*True Confessions*

[naughtygirl]

*need to go call my step father and wish him a very happy birthday

*WOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Jewelz, past the 10 K mark!!!! YOU GO GIRL! *dancing aroung Jewelz * go jewelz, go jewelz, get your groove on...

*back later

 

[meop79]

*I love whspr

*I love whspr

*I love whspr

*I love whspr



Meop79@yahoo.com

 

[TantaLiza]

*really loves this new Red theme instead of the default one*

*hugs everyone* Thank you so much for your support...I am alot of times overly passionate (must be the gemini in me), I am a fierce protector of my friends and when I start to care for someone I am relentless in letting it happen, I always follow my heart before my head and I try to look at the good side of everything. Everyone here has been such a teacher to me and I am honored to have some true friends here....I swear we should save money and all meet up for a weekend. We all are carrying our own pain and I hope I can help just make someone smile. A friend is someone who can see the truth and pain in you even when you are fooling everyone else.

True friends are the people that are there for you unconditionally. They are the people that never question you and support you no matter what the circumstances are. They are the people worth living for.

So to all of you...Thank you

Hugs to you Amber, honey.....

Love the new Beauty quote in your sig...the series fascinated me greatly...

Liza

 

[Jewelz]

*had an amazing phone conversation with Jewelz before I napped -- she is everything she is on here and I love her for that. (Thanks so much, Jewelz... I knew you would totally get me. We are kindred spirits in so many ways. Thanks for letting me get it out!)
NG

Hope you are doing ok tonight sweetie

I had a super time talking to you! I do think we are kindred spirits too! It was so natural to talk to you and laugh so much. Call on me any time! Love ya!

 

[TantaLiza]

Confession time...

Short but sweet tonight....

*was a good girl today...

*moving was brought back to the forefront of my life today...

*is so aching for that deep voice in the night...

*thinks a lot about the future and isn't sure she likes it....

*only has 4 more days til I have to go back to work...*sigh*

*feels kinda lonely right now....

....more to cum....tomorrow....


Bye everyone...headed to the BBC.....

Hugs!

Liza

 

[redelicious]

Confessional


*My husband has serious problems
*He just went into a rage and busted one of our bookshelves
*He needs help
*He won't get it
*He threatened to kill himself again. He won't actually do it, he only says it to upset me
*I don't get upset anymore. I don't feel anything.
*He told me as he was calming down that I needed to take the baby and leave since he was such a bad husband/father
*Thinking about it, but I know I won't

Disclaimer - he has never physically hurt me or my son, nor will he. He knows I would walk out and never look back.

 

[SexyAmber]

Confessional


*My husband has serious problems
*He just went into a rage and busted one of our bookshelves
*He needs help
*He won't get it
*He threatened to kill himself again. He won't actually do it, he only says it to upset me
*I don't get upset anymore. I don't feel anything.
*He told me as he was calming down that I needed to take the baby and leave since he was such a bad husband/father
*Thinking about it, but I know I won't

Disclaimer - he has never physically hurt me or my son, nor will he. He knows I would walk out and never look back.

*hugs her tightly*

 

[Jewelz]

Confessional


*My husband has serious problems
*He just went into a rage and busted one of our bookshelves
*He needs help
*He won't get it
*He threatened to kill himself again. He won't actually do it, he only says it to upset me
*I don't get upset anymore. I don't feel anything.
*He told me as he was calming down that I needed to take the baby and leave since he was such a bad husband/father
*Thinking about it, but I know I won't

Disclaimer - he has never physically hurt me or my son, nor will he. He knows I would walk out and never look back.

gosh honey...my heart aches for you. i will keep you close in my thoughts and prayers...as well as your husband. *hugs you closely*

 

[redelicious]

gosh honey...my heart aches for you. i will keep you close in my thoughts and prayers...as well as your husband. *hugs you closely*

Thank you

And thank you, too, Amber.

 

[Jewelz]

Thank you

And thank you, too, Amber.

very welcome.........if you need me, i will be there. be safe hon.

 

[navarre]

Confessional


*My husband has serious problems
*He just went into a rage and busted one of our bookshelves
*He needs help
*He won't get it
*He threatened to kill himself again. He won't actually do it, he only says it to upset me
*I don't get upset anymore. I don't feel anything.
*He told me as he was calming down that I needed to take the baby and leave since he was such a bad husband/father
*Thinking about it, but I know I won't

Disclaimer - he has never physically hurt me or my son, nor will he. He knows I would walk out and never look back.

