*True Confessions*

[whspr]

<watching my sissy and Phe > thinking..."
"It's a beautiful day"

You touch my heart

soft kisses,
whspr

 

[Jewelz]

<watching my sissy and Phe > thinking..."
"It's a beautiful day"

You touch my heart

soft kisses,
whspr

*smiles very contently*....thank you sissy. you and meop have always touched mine. now i know exactly how you were/are feeling

 

[Phelan]

Lunchtime confessions:

*Just got aroused knowing my baby is horny and thinking of the things I would love to do to him right now

*No pity for the hangovers! pfftt the clients

*Wendy's it is for us...taco salad for mommy

*I REALLY REALLY need my baby love

*LOVED watching him on the webcam...mmmmm

*got a kick out of making him ehem...aroused

*thinks he better not share that kinda stuff on his webcam with anyone else!!

*wants to crawl into our song and escape to him

What?!!? No public shows? Damn. You are the only one that I'd let watch that baby.

 

[Jewelz]

What?!!? No public shows? Damn. You are the only one that I'd let watch that baby.

nahh, no public shows until we are together *wicked laugh*

 

[Phelan]

nahh, no public shows until we are together *wicked laugh*

Oooh baby, that sounds fun.

Note to the Lit crew: You're all invited!!! To watch, I mean.

 

[Jewelz]

Oooh baby, that sounds fun.

Note to the Lit crew: You're all invited!!! To watch, I mean.

LOLOL Not the WHOLE Lit crew...just the playhouse and confessional peeps!!

 

[Phelan]

LOLOL Not the WHOLE Lit crew...just the playhouse and confessional peeps!!

OK, that works for me. I'll have to invest in a better camera though.

 

[Jewelz]

OK, that works for me. I'll have to invest in a better camera though.

I knew you would be be very taken with this idea.

 

[Phelan]

I knew you would be be very taken with this idea.

And you're not? I don't know, maybe we should ask the rest of the Confessional folks what they think about the idea?

 

[Jewelz]

And you're not? I don't know, maybe we should ask the rest of the Confessional folks what they think about the idea?

the thought of it is exciting. but when it came right down to it, im not sure. it really does depend on who would be watching too

 

[Phelan]

the thought of it is exciting. but when it came right down to it, im not sure. it really does depend on who would be watching too

Yeah, I know what you mean. It is a nice thought though.

 

[sortacurious]

HUH?

And you're not? I don't know, maybe we should ask the rest of the Confessional folks what they think about the idea?

Just got here (good morning all), what's the question? While were at it...what day is this?

 

[Jewelz]

Yeah, I know what you mean. It is a nice thought though.

i have many nice thoughts running through my head. sigh

 

[Guest]

K.

I have tried so many times to sit down and talk to him. I have pushed and pulled and damn near lost who I was every time. I am the one with communication. He just sits and listens and that burns my ass more. Then he says "what am i spose to say, youre right, i am wrong"...so ok then, why havent your done a damn thing to fix it in years? Yanno? I dont think I am asking a whole lot from him. There were times when we were so very happy together. I know he loves me but I dont think he can love me the way I need it. I need to hear it, I need the little things to show me, I need written word, small gestures. Something to let me know he really is thinking about me and really does find me attractive, sexy, beautiful. Instead, I feel quite repulsive. Yes, pretending is something Ive learned to do and I am tired of the lies because I am not a liar. I pretend that I am happy, I excuse my own needs, wants and desires to ensure his and other family members too. Jewelz has been neglected for many years. My spirit ran broken. Still needs mending.

Thanks for listening.

