*True Confessions*

[sortacurious]

Oh good, do I see a partner in crime??? Hi SC!!

Absolutely! Hiya Fiesty...

Where's everybody go?

 

[naughtygirl]

*peeks head into room*

Hey everyone, hope you are all doing well tonight

 

[sortacurious]

Re: *peeks head into room*

Hey everyone, hope you are all doing well tonight

Hey NG! Love the Av!

 

[naughtygirl]

Thanks sorta...wish I was more computer literate to make it a little bigger...damn

Hope you are feeling better than earlier today *butterfly kisses*

 

[1fiestyredhead]

Absolutely! Hiya Fiesty...

Where's everybody go?

I don't know.....but it's just way too quiet!

 

[naded]

* is getting rest before tomorrow

* wishes his Lit friends a good evening

* is worried about the lack of Amber

 

[1fiestyredhead]

* is getting rest before tomorrow

* wishes his Lit friends a good evening

* is worried about the lack of Amber

Getting rest....so I should be safe from anymore declarations that endanger my membership in the bad gurlz club....

* is worried about Amber too

 

[naughtygirl]

Get lots of rest Naded! and good luck tomorrow...*kiss*

*wondering about Amber as well, hopes she is ok and just taking a short vacation from Lit

 

[Batch]

* it is late
* must go to bed soon
*am walking around in my thoughts wondering, where the time has gone
*thinking i will get drunk and allow myself to cry
* thinking of unlocking a small portion of something...letting it air it self out.... and then i could cry
*giving an ear to co-workers today
* offering encouragement
* breath i say...trust yourself to make the right choice
*have my drink now
*am not sure how to process this...my boss offered congratulations to me..for having the first first school class ready for kindergarten in three years come out of our center
* i have only told my husband
* i stay with him because he is the only person I trust to help me when the world falls down around me
* he even went to the Catholic church with me when the shit was hitting the fan..for me last year when I almost lost the use of my foot for ever
* he gives me no shit about the weight gain
* judge me by my work not by my ugly face
* although he says I am beautiful i will never believe it
* i do not see my reflection in terms of pretty or lovely or beautiful..only as you look tired, is that a zit...and god has that piec of lettuce been in my teeth since lunch?
*i do not like seeing pictures of myself
* because I do not recognize that person...
* somtimes when i drink too much i don't know who that is in the mirror
* i like cats
* i wear baggy men's shirts... and very loose pants and shorts...
* to work to everywhere
* i like my husbands old shirts...
* when I went for the teacher interview...I carefully shopped for the right thing to wear and then I walked around work before the interview...just so I could see the shock on peoples faces...and see I clean up real good...J is that you?
when we first started seeing eachother ..I adored him......I adored him...and we made love and I got pregnant the first time and he left me for almost three years....
* and I waited for him...I waited...
* he ame back into my life...and I allowed him to get to know his son....we got back together
* he was using drugs in my apartment...and left a film of white shit...crank on a mirror..right where the kids could have gotten it
*i threw him out...
* *i let him cry on the front steps and I won't not even let him in to call someone
* he went home to the desert and his parents...and he chose well for himself......
* promised to not do drugs any more
* he got a job
* he went to work and
*I thought it was going to be happily ever after...I was how old in 1990? twenty seven and or twenty six...
* i still believed in true love
there that is the pain I see tonight
I think that that is what love is....but it isn't........ it is unending pain
ther is no happily ever after there is no joy
i need to drink some more and then I will go to bed...

 

[zetacon4]

Sweet Batch....

I see that I am not the only one feeling that way tonight.
Your confession made me cry. I know my life is not so good, but you seem to have gotten even a worse piece of the pie than I have. Man, I am so empathetic for you!!!!! There are feelings going through me that I can't even put into words. I just want to say, I feel with you on those things! And wish for you a lot of healing and warmth for your soul.

Kisses

 

[Batch]

i am having a melt down
pity party
who s e house is this?
i never dreamed of marrying or ever having children
my mother told me I was going to be a bad mother....bad mother...my children are wonderful people

bad person i might be.
or caught in some agony that only surfaces on rare occasions

 

[sortacurious]

I guess the night just went to shit for everyone.



oops, almost forgot...

{{{{Batch}}}}

 

[badmatt]

Okay, I confess

I've worked too hard and missed this place far too much...so when I woke up at 1am I logged in....
and now, I don't think I'll go to sleep for hours..even if I'm here all alone...god I hope I'm not here all alone

 

[sortacurious]

Hey stranger.

I think everyone is gone. Maybe aliens or somethin'.

 

[DarlingPen]

good evening all...(is midnight still considered 'evening'??)

 

[sortacurious]

Heya Darling,

Sure, you can call it evening iffn ya want. No rules here.

 

[badmatt]

sc

hmmmm...aliens??
damn, and me here all alone and naked...

*leans over...blows out candles and makes a wish*

 

[sortacurious]

Re: sc

hmmmm...aliens??
damn, and me here all alone and naked...

*leans over...blows out candles and makes a wish*

What did you wish for?

 

[badmatt]

sc

if I told you, it wouldn't come true would it???

 

[sortacurious]

Re: sc

if I told you, it wouldn't come true would it???

Damn, well I had to try, didn't I?

 

[just pet]

Re: Okay, I confess

I've worked too hard and missed this place far too much...so when I woke up at 1am I logged in....
and now, I don't think I'll go to sleep for hours..even if I'm here all alone...god I hope I'm not here all alone

No, not alone
Nice to see you

 

[DarlingPen]

Re: sc

if I told you, it wouldn't come true would it???

you can tell me

 

[badmatt]

*G*

Sc...yes, I know..I would have tried too...but I think I'd have tried harder...cause I'm bad....


hello there just pet...*hugs* how're you tonite? it is nice to see you too.

darlingpen....*LOL* I can??? but I thought if I told anyone it wouldn't come true.

 

[naded]

And I am back, couldn't sleep and the anti virus has finally finished fixing my damn laptop. I got home in 8 hours!!!! Woooooo Hoooooooo.

 

[badmatt]

naded...hola 'mano...think we've been abandoned...