My concern was for her. I knew her vulnerability and how she trusted Me. I was always looking out for her. I wanted nothing more than to explore and find Oour pleasures together.
I guided, but Wwe explored.
So over the weekend, some RL events took place (not with her and I, but I shared). It isn't worth getting into here, but it really wasn't about her and I. she felt I could no longer give her all that she needed. She wanted it all, for nothing to change. I felt I could give/take the same, but she feared it. she feared losing at a later point, she feared how much worse it would be, how the pain would be.
I thought it was simply her feeling overwhelmed (knowing it happens from time to time) and Wwe talked about it all, and she truly wanted to be released. I had always told her that she could remain Mine for as long as she and I both wanted it, and she only need ask to be released. I never thought that would be an issue, but that was the deal.
So that is what I did, I released the woman that fulfiilled all My dreams, wants, and needs. I let her go, because she feared it all in the future. I could feel her not wanting to submit. I actually know she wanted to, but she feared herself, and what the future would hold.
I felt today that My heart has been ripped from Me. she brought out a part of Me that no other ever had, and she gave Me so much. she still desires Me, still wants it all, yet believes she can't have it, and will only be hurt later. No matter what I say, she has chosen her path.
she chose Me a long time ago, and she chose to no longer submit. I allowed it, I took it, and I let it go.
Here is My point (sorry that I am long winded) I think most people believe that submissives are the vulnerable ones. I spent all My energies making her feel safe, and content, cherished and wanted. she gave Me so much in return. What happened was, I forgot to protect Myself. I ended up in deep, I wanted so much that I forgot to watch out. In the end, I was the vulnerable one, and I lost it all. I lost a part of Myself within her.
So I had it all, I lsot it all, and I am left with nothing except some amazing memories. I guess you can't live without the risk of being hurt, and I did both. I now realize that the balance is jsut that, a balance, and I forgot to look out for Me.
Having said that, I have been exploring D/s with a submissive for the last year or so. I'd known her for a year or more before that. Wwe had become great deep friends and it was almost a natural progression to D/s. Wwe played the online thing, and created a site together, scened, etc. It progressed to much more, voice and constant communication, etc. . I know her better than I believe she knows herself. Wwe explored so much, and truly pushed Oour limits, as far as they could go. They only thing lacking was the actually touch, but that was to come, I have no doubt.
Some have said that it can't be "true" D/s without it beign RL. I can't comment on the RL, but I only know that this was more intense than anything I have ever experienced. The mental control was intense and Wwe were deeper than I could ever imagine two people ever could be.
My main concern was always her safety, making sure I didn't push her too far. Afterall, in order for it to work long distance, she has to be so deep in with Me, to do what I want, and sometimes to herself, because that is what I want. She dressed as I liked, acted as I wanted, constantly being "with" Me, but I kept her safe.
So as I said, My concern was for her. I knew her vulnerability and how she trusted Me. I was always looking out for her. I wanted nothing more than to explore and find Oour pleasures together.
I guided, but Wwe explored.
So over the weekend, some RL events took place (not with her and I, but I shared). It isn't worth getting into here, but it really wasn't about her and I. she felt I could no longer give her all that she needed. She wanted it all, for nothing to change. I felt I could give/take the same, but she feared it. she feared losing at a later point, she feared how much worse it would be, how the pain would be.
I thought it was simply her feeling overwhelmed (knowing it happens from time to time) and Wwe talked about it all, and she truly wanted to be released. I had always told her that she could remain Mine for as long as she and I both wanted it, and she only need ask to be released. I never thought that would be an issue, but that was the deal.
So that is what I did, I released the woman that fulfiilled all My dreams, wants, and needs. I let her go, because she feared it all in the future. I could feel her not wanting to submit. I actually know she wanted to, but she feared herself, and what the future would hold.
I felt today that My heart has been ripped from Me. she brought out a part of Me that no other ever had, and she gave Me so much. she still desires Me, still wants it all, yet believes she can't have it, and will only be hurt later. No matter what I say, she has chosen her path.
she chose Me a long time ago, and she chose to no longer submit. I allowed it, I took it, and I let it go.
Here is My point (sorry that I am long winded) I think most people believe that submissives are the vulnerable ones. I spent all My energies making her feel safe, and content, cherished and wanted. she gave Me so much in return. What happened was, I forgot to protect Myself. I ended up in deep, I wanted so much that I forgot to watch out. In the end, I was the vulnerable one, and I lost it all. I lost a part of Myself within her.
So I had it all, I lsot it all, and I am left with nothing except some amazing memories. I guess you can't live without the risk of being hurt, and I did both. I now realize that the balance is jsut that, a balance, and I forgot to look out for Me.
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