*True Confessions*

[Jewelz]

Re: To Phe and Jewelz

Every"Friend" fufills a need for those they love no matter how fleeting..... a moment shared is better than never having shared at all

this is true......but does not make the pain lessen. my sig quote is for him.....and i mean it.....i will always carry a part of him with me. i wont ever stop loving him.

 

[Jewelz]

*hugs Jewelz tightly*

*hugs* thank you darlin

 

[Jewelz]

Re: Re: Raw

I Love my Lit buddies in the way that I would do what every I can to protect them and keep them safe and support them, the truely platonic sense of the word. Ironically, I took this board, the mecca for the intellectual expression of lust and sex, to help me find the true spirit of love.

I have mistaken lust and friendship for love in the past. But, I have also forged relationships that are truely special, ones that if the situations where different could be a romantic love based on a true friendship and respect. Respect is really the key.

Ok, did that really have anything at all to do with the topic?

on topic or not..........its very well said......

 

[RawHumor]

*hugs* thank you darlin

Why is it that cyber-hugs don't often cut it but cyber-FUCKING really can, at times?

 

[naughtygirl]

You ladies might be surprised but that might not scare all the men off and might even excite quite a few of them..under the proper circumstances and in the heat of the moment ..alls fair

yes, I am well aware that some men enjoy that proposal....and my deal is, if they are willing, then so I am.

I have attempted it before and it was painful to me....i know, blah blah blah, I wasnt relaxed enough, wasnt with the right person, etc, i have heard it all from my friends who Looooove anal...so Im not totally opposed to the idea.....but sometimes men just harp and harp that is what they want from me...so I will make that request to see if they think its an easy thing to comply with (especially after I have told them repeatedly that I am hesistant about it cause of the pain part.) As soon as I request that from them, they stop asking...

I also think that if a person trusts me enough to want to share and/or try that with me for their first time, then I can offer them a smiliar courtesy. (maybe I am making too big of a deal out of it, LOL its only anal after all)

Honestly though, I have never been with a man who took me up on that proposal.

ok blah shut up nasty

*kiss*

 

[redelicious]

its not fair really. i was pushed away by my husband. he convinced me the marriage was over. i fell in love with phelan and fell very hard. i was planning a life with him. then small things happen on the trip and then i come home to my husband being the type of man that i have always wanted him to be.....he hasnt stopped treating me like a goddess...in my heart of hearts , i know i have to make the marriage work for all involved...but my heart is not in the marriage at this point in time. i gave it to phelan. i am in love with him. i cant just get over that love over night...so instead, i spend nearly every day and night crying. i feel very empty without phelan. i know my husband is trying. its just not fair...really it isnt. *tears*

It would be so easy for me to simply say I understand, but in a way I do.
It's not fair, not a bit.

 

[Jewelz]

Why is it that cyber-hugs don't often cut it but cyber-FUCKING really can, at times?

cuz you are a fucking pervert

 

[SexyAmber]

For Jewelz

As Jewelz know and maybe a few others I have been in the same situation she is now...Jewelz sis this song always helps me get through when I need it...so here are the lyrics for you...download it if you can, it's worth it althought the song makes me cry because it is how you may feel in your heart right now

Everywhere by Michele Branch

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

 

[RawHumor]

cuz you are a fucking pervert

LOL Oh yeah! Thanks!

 

[Marilyth]

Thanks Jewelz. I just caught a glimpse of what's going on with you. I'm about to get fully up to date. Hope you're making it as well! Seems like we're two peas in a pod emotionally...

::hugs::

 

[Marilyth]

Let me sum it up for em darlin....

jewelz came out here and we had a damn good time. She got home to a Hubby that realized what he was losing and was gonna do everything in his power not to lose Jewelz. I love Jewelz and want her to be with me, but she has 3 kids and 13 (?) years with hubby and I told her that for the sake of those 13 years and for the sanctity of her family unit, she had to give him a chance and forget about me. I'm single, no ties (other than my son who is across the state) and will get over it all sometime, she on the other hand would be sacraficing a lot to move out here and give up on her hubby and I can't ask that. I just want her and her girls to have what is best for them and that is a whole, unbroken family with both original parents happily together. Hence, my conspicious absence in the last week or so.

That sound about right, Jewelz?

If either of you need an ear, let me know. Phe, I'm just a few miles away. I know what you're going through! You are very brave.

And Jewelz, I know you're decision is tearing you apart as well.

You guys hang in there. Things will work out for the best. They always do.

::HUGS!::

 

[Jewelz]

Re: For Jewelz

As Jewelz know and maybe a few others I have been in the same situation she is now...Jewelz sis this song always helps me get through when I need it...so here are the lyrics for you...download it if you can, it's worth it althought the song makes me cry because it is how you may feel in your heart right now

Everywhere by Michele Branch

*tears*........yes, you know exactly what i am going through. i am so broken. the words i can feel ....my god, i just want to be with him........its hard....so very hard

 

[DreamOfSun]

Confessions

* Hopes everyone is having a good day!

* (((Hugs))) to Jewelz

* Congratulations of the weight loss, Raw!

