UK maso craving RL emotional, physical and sexual abuse

[seven_of_nine]

I'm not fucking around and I'm not looking for online only either. Nothing full time or long term, just some scratching of mutual itches.

To reiterate, NOT looking for online only. You're precious little use to me in the U S of bloody A.

So spare me your cyberpatter. What really lurks in the darkest corners of your twisted heart? What part of yourself do you keep on a choke-chain? Offer truth to me. Offer me total candour and I will literally in real life gift you with a fucked up sexual, emotional and physical punch-bag.

And I will thank you for this. I will grip my forearms behind my back and choke myself on your cock in gratitude.

Obviously basic protocols will have to apply regarding condoms and safewords but outside of that, go nuts.

This will take trust and respect. It will take me getting to know you and developing a rapport. It will take fwb rather than a casual or one-off fuck. It'll take a little commitment on your part... but not too much.

If you add me on YIM tell me who you are on Lit.

 

[dyermaker81]

I added you on yim

 

[seven_of_nine]

To reiterate, NOT looking for online only.

So spare me your cyberpatter. What really lurks in the darkest corners of your twisted heart? What part of yourself do you keep on a choke-chain? Offer truth to me. Offer me total candour and I will literally in real life gift you with a fucked up sexual, emotional and physical punch-bag.

And I will thank you for this. I will grip my forearms behind my back and choke myself on your cock in gratitude.

Obviously basic protocols will have to apply regarding condoms and safewords but outside of that, go nuts.

This will take trust and respect. It will take me getting to know you and developing a rapport. It will take fwb rather than a casual or one-off fuck. It'll take a little commitment on your part... but not too much.

 

[seven_of_nine]

So... a little about me.

I was raised Jehovah Witless, which throws up a whole load of issues. It's a patriarchal society but nevertheless I believed my kinks were evil incarnate until a few short years ago.

Jack of all trades and master of fuck all. JWs don't believe in tertiary education. Despite my good grades I've bummed about in admin, healthcare and hospitality. Currently care for my paranoid delusional and psychotic mother. My family have rejected me but despite my lack of a Biblical moral code I cannot reject them in turn. Go figure.

I've been kinky for far longer than I knew what kink was. I rooted for the baddies in fairytales. My earliest fantasies were of abduction.

My ex I corrupted utterly. I teased out his disenfranchised alpha male and he did things to me that he really could not live with. Thus I somehow got the blame for the abuse I 'suffered'. Interesting. He really wasn't into the kind of verbal humiliation or violence I crave. The very fact that I was kinkier than him made the whole thing pretty much untenable, I just didn't want to see that for a long time.

I'm pretty much sociopathic. My mother wasn't even slightly maternal and neither was her mother before her. I get the basic concept of love etc but I'm pretty much incapable. I know that when push really comes to shove, very few people are remotely altruistic. We're animals and barely evolved.

I am deeply masochistic, especially when it comes to emotional 'abuse,' verbal humiliation and even violence. What I'm not however is an adoring submissive who will make it her life's work to anticipate your every need. I need a genuine and prescient fear of my partner, which has the added bonus of rendering me obedient and respectful. It may not sound like 'true' submission and I suppose it really isn't but this is how I tick and what works for me. I also need total unpredictability and caprice in a man. Set rules with set consequences just effectively hand control back to me. I need to be truly at another's arbitrary, capricious and sadistic whim, to never know what the 'correct' reaction might be or how far he's of a mind to take something.

I adore mindfucks. I also adore rape-play and to be used when I'm exhausted/sore, not horny or when I'm angry with you. I'm not one to engineer conflict or drama but I won't pretend to be receptive when I'm not and I fully expect this to be disregarded.

I would love to experiment with rape on a deeper level, even to the point of abduction and you convincing me you're a stranger. I also have a huge fantasy for semi-public and al fresco places, such as an alleyway or the countryside.

I have huge fantasies surrounding DP and MMF threesomes that I would make a reality with the right people. I'm also attracted to the idea of being smacked around, tied up and then made to watch while you fuck another girl, treat another girl like a princess and make her cum so hard. I'm open to the idea of including domme, switch or sub women, so long as I remain at the bottom of the pecking order.

