Tough, but true love

[Kim_Burly]

So, I got to Sir's house around 9:00 last night. I walked in, he smiled and said hi. Then he gave me the head lift that means lose the clothes. So I left my clothes folded on one of the chairs in the foyer and walked in. He stood and but refused to hug me when I approached. He motioned for me to follow him to the bathroom and pointed at the scale. My heart dropped, he has been on me about my weight loss recently. I got on the scale, which is in kilos, so it took me a few seconds to do the math. I am about 8 pounds below what he has set as my minimum weight. He was furious I didn't know what to do except stare at the floor. He told me to stand in front of the full length mirror in the bedroom and look at myself for a while and left the room. Yes, I am too skinny, I know it but given my caloric intake, it shouldn't be happening.

He came back about half an hour later. He asked me if I understood that I was his property. Yes I said. "Then why the fuck do you think you have the right to neglect and abuse my property?" Before long I was silently crying. He chewed my ass for 10 minutes. "What the fuck am I going to do with you? You disobedient cunt? You are my most beloved possession, you bring me such joy, there is nothing on earth I love more than you! What do I have to do to make you take care of the body that I own?" I could only look at the floor, shake my head and say "Beat me, Sir." He didn't, he has every right to and he didn't. He had me kneel and blow him. When he came, he stuck his cock down my throat and held it there. I closed my eyes and steeled myself to not gag, even if it meant passing out. I was freaking out and I finally opened my eyes to look at him, our eyes met and his looked sad. "We will fix you, my broken little one." I was fighting not to struggle, but I desperately needed to breathe. He pulled me off his cock by my hair pulled me to my feet. He hugged me so tightly I could hardly breathe.

We talked for a long time and I pleasured him again, but nothing for me, of course. I will weigh in next Friday and if I don't weigh the same as last night, or more he said he will take "drastic action". I assured him that wouldn't be necessary, but I have been saying that for the past month . I don't know if this makes sense to anyone, but while I didn't think it was possible, it just makes me love him more. Thanks for letting me share .

 

[dangersexqueen]

Go to... myfitnesspal.com. Add the app to your phone. Up your caloric intake to 3000 calories a day. Eat peanut butter toast and a glass of whole milk every night before you brush your teeth. You will get there.

 

[LittleSparks]

I hope that by "drastic action" he means taking you to see a nutritionist. Many people who eat normally and healthily simple cannot do much to change their weight, be it they feel they have a bit too much meat on their bones or not enough. Being thin does not mean you are unhealthy. Any "drastic action" he takes as a result of your inability to gain weight (which may just be your body's default state, like my own) could be considered abusive. I do hope your master realizes that you are not thin on purpose.

 

[nh23]

If you feel your weight is too little for your caloric intake have you spoken to your doctor about this? I have a friend who had the same problem and she found out last year that she has Celiac disease. Now that she is on the proper diet for her illness she has put on weight and is much healthier.

 

[CutieMouse]

You started a thread in How To on 3/24/13 titled "How to Control My Weight". In that thread, you talked of eating 1400 - 1800 calories a day, and running 5 miles every day, plus Jazzercise 4-5 times a week.

Multiple people gave you advice through 4/21/13 - the last date you posted to that thread -

Also, try putting away the scale and using the mirror and how your clothes fit. Once you're in a healthy weight range, the scale is pretty useless. It only tells you what you weigh, not your body composition.

I know you're right about the scale, but it's sitting there every morning, calling my name. I am very consistent +/- 1 pound daily, except when Aunt Flow visits, then I go up some, but that's not a problem. I also want to make sure I'm not losing any weight, I really can't afford to.

You cannot be dominated out of an unhealthy body image, or eating disorder.

 

[dangersexqueen]

You started a thread in How To on 3/24/13 titled "How to Control My Weight". In that thread, you talked of eating 1400 - 1800 calories a day, and running 5 miles every day, plus Jazzercise 4-5 times a week.

Multiple people gave you advice through 4/21/13 - the last date you posted to that thread -





You cannot be dominated out of an unhealthy body image, or eating disorder.

That is why I suggested MyFitnessPal.. It will tell you how many calories you are eating and how many you need to eat to gain weight.

Thanks CutieMouse for pointing the prior thread out.

 

[desertslave]

I haven't properly 'met' you here, so I'm unaware of any backstory to this post.

My first question is whether you have an acknowledged eating disorder?

My second question, if the answer to the first is no, is have you seen your doctor recently and discussed this? If you are eating within the proper caloric range for your age/height/BMI, etc, perhaps there's a metabolic problem to be looked into?

I have the opposite problem. <sigh> It's unpleasant and disappointing on either side of 'reasonably normal.' Big hugs to you!

 

[seven_of_nine]

CutieMouse is right, you cannot be 'fixed' by this man. I'm always extremely leery of any dom who reckons there's no psychological issue that can't be whipped and fucked out of someone. Kink is not therapy. Cathartic but not therapy. You wouldn't let this man try amateur surgery on your body so don't go letting him try amateur therapy on your head.

