Lydia_Trent
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- Jan 14, 2007
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just venting, done now
Well, Let me start off by saying I fell into this entirely by accident, I was role playing in a Brothel thread as a “Dove” and one of the regular “customers” who I followed, but never actually talked to was caught my eye, his profile said something about being submissive and about having a Mistress, what irked me was none of the girls were meeting his needs, as I saw them. I said hmm…I bet I could do that, and started researching, I did not want to just pretend to be a Mistress, I was going to “be” a Mistress, so I read voraciously and then one night when he came in I talked to him and it quickly led to PMs, well after the 4th post he was saying if I didn’t already have a Mistress I would be begging you to be my permanent one.
So anyway, I liked him he was a great sub, and soon little did I realize I was getting sucked into the world little by little, I kept reading and researching to come up with better rps and situations, by this time I had 4 subs all completely different rps. Well anyway after a few months of this I realized damn I would get jealous of my subs, and especially of my first one, I was jealous of his real life Mistress, of which I really had no knowledge. All I knew was she did not have time for him right now which is why he was “playing” in the first place.
He finally got his own computer and got on msn, and we began to chat. I was finally in a space and comfortable with my growth to ask him about his realationship, he has never met her IRL. This is when I learned some startling things; 1) he was only 17, 2) she wanted to take his virginity when he turned 18 3)she had been “training “ him since he was 16 4) he was going to live with her after college. Ok all totally new to me I thought he was 18 and not a virgin, and thought they had already met. To complicate things She is a switch and her Dom will be moving in as well.
Now the reason I even asked these things was because I had thought to set up a meeting with him. Now here is my problem: I truly care for this boy, and even if we didn’t have the D/s thing going, I would at least love him as a friend, if I couldn’t as a lover or sub. I fear that he will be neglected even when he lives with her, I fear the Dom will manipulate her into giving him less than he needs. This really pains me, now of course I do not know her at all. And I cannot offer a live in situation, so I hope he is making a wise decision. I fear when she finds out how close we are she will bann him from communicating with me. In his heart when we are together he is mine, but he was hers first. She is not or is unable to care for him now and he is lonely, so that is a just begging your sub to get into trouble. I had no qualms with giving him what he wants if I can, because I was happy in my ignorant bliss, now that I know so much I have issues about undermining her authority.
If as a primary Domme she cannot, will not or is unable to meet his needs I would gladly be a secondary, but is this ever the case? I feel selfish and want to have my control over him which he has so graciously offered me, but fear he will be punished for it. He says that they love each other and that she told him and her dom that if it came down to it that she would choose her submissive over her Dom, huh? Is that even possible. Anyway, sorry to ramble but perhaps some thoughts? And I know I probably left tons out. I feel after asking about what shes trained him with that I have actually been training him far more than she has. Sometimes I want to be unscrupulous and enforce some training and conditioning on him , but other times I hesitate.
thanks in advance for any advice.
edited to add:sorry for the rambling rant, just needed to vent I guess and by doing so I realize I need to stepout of this for awhile. so because of all the wonderful advice here I am no longer rping nor dealing with anyone under 35 lol. oh btw, I did not seek this boy out because of his age, it was a random rp luck of the draw so to speak. just got caught by surprise at the intensity of an online relationship. anyway thanks again to all who helped me.
Well, Let me start off by saying I fell into this entirely by accident, I was role playing in a Brothel thread as a “Dove” and one of the regular “customers” who I followed, but never actually talked to was caught my eye, his profile said something about being submissive and about having a Mistress, what irked me was none of the girls were meeting his needs, as I saw them. I said hmm…I bet I could do that, and started researching, I did not want to just pretend to be a Mistress, I was going to “be” a Mistress, so I read voraciously and then one night when he came in I talked to him and it quickly led to PMs, well after the 4th post he was saying if I didn’t already have a Mistress I would be begging you to be my permanent one.
So anyway, I liked him he was a great sub, and soon little did I realize I was getting sucked into the world little by little, I kept reading and researching to come up with better rps and situations, by this time I had 4 subs all completely different rps. Well anyway after a few months of this I realized damn I would get jealous of my subs, and especially of my first one, I was jealous of his real life Mistress, of which I really had no knowledge. All I knew was she did not have time for him right now which is why he was “playing” in the first place.
He finally got his own computer and got on msn, and we began to chat. I was finally in a space and comfortable with my growth to ask him about his realationship, he has never met her IRL. This is when I learned some startling things; 1) he was only 17, 2) she wanted to take his virginity when he turned 18 3)she had been “training “ him since he was 16 4) he was going to live with her after college. Ok all totally new to me I thought he was 18 and not a virgin, and thought they had already met. To complicate things She is a switch and her Dom will be moving in as well.
Now the reason I even asked these things was because I had thought to set up a meeting with him. Now here is my problem: I truly care for this boy, and even if we didn’t have the D/s thing going, I would at least love him as a friend, if I couldn’t as a lover or sub. I fear that he will be neglected even when he lives with her, I fear the Dom will manipulate her into giving him less than he needs. This really pains me, now of course I do not know her at all. And I cannot offer a live in situation, so I hope he is making a wise decision. I fear when she finds out how close we are she will bann him from communicating with me. In his heart when we are together he is mine, but he was hers first. She is not or is unable to care for him now and he is lonely, so that is a just begging your sub to get into trouble. I had no qualms with giving him what he wants if I can, because I was happy in my ignorant bliss, now that I know so much I have issues about undermining her authority.
If as a primary Domme she cannot, will not or is unable to meet his needs I would gladly be a secondary, but is this ever the case? I feel selfish and want to have my control over him which he has so graciously offered me, but fear he will be punished for it. He says that they love each other and that she told him and her dom that if it came down to it that she would choose her submissive over her Dom, huh? Is that even possible. Anyway, sorry to ramble but perhaps some thoughts? And I know I probably left tons out. I feel after asking about what shes trained him with that I have actually been training him far more than she has. Sometimes I want to be unscrupulous and enforce some training and conditioning on him , but other times I hesitate.
thanks in advance for any advice.
edited to add:sorry for the rambling rant, just needed to vent I guess and by doing so I realize I need to stepout of this for awhile. so because of all the wonderful advice here I am no longer rping nor dealing with anyone under 35 lol. oh btw, I did not seek this boy out because of his age, it was a random rp luck of the draw so to speak. just got caught by surprise at the intensity of an online relationship. anyway thanks again to all who helped me.
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