* Having a very shitty day so far...... *sigh*

* Wonders why life is so unfair sometimes

* Just got off the phone with my 'special friend'.... damn, I miss him

 

[Jewelz]

LOL Oh yeah! Thanks!

any time bro !!

 

[Jewelz]

Thanks Jewelz. I just caught a glimpse of what's going on with you. I'm about to get fully up to date. Hope you're making it as well! Seems like we're two peas in a pod emotionally...

::hugs::

HUGS darlin.....

 

[Marilyth]

Afternoon Confession

* Ended up talking to my "BC" on the phone last night.

* Had an amazing orgasm in the process.. ::Smile::

* Wish he'd been lying there with me after we were both spent.

* Set my alarm for 8:30am, but turned it off at 8:15.

* Slept until 11am.

* Didn't go out to the telemarketing place, but called them to send me an application ::sigh::

* Going to a job fair in the morning... I'm really going to get up.

* STILL need to clean my room

* Have a little headache...

* Really want to go back to sleep... I HATE DEPRESSION!!

* Will clean my room today if it kills me!!

* Going to play pool with friends tonite to get my mind off of stuff.

* Will go to bed by midnight if it kills me!!

* I need a real hug...::sigh::

 

[naughtygirl]

I love you Jewelz! and several of my Lit friends....

I mean that in the sense that I feel a true connection with some of you, that I feel that I can share myself freely with you, express myself openly without fear (as you can with me), that I adore you for all that you are, and even for what you arent....for me its all about a connection....a connection that is sometimes so rare.

Not to mention, you guys are just a hell of a lot fun! and sooooo much fun to play with *eg*!!!

ok enough lovey-dovey stuff.....where is there playing going on??? do I need to go to the bad gurlz club? hmmmm?

NG

 

[Jewelz]

If either of you need an ear, let me know. Phe, I'm just a few miles away. I know what you're going through! You are very brave.

And Jewelz, I know you're decision is tearing you apart as well.

You guys hang in there. Things will work out for the best. They always do.

::HUGS!::

Is it really that awful to wish that my husband never "woke up" ?

I wonder if Phelan would still want me.......*sigh* I love him.

 

[Jewelz]

I love you Jewelz! and several of my Lit friends....

I mean that in the sense that I feel a true connection with some of you, that I feel that I can share myself freely with you, express myself openly without fear (as you can with me), that I adore you for all that you are, and even for what you arent....for me its all about a connection....a connection that is sometimes so rare.

Not to mention, you guys are just a hell of a lot fun! and sooooo much fun to play with *eg*!!!

ok enough lovey-dovey stuff.....where is there playing going on??? do I need to go to the bad gurlz club? hmmmm?

NG

exactly...i love you too! connections are made and it is wonderful to have the friendships made here!

 

[redelicious]

Is it really that awful to wish that my husband never "woke up" ?

I wonder if Phelan would still want me.......*sigh* I love him.

Nope, not a bit . . .

 

[Marilyth]

Is it really that awful to wish that my husband never "woke up" ?

I wonder if Phelan would still want me.......*sigh* I love him.

Whenever a "man" is challenged he wakes up for a brief moment. In my case, he has gone back to his old ways just a quickly.

It seems to me that Phe loves you dearly. There's an old saying...

If you love someone, set them free. If they come back, it was meant to be. If they don't, they were never yours to begin with.

I think that says a lot in this situation. Because, it seems to me, that you would go back in a heartbeat.

Everyone wants their lives to be like they once were. When kids are involved, that makes the choice that much harder. This is why I'm sorta glad I don't have kids yet, though I want them desperately.

Hang on!! The rope get's longer and stronger the more you stay on it. It won't break, and neither will your love.

True love conquers all. Do you think anything will get in the way? Not even death!

Stay strong. We're all here for you!!

((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))

 

[RawHumor]

Jewelz

Honey, as long as you're talking publically about this, I'll post this publically as well. Hopefully, this won't upset you too much, but I try to be honest anyway.

I feel that you actually want a relationship that was really only imaginary. I'm not even talking about your relationship with Phe. From what you told me, I really think that what you want to feel, you wouldn't have felt with him, and if you did get together with him, you still would be left wanting for more.

Maybe you even need to love yourself more rather than looking for outside validation.

All of these are just my own opinions, of course.

 

[gr8dad2]

Holy Shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RH actually making sense and not being a wise ass... Ya gotta love that little Beefcake... words of wisdsom brother... just pulling your short little legs

 

[RawHumor]

Holy Shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RH actually making sense and not being a wise ass... Ya gotta love that little Beefcake... words of wisdsom brother... just pulling your short little legs

LOL Normally, I don't like to discuss private matters in public, but since it was already in public, I figured why not?

 

[gr8dad2]

RH

The lady HAS to know that no matter what is going on in her R/l we are all supportive of HER.. we can't do anything to make it magically better but we can be there for her to vent on .. be sad with and bitch and moan til her hearts content.. we are here to support her and thats what we do its amazing but verbalizing ones feelings goes a long way to start the healing process.