Tribute to my love Pollyjean

[ExistentialLuv]

This is for you my sweet, hope I do not embarass you to much in here. A lot of this is just stuff I wrote in different threads to you or about you. A little journal of sorts and thoughts and memories of mine about you. Hope you enjoy, and every time you read it you get a grin and a wet spot


To everyone that reads this thread, please feel free to leave your comments.

 

[ExistentialLuv]

Are first date 7-12-2003

Were suppose to go to the art fair but I had a blonde moment and got the dates mixed up.

Instead went to downtown Salem, saw cool classic cars, walked around the park down there.

Then went to Minto Park and layed by the stagnent water, listenening to the elk calls, and talking for hours, as I stroked your hair waiting for you to make the first move.

Then you took me to work and we hugged goodbye.

 

[ExistentialLuv]

The first poem I wrote you

Deep in the dark reachs of my mind
Gears and mechnics slowly grind
Electric pulses feed the emotions that are running through me
Emotions that are flooding and threating to break the dam i have built inside
They slowly spill over the top
Oh, please make it stop
I spin down the river of feelings trying to grab hold
Afraid that I wil be lost for ever and in the cold
Then I see a light ahead, I am soaking wet
It pulls me nearer and nearer
Calming me, insuring me, letting me know
Everything is going to be alright
It shows me a new and exciting life
I jump into the light
There you are on the other side

 

[ExistentialLuv]

July 13 thru 18 chatted and talked on the phone for hours, feelings for you growing stronger.

 

[Queersetti]

This is very sweet.

 

[ExistentialLuv]

Not sure if I have the actual dates right but I think the account of the weekend is pretty close, you know I am absent-minded.

You picked me up July 17 of 2003. We watched Pink Floyd The Wall while guzzling Jose Cuervo. I prayed to the porcelain god for an hour or two. Afterwards I asked you if you wanted to stroke my hair, which led to (at least at that time) one of the best sexual expierances of my life. By the end of the weekend we were drained of energy from are love making and both looked like we had went 12 rounds with a heavy weight.

Bites, Bruises and a hickie on your neck and who thought sex could get any better than that. You are incredible

 

[ExistentialLuv]

From 7-21 to 7-25 Chatted and talked all through the nights again.

 

[ExistentialLuv]

7-25-2003 Was a fool and almost made the biggest mistake of my life, but the fates were on my side and yours.

Called you on 7-26 at 5:30 in the morn for some comfort and a friend. Your words that morning were comforting and warm. Assuring me everything would be just fine.

You Picked me up and you took me to Nye Beach in Newport.
I stripped off my shorts down to my bikini undies, played in the water a little, then snuggled with you on a blanket.

First time I have ever snuggled on the beach. Thank you for that memory. Happy thought

I teased a man with a dog behind us.

After the beach went back to your place and rented some movies, got dinner at Quiznos;
Embarassing the poor guy attending to us:
"Can I have a five inch beef please" me
"It is actually only four and a half" he says
"is that all the credit you give yourself" I say

And I watch as both of your jaws hit the floor, LAUGHTER

We made love for what seemed like hours that night, lots more bruises and bites

Was sad when you had to take me home, tear tear

Then I wrote you a poem

 

[ExistentialLuv]

The poem I wrote you 7-27-2003

EROTIC GAME

Passion flows
Coursing through my veins
Replacing the ice cold blood that once flowed there
Our bodies intwine
Dancing and twisting in the night
Our hands searching and seeking the others heat
Lips and tounges igniting a fire inside
Biting and teasing teeth create plessurable delight
Such a deep desire for you burns in my soul
That I want you to know
It makes me delerious
Drives me to the brink of insanity
What an erotic game we play
Hopefully next time Pollyjean
I can make you scream my name

Your Diet Pepsi Girl

 

[ExistentialLuv]

The song I relate most to us after that weekend



Lovecats

We move like cagey tigers
We couldn't get closer than this
The way we walk
The way we talk
The way we stalk
The way we kiss

We slip through the streets
While everyone sleeps
Getting bigger and sleeker
And wider and brighter
We bite and scratch and scream all night
Let's go and
Throw all the songs we know

Into the sea
You and me
All these years and no one heard
I'll show you in spring
It's a treacherous thing
We missed you hissed the lovecats

(Ba ba-da...da da da da da...)