We're here for you Red.
*hugs her tightly*

 

[redelicious]

We're here for you Red.
*hugs her tightly*

I know.

Thank you.

 

[naughtygirl]

*hugs Red soooo tightly, doesnt want to let go.* Just be safe, k? and take care of you and your baby! We are here whenever you need to talk.

Evening Confessions....

*feeling very silly tonight, very playful, very giddy...

*making concerted effort to live in the moment and stop freakin' about things I cant control, just love it and be happy!

*have to stop being scared to feel for a man. "let go of your fears, let them drift away. le go of your fears, let them drift away" chanting quietly to myself

*looking forward to building a great friendship with NYC man. Never met a man who I felt like totally got me. Totally freakin understood me. and didnt think I was a freak after all my words (at least I hope he doesnt.)

*wishes my mother could talk to me for one time without throwing an insult my way

*listening to Tori Amos LOUDLY right now and loving it. her music mooooovvvvvvves my soul

*thinks my dog has definate attachment issues...cant get on the phone without her being needy for my attention

*wondering if Sorta is ok *sends butterfly kisses just for her*

NG

 

[redelicious]

*hugs Red soooo tightly, doesnt want to let go.* Just be safe, k? and take care of you and your baby! We are here whenever you need to talk.

[SNIP]

NG

Thank you.

We are ok, everything is calm now.

Husband promises to call the mental heath help line at work tomorrow.

We will see.

 

[Freya]

[B

*making concerted effort to live in the moment and stop freakin' about things I cant control, just love it and be happy!

*have to stop being scared to feel for a man. "let go of your fears, let them drift away. le go of your fears, let them drift away" chanting quietly to myself

*wishes my mother could talk to me for one time without throwing an insult my way

[/B]

Ok to have the same confessions as others?

*Hugs to Red*

 

[Marilyth]

Late Night Confession

This will take care of the whole freaking day... ::sigh::

* Woke up this morning to NO COMPUTER!! Grrrr

* Woke up at 8:30am!! Told you I'd do it!!

* Went to Comm Federal Job Fair and did my app and resume. Met the lady that Rob told me to talk to.

* Applied at Manpower. Didn't want to, but did. Have an orientation interview on Friday ::sigh::

* Went grocery shopping. Spent $140.00, but half is Mikes.

* Cleaned out the fridge & freezer so my stuff could fit.

* Hate it that my roommate takes up so much freaking room, and doesn't consider that others live here too (see fridge & freezer act).

* Napped from 4-6pm.

* Found that Mike fixed MY old computer (yay) but his nifty fast computer with all my NEEDED emails is still not working (grrr).

* Took Tori to Gamers & Papa John's (good pizza) and watched Buffy with her. I love Tor...she's so nice

* Tori wants to buy a house that has a guest house. She wants me to live in the guest house Said, get out of your lease somehow and say fuck you to your roommates...rofl!

* Came home to a computer & cleaned up the drives.

* Doesn't have a pop up problem like she did at 9:30pm on this thing.

* It's 11:30 now, and I'm getting tired...

That was my day kids. Hope you enjoy. I'm going to sleep in tomorrow. Have the appt with the Shrink with Mike. "Oh, what fun, what joy, what bliss..."

 

[Phelan]

*Just got done watching Moulin Rouge and I loved it. I'll be going out to get the DVD here within the week.

*Can't wait til this weekend to celebrate my birthday. going out Saturday night and from what I hear, the guys have quite the night planned for me.

 

[Marilyth]

*Just got done watching Moulin Rouge and I loved it. I'll be going out to get the DVD here within the week.

*Can't wait til this weekend to celebrate my birthday. going out Saturday night and from what I hear, the guys have quite the night planned for me.

Happy early birthday Phe! So, you guys heading across the river for some eye candy entertainment??

Hope you have a great time!

Speaking of eye candy... Moulin Rouge... Yummy!!! I need a DVD player, but alas... no $$$

 

[meop79]

I know.
Thank you.

Oh Red....

*HUGS!!!!*

Meop79@yahoo.com

 

[Phelan]

Happy early birthday Phe! So, you guys heading across the river for some eye candy entertainment??

Hope you have a great time!

Speaking of eye candy... Moulin Rouge... Yummy!!! I need a DVD player, but alas... no $$$

Actually, the guys want to drag me down to Lincoln, but I don't know if I'm gonna head down there with them or not. I used to DJ across the river and a few of the folks over there want me to come over there for a bit, so I'll probably end up over there.

Yeah, Moulin Rouge was fantastic. Very raw and passionate. I wasn't expecting much, but I was pleasantly suprised.