Hey Jewelz,

The whole relationship thing...there is that old saying about a relationship doesn't demand 50/50 from the people involved, it demands 100% from both, and i believe that. If one person is shut down, the other one can't do much. It involves both parties meeting in the middle. One thing, though, that I am firm believer in, is if you don't treat your problems you will repeat your problems, and it is no mistake that we are attracted to certain people. When I was dating my wife, I broke up with her, and who did I find myself with? Women who were almost exactly like she was. We don't fall in love by accident, or that's what I think at any rate. The best way to make sure you are not neglected is to not neglect yourself. Be your own best friend. Someone shoot me, quick, but I think that's the case. It's like that old thing about self-esteem is like a bucket. If you go around trying to get other people to fill up your bucket, it just doens't work. We have to fill up our own buckets. And that's a hard prospect. But enough out of me. I wish you best! You deserve it. You really helped me out last night.

By the way, I showed my wife ALL of my posts! And we talked until midnight, and it was very, very freeing. Thursday out to be interesting...oh my!

Midday confessions:
A little scared that this lit board is going to be very addictive. I couldn't wait to get on it today.

I love the smell of spit on skin.

Really, I love all the smells of a woman's body, and my own smells as well.

Fake breasts remind me too much of Chinese foot binding and I just can't get turned on by silicon. Give me real, droopy, saggy, firm, melon, coned, stretchy, big nips, small nips, just give me the real thing, no matter what!

K.

Still Seeking

 

[Up Too Late]

Here's some

* I'm an only child

* I love cheesecake

* I get jealous, I need to know I'm #1 .....hell I'm a LEO!

* I'm horny, but nothing I can't handle
.......although I haven't masturbated in a while!

* I hate hypocrisy...... are you done playing games?

* I hardly ever eat breakfast

* I like to eat standing up

* I don't like curried anything!

* I love oral sex, giving a lot of times more than receiving

....I think that's about it for now. I'll dig a little deeper next time!

 

[Phelan]

i have many nice thoughts running through my head. sigh

Oh? Please, share them with the rest of us.

 

[sortacurious]

lmao

* I'm an only child

* I love cheesecake

* I get jealous, I need to know I'm #1 .....hell I'm a LEO!

* I'm horny, but nothing I can't handle
.......although I haven't masturbated in a while!

* I hate hypocrisy...... are you done playing games?

* I hardly ever eat breakfast

* I like to eat standing up

* I don't like curried anything!

* I love oral sex, giving a lot of times more than receiving

....I think that's about it for now. I'll dig a little deeper next time!

Ya made me laugh!

 

[Guest]

A little religion...

Hey there......Just wanted to comment on something you said. I believe in God and know he's all around me and here when I'm in need but I do believe in reincarnation. And I believe that if we don't learn the lesson we are supposed to in this life, we are reborn to learn it in another. I have looked into this and can tell you that I've had at least 4 past lives that I know of.

Sorry to get on such a serious subject and this is just my thoughts. I try very hard to stay off of religion but this is something that struck something deep in me a long time ago.

Hey SE,

I love talking about religion, absolutely love it, and God and reincaration totally work together. Talk about a merciful God, we have all eternity to learn our lessons and there is no need for a hell. Fuck hell. Shit, if there is a hell, I 've been there in this world, and I could have left any time I wanted. I don't know if I've had past lives. I think that maybe I committed suicide in my past lives, so that's one of my goals in this life, to see it through to the end, no matter. And in the end, I think suicide is like moving to another city to escape your problems. You can move to Cleveland, but in the end, you take yourself and all of your problems there with you. Suicide is the same. Not that living in Cleveland is like the afterlife...just kidding.


God and sex and beauty all work. St. John of the Cross, a Catholic saint, talked about making love to Jesus, having a sexual relationship with God. I believe that. More and more I try to see God as a wonderfully erotic woman, like Galadriel from THE LORD OF THE RINGS (the Ralph Bakshi animated version), full of laughter and smiles and soothing caresses. God as a woman makes much moer sense than God as a man.

Hope you are having a good day/night!


A few religious confessions:

When I was thirteen I was given a crucific, and I kept thinking about the scene in the Exorcist where she is masturbating with the cross. I would dread/fantasize that my lust would drive me to use the crucifix on my self and damn myself to hell. What a buch of nonsense!