We're so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
Wonderfully pretty
Oh you know that I'd do anything for you
We should have each other to tea huh?
We should have each other with cream
Then curl up by the fire
And sleep for awhile
It's the grooviest thing
It's the perfect dream

Hand in hand
Is the only way to land
And always the right way round
Not broken in pieces
Like hated little meeces
How could we miss
Someone as dumb as this

I love you ... let's go
Oh ... solid gone ...
How could we miss someone as dumb
As this?

 

[ExistentialLuv]

The week of 7-28 thru 8-1 Talked on the phone more than cahtting on the com, fits of hysteria come from us as we talk, joke, and play around twisting eachothers words into dirty thoughts

 

[ExistentialLuv]

Weekend of August 2, 2003

You pick me up

I cooked you breakfast, packed it up and took you on a date to the cemetary, so fucking awsome

We then went to Pirates of the Carabieen; AAARRRRGGGGGG

We go to the store purchasing dinner (chix strips and potato wedges)
A bottle of Oregon Blue Moon Wine
And strawberries, peaches and cream

Well that by far I thought at that time was the best weekend of my life (everytime we get together it just gets better)

We made love the whole weekend
Pouring wine on you and licking and sucking it off
You electricuting me with that pen (most erotic thing I ever expierianced this life)
The breakfast of you with peaches, strawberries and cream delight
Met your family
You made me scream your name
Expierianced Vertigo ( actually I fell deeply in love with you)

And the song LoveCats took on new meaning to me

 

[ExistentialLuv]

Then I found a new Cure song for you

Just Like Heaven

"Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream" she said
"The one that makes me laugh" she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you"

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven

 

[ExistentialLuv]

8-4-2003 thru 8-8-2003

I wrote another poem for you titled Echo Screams
You came to Salem for dinner and I read it to you

The rest of the poems I wrote for you I am not going to post yet, have to record them for you first before anyone else gets to read them

Took and introcuced you to a few of my friends

We talked and laughed some more on the phone
My antisipation growing for are next weekend together

 

[ExistentialLuv]

Also in that week you came out to your mom about you and me.
That meant a lot to me.
If I had known how your family was going to treat you though I would have told you to keep it hidden.
I hate to see how they are hurting you, actually kind of pisses me off.

 

[ExistentialLuv]

Weekend of 8-9-2003

By far one of our best weekends (well best to me)

Gave you your smokey quartz crystal

You and your family painted your house

You broke down a barrier and confirmed in my heart your feelings for me by your reaction to my words, or was it our love making

I layed awake that night and watched you sleep

I broke down my barrier for you and confessed I am in love with you under the Sturgeon Moon

You said you felt the same way

Put on your finger a commitment ring, my hands around your heart

We watched in aw as a purple and green burst of fireworks lit up the sky (for any how are reading this, I am not joking about the fireworks, it really happened, what a sign)

Then another poem flooded my mind

 

[ExistentialLuv]

Which brings us to this weekend and this week 8-14-2003 thru till today 8-19-2003

You picked me up Thursday because I just could not wait till this weekend

We rented some movies

Went to thunder bowl, where I spilled ranch all over the floor and you so kindly cleaned it up for me cause I was laughing to hard to do anything

I allowed you to bite me hard enough to break the skin (Queen of the Damned)

We went to the beach and you took topless photos of me (so cool)

We whisper sweet nothings to one another

I could go on but I will let you do some accounting of your own

And we still have till Sunday to go

 

[ExistentialLuv]

Know for things I have posted for you on Lit.