 

[Marilyth]

Actually, the guys want to drag me down to Lincoln, but I don't know if I'm gonna head down there with them or not. I used to DJ across the river and a few of the folks over there want me to come over there for a bit, so I'll probably end up over there.

Yeah, Moulin Rouge was fantastic. Very raw and passionate. I wasn't expecting much, but I was pleasantly suprised.

It can be fun across the river if you know the right places to go. I'm probably doing karaoke again this weekend. This time no contest for me LOL

I was really surprised with MR. It was strange at first, then I got into it, and it was great. Then I realized it was the same guy who did Romeo & Juliet, and I fell in love. I knew there was something familiar when I was first watching it.

 

[sortacurious]

Confessional


*My husband has serious problems
*He just went into a rage and busted one of our bookshelves
*He needs help
*He won't get it
*He threatened to kill himself again. He won't actually do it, he only says it to upset me
*I don't get upset anymore. I don't feel anything.
*He told me as he was calming down that I needed to take the baby and leave since he was such a bad husband/father
*Thinking about it, but I know I won't

Disclaimer - he has never physically hurt me or my son, nor will he. He knows I would walk out and never look back.

Red, Honey!
I know you said things were calm right now, but I'm really worried about you. I am going through the same thing right now, and I never, ever thought he'd turn his rage on me. After 10 years, I thought I knew what to expect. I was wrong. Way wrong. So please no matter how well you think you know your husband, do not expect it to get better without some intervention. I won't tell you what I did about the suicide threats, because it goes against all advise and sound judgement.

Us women gots to stick together. So please if I can do anything at all, even just to listen, or stay on the phone to make sure you stay safe when he gets like that...whatever you need, please let me know.
What you are going through is very scary, and it's a lot easier to just to paint a smile on your face and pretend all is good. But honey, this is not good at all! {Great big soft warm hugs}

 

[redelicious]

Red, Honey!
I know you said things were calm right now, but I'm really worried about you. I am going through the same thing right now, and I never, ever thought he'd turn his rage on me. After 10 years, I thought I knew what to expect. I was wrong. Way wrong. So please no matter how well you think you know your husband, do not expect it to get better without some intervention. I won't tell you what I did about the suicide threats, because it goes against all advise and sound judgement.

Us women gots to stick together. So please if I can do anything at all, even just to listen, or stay on the phone to make sure you stay safe when he gets like that...whatever you need, please let me know.
What you are going through is very scary, and it's a lot easier to just to paint a smile on your face and pretend all is good. But honey, this is not good at all! {Great big soft warm hugs}

Thank you Sorta, and also to Freya and Meop.

I agree, this won't get better unless he gets some help. For years I begged him. There's always an excuse. I am at the point that I just can't beg him anymore. He has to take responsibility or nothing will change.
This is not a daily occurance in my house. It doesn't happen as frequently as it used to. When it does it is awful.
This is the first time in a long while (about a year) he has made the suicide threats. The last time he did it I told him I was going to have him committed. I told him if he was so bad off that he was going to kill himself I couldn't do anything to help him and he needed to be where he was safe (I was pregnant at the time). Please understand I am not being cruel, this is how he gets to me.
He uses his words and actions to hurt me. He saw his mom get beat by his dad and has vowed never to hit me. He knows he would loose me (and our baby) forever. Still, I know there is that potential. I don't believe he will go there, but, Sorta, I have heard what you are saying.
I do thank you very much for your words. I don't like thinking that anyone else has had to experience this, but it's nice to know you are there for me. Being a stay at home mom I somtimes feel a little isolated, so I thank everyone again for the comfort they have given me.



Red

 

[meop79]

You will always have us here and we will suport you no matter what....

Meop79@yahoo.com

 

[sortacurious]

Meop, I couldn't have said it better. Isolation is not a good thing at the best of times, but especially now...I know all of us in the confessional are here for you, and personally I am online the majority of the day and night, so anytime, k? Without knowing the dynamics that lead up to now, I can only generalize and say that typically isolation is a big part of the cycle.

Also, I would never think you are being cruel for giving your husband a reality check. And that's all you're trying to do there. I know that no one here would even consider judging you or your actions.

I have to remind myself that intimidation is a looming threat of a potential reality. Anything that is done to survive, and to bring an end to chaos, is exactly the right thing to do. Thank you for sharing what's going on with you. For trusting us...and to let you know this has helped me put back into perspective some of my own actions lately that I was questioning.

Above all else, keep you and your precious baby safe.