K.


Still seeking.

 

[Jewelz]

 

[Up Too Late]

sortacurious...

laughter is always good! now I wonder if I can make you cry?

 

[sortacurious]

Re: sortacurious...

laughter is always good! now I wonder if I can make you cry?

double dog dare ya!

 

[Kay_Seeker]

welll.. here goes ...

*i love peanut butter and dill pickle sandwiches

*i had an affair with my math teacher when i was a senior in high school

*i failed my drivers test the first time around

*i never thought i could despise anyone...until i met my son's mother in law

*i was date raped at 16.. on halloween night 1975

*i once let a complete stranger flog me.. i needed to feel the tails.

*i once had 3 men in one night.. including my husband.

*when i was 13 i woke up with my father in the bed with me. i lost all my trust in him after that.

*peonies are my favorite flower

*i have more friends here on Lit than i do in real life..

* i'm scared of bugs--any kind

*i love the smell, taste and feel of leather

Hello Jasmine,

One out of three women are sexually abused in some way. All of the women I've ever been with except my wife were molested or had been raped. This is a national problem, but hell, it's easier to bomb Afgahnistan or scandalize the Catholic church than bring up the problem. You are survivor, Jasmine! I honor your courage!

K.

 

[Kay_Seeker]

that's a lot of f's

*I've had sex in the woods a few times

*I've had sex on top of an oil well tank

*I've had sex in the shower, on the couch, on the kitchen sink, in beds, on tables....hmmmm.......

*I've had a fffmf before

*I'm very open minded and love being open with my sexuality
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Some of the people of Lit have joined that list of friends!! I won't name the names....but I think you all know who you are!

Hey SE, that's a lot of f's in the fffmf...that was one lucky guy. Any more details?

K.

 

[sortacurious]

Hello Jasmine,

One out of three women are sexually abused in some way. All of the women I've ever been with except my wife were molested or had been raped. This is a national problem, but hell, it's easier to bomb Afgahnistan or scandalize the Catholic church than bring up the problem. You are survivor, Jasmine! I honor your courage!

K.

You are my hero!

 

[Kay_Seeker]

Just So.

Ohh you are so wise! Thank you for your words of support and encouragement. I dont want to make my husband out to be a bad guy. He really isnt and I was one that always counted my blessings that I wasnt married to a real asshole. But as I look back on things, I was giving 150% and he was only giving 75%. I am not a taker, and I dont mind giving. But I at least need to know that I am worth communicating with. He listens, but doesnt act. He listens, but doesnt talk. It is very hard to make it work. And I wholeheartedly agree that you can not help who you fall in love with. I thought previously that I was in love with peeps on Lit. But when it came right down to it, I was just starving for affection. But when I met Phelan...My life changed and I cant even express it to anyone. I cant explain why. All I do is accept and cherish and live and dream. For once in my life, someone that knows what to give without taking. But allows me to give so very much of myself. yes, quickly it happened....and we owe NO ONE an explaination of why or how ...we just accept and savor it. There is alot more to the relationship than we choose to show the boards. The hours upon hours we are spending together. The talks and the dreams..........Its very real.

And it is not like I havent tried to get that kind of spark back from my husband. I was plain out telling him, literally making lists for him, telling him many times over...I love my husband. But like i have told him, i am not sure i love him the way he needs me to love him any more.

life is about change, nothing ever stays the same. you either adapt or you go crazy.

I am glad I was of help last night. And sooo very happy that you had a great talk with your wife!

Hey Jewelz,

I just read one of your confessions, that you were with your husband since you were fifteen. That's a long time and you both have changed a lot. High school sweethearts, I haven't seen many of those marriages work, well, If you don't count my parents! Again, my best to you! Good luck and enjoy the new romance. Yowza, if we could only bottle that new person sex, we could make millions! In the words of that Canadian trio, Rush, "Constant change is here to stay." Man, I have to get back to work!

K.