So there you have it. I've shown you mine, now you show me yours

 

[seven_of_nine]

I had forgotten what a bitch dominant men are to deal with. I'm really losing the will to continue with this. Forget I ever said anything.

 

[Sweetdaisymae]

Keep looking, the right one will eventually show.
Could a trainable horndog be an option over an experienced Dom?

 

[seven_of_nine]

There is someone I'm continuing to get to know. I've just been a bot overwhelmed by all the egos jerking off into my inbox. I know it's to be expected but fuck. And people just don't hear the word 'no' until it's 'fuck off.'

Anyway, that particular horror is over. Anyone still being a nuisance I'll just put on ignore.

 

[BadTeacher49m]

" I also adore rape-play and to be used when I'm exhausted/sore, not horny or when I'm angry with you. I'm not one to engineer conflict or drama but I won't pretend to be receptive when I'm not and I fully expect this to be disregarded."

"And people just don't hear the word 'no' until it's 'fuck off.'"

 

[seven_of_nine]

Sunshine, there's a vast difference between me enduring 'abuse' from someone in real life through mutual agreement and fielding the crap from multiple guys who have pm'd me and added me on yahoo.

And as a bitter middle aged man you fall squarely onto my shit list.

If you cannot see a difference between the one situation and the other, you really shouldn't be tying your own shoelaces.

 

[FluteMaster]

Sunshine, there's a vast difference between me enduring 'abuse' from someone in real life through mutual agreement and fielding the crap from multiple guys who have pm'd me and added me on yahoo.

AND

If you cannot see a difference between the one situation and the other, you really shouldn't be tying your own shoelaces.

Well said.

 

[seven_of_nine]

Thank you.

But really he's a good case in point. It's scary how totally divorced from reality a lot of these self-professed dominants are. I'm sat here shaking my head thinking, did I really just have to point that out?

 

[seven_of_nine]

Since I posted this thread and have been dealing with the interest from it, I'm actually beginning to think there may yet be a switch buried deep inside me. I'm getting powerful urges to flog some of the stupid out of these people.

I should qualify this by saying that I have actually had very intelligent and productive chats with some of the guys around here. It's just that they're woefully in the minority.

Maybe there's just a lot of horny minors on Lit trying to masquerade as adults. I really don't want to believe that such a large proportion of actual grown ups can be capable of such raw idiocy.

facepalm

I mean I know I'm a masochist but bloody hell.

I'm officially listing fucktards as a new hard limit.

 

[FluteMaster]

Sadly...they ARE more frequent than would seem possible...though you would assume Darwin would have weeded them out by now.

Just remember...you sometimes have to crush a ton of rock to get an ounce of gold....the good stuff isn't always lying around in nuggets.

 

[BadTeacher49m]

Sunshine, there's a vast difference between me enduring 'abuse' from someone in real life through mutual agreement and fielding the crap from multiple guys who have pm'd me and added me on yahoo.

And as a bitter middle aged man you fall squarely onto my shit list.

If you cannot see a difference between the one situation and the other, you really shouldn't be tying your own shoelaces.

First, I'm not bitter (though you may be projecting here), nor a self-professed dominant. I do enjoy playing with submissive girls from time to time, but I wouldn't define myself as a dominant. You do seem to like to jump to conclusions.

Second, you seem to have misunderstood my point. I wasn't saying those two situations were identical (or even that both were abuse). I was, however, pointing out that you were asking for men that don't take no for an answer and then were surprised and frustrated that you were hearing from men who weren't taking no for an answer. That displays such a lack of awareness that perhaps you should also consider investing in velcro.

Regardless, it's a shame that you're such an angry, unhappy girl that you feel the need to rage and sling insults when things don't quite go your way. I expect you'll throw a tantrum in response to this too, but I won't be engaging in this beyond this message so if you feel the need to get the last word in, feel free. At least you seem to recognize you have some pretty severe emotional issues. I just hope you're able to get the help you need.

Take care.