So I have to choose 5, that is hard seeing as there are so many things I love about you. No need to put your name on this, once you read it you will know I am writing this to you.

The way you have broke through the barriers (shrouded in razor wire) placed around my heart and shown me that I can be in love again (never before felt such butterflies in my heart or had such a vertigo start)

How you encourage me to act like myself and do not exspect me to change for you or anyone else (bonus)

The hysterical fits of laughter I have with your joking, dirty mind, and demented sense of humor

The way you cause my burning passion and desire to rage out of control for your charismatic esoteric heart, mind and soul. (Inspiring such exotic and erotic poetry in my spirtual side)

How I did not scare you away when I took you on a picnic date to the cemetary, actually the fact you did not run screaming, but was extremely turned on when i ran my blood up your arm and devilishly licked it off with a delightful and devious grin. August 2, 2003 I fell in love with thee

 

[ExistentialLuv]

Those were 5 sentimenal things that I love about you, now for 5 exotic and erotic things that I love you for!!!!!!

1) The electrical shock to my erogenous zone (instant sexual release)

2) Love bites all over my body (so hard bruised for a week or more)

3) Peaches, strawberries, wine, and cream delight

4) Wanting to explore a more esoteric side, discorvering the essence of our love life

5) Your new found dominating insight

 

[ExistentialLuv]

oh I could go on for hours about what I love about you pollyjean, but here a 5 more at the moment

How I can talk about or tell you anything without you judging

The rush of emotions you ignite within me

The way you melt when I write you poetry, then read it to you

Your smiling eyes

That ravenous sexual appetite




I you my kitten

 

[ExistentialLuv]

I awoke with a smile, the first is the thing i thought of was you.

Then are chat on yahoo im about our little problem that we are both experiancing.

The fact you got your vaction day really made me smile the rest of the day!!!!!!

 

[ExistentialLuv]

you have made me scream your name numerous times

you in my arms, wrapped around you so tight, stroking your hair and your inner thigh, laying kisses on your beautiful face as my tounge traces the outlines of your eyebrows
you kitten

Love Cats ---The Cure

We should have eachother for tea, we should have eachother with cream

miss you, hisssss you Lovecats


a soft, sweet, innocent lady on the outside,
but in bed,
A tigress with a fearosous bite and insaciable appetite

I truelly am the lucky one to have her in my life and by my side. She has such a special esoteric spirit that has connected with mine.

It is so erotic when my tiger starts to cry. Be still my beating heart, actually my heart stop for the eternity of time


I really like peachs and strawberries with cream

My tigeress dripping with cream

Well I am very excited about this weekend. My luv and me are going to the Painted hills, where she will procced to take nude pictures of me. A weekend of snuggling and of course lots of love making till we pass out from eternal passion and bliss

Mine started Wed. when I was layed off. Actually yesterday when my love picked me up.

I talked about conspiracy. Now let me talk about electricity.

Ohhhh talk about an erotic expierance to expierance. My girlfriend took and shocked my clit with electricity, instant orgasm and twitching that would not stop. Everyone must try this on there ladies, shock them.(literaly)

I talked about conspiracy. Now let me talk about electricity.
Ohhhh talk about an erotic expierance to expierance. My girlfriend took and shocked my clit with electricity, instant orgasm and twitching that would not stop. Everyone must try this on there ladies, shock them.(literaly)

This weekend she caused a new erotic expierance in me (not that everything she does is not erotic enough), she bit me hard enough to draw blood, then began to suck on it, oooooooohhhhhhhhh what a thrill. My vampire she bat.

expierancing multiples for the first time in my life

 

[ExistentialLuv]

Ok love think that is all of it. Hope you enjoy this as much as I did making it. I would put all the emails I wrote you in it but I am sure you have those in a folder.

I love you with all my heart, spirt, mind, and body
When i am not around, and you start to frown, just think of me and it will turn upside down

 

[pollyjean]

ffass

 

[MzChrista]

Nice thread. Im very happy for you two.