If you have psyche issues, low self esteem, a workout addiction... maybe even dysmorphic issues please take them to a professional.

From the other thread it seems obvious that you're exercising too much and not eating enough, maybe not enough protein or the right kinds of food.

You're exercising like a beast, strict about your calorie intake and I think it's possible you don't actually want to gain weight. That you're scared it will be a slippery slope to regaining that extra 30 pounds. If all this is the case, you are halfway to anorexic. Either way, I think you should take a long, hard, objective look at your relationships with diet, fitness and weight management.

 

[Kim_Burly]

I haven't properly 'met' you here, so I'm unaware of any backstory to this post.

My first question is whether you have an acknowledged eating disorder?
My second question, if the answer to the first is no, is have you seen your doctor recently and discussed this? If you are eating within the proper caloric range for your age/height/BMI, etc, perhaps there's a metabolic problem to be looked into?

I have the opposite problem. <sigh> It's unpleasant and disappointing on either side of 'reasonably normal.' Big hugs to you!

I'm afraid this is it (above, in bold). I don't know what the exact term the DSM V would use but that's me. I traded booze for exercise and weight loss. The truth is I have upped my calories, but I also run a faster pace and work harder at Jazzercise. I know I'm doing it, I just can't stop it.

Now I am in a self-induced state of turmoil. Even though Sir was perfectly happy with chubby Kim, I want to be fit and trim for him. Now I'm too skinny and I know I am letting him down. I am mad at myself and I just need to break the cycle of stupidity and weakness.

Thanks for everyone's replies. When he says drastic action, I think he means counseling. The reason that counseling is drastic is that for completely different reasons we both have a very low view of shrinks. He is at a loss on how to deal with my problem and he is wise enough to know that he can't beat the problem out of me, even though I so wish it were that simple.

So where is stands, I am forbidden from running, period not road work, treadmill, anything. At least I'll be able to sleep an hour later now . I'm going to eat more calories while still eating healthy. Since I stopped eating so much processed foods my skin is amazing. I think larger portions, whole milk and the like will be a good start. I love peanut butter but it gives me zits . I need to find a good weight/BMI whatever and stay there. I don't want to be chubby or skinny. I envy women that easily maintain a perfect weight/figure. Just to be clear, Sir would prefer me chubby over skinny and frequently points out that overweight people are often healthier than their skinny counterparts. I'll shut up now.

 

[CutieMouse]

I envy women that easily maintain a perfect weight/figure.

NO woman is able to "easily" maintain a "perfect weight/figure".

Once you have an unhealthy relationship with food, you have an unhealthy relationship with food. It's been 25+ years since I struggled with anorexia, and I still catch myself thinking about controlling my food [when triggered].

Eating disorders/obsessive behavior tends to improve with support and therapy (to replace triggers with healthier patterns of behavior). If traditional therapy isn't your cup of tea, you might look into some sort of support group. Over-eaters Anonymous is a support group for people with food issues - on both ends of the spectrum.

 

[LittleSparks]

I'm afraid this is it (above, in bold). I don't know what the exact term the DSM V would use but that's me. I traded booze for exercise and weight loss. The truth is I have upped my calories, but I also run a faster pace and work harder at Jazzercise. I know I'm doing it, I just can't stop it.

Now I am in a self-induced state of turmoil. Even though Sir was perfectly happy with chubby Kim, I want to be fit and trim for him. Now I'm too skinny and I know I am letting him down. I am mad at myself and I just need to break the cycle of stupidity and weakness.

Thanks for everyone's replies. When he says drastic action, I think he means counseling. The reason that counseling is drastic is that for completely different reasons we both have a very low view of shrinks. He is at a loss on how to deal with my problem and he is wise enough to know that he can't beat the problem out of me, even though I so wish it were that simple.

So where is stands, I am forbidden from running, period not road work, treadmill, anything. At least I'll be able to sleep an hour later now . I'm going to eat more calories while still eating healthy. Since I stopped eating so much processed foods my skin is amazing. I think larger portions, whole milk and the like will be a good start. I love peanut butter but it gives me zits . I need to find a good weight/BMI whatever and stay there. I don't want to be chubby or skinny. I envy women that easily maintain a perfect weight/figure. Just to be clear, Sir would prefer me chubby over skinny and frequently points out that overweight people are often healthier than their skinny counterparts. I'll shut up now.

Hm that does change some things...I assumed from your post that no eating disorder was involved, which was wrong of me and I apologize. As CutieMouse wrote above, you cannot be dominated out of an eating disorder. Perhaps it's time to have a discussion with your master about seeking some professional help, or positive reinforcement training. A good nutritionist and a positive attitude (on his part and yours) could really go a long way for you.

 

[J D Danger]

So, I got to Sir's house around 9:00 last night. I walked in, he smiled and said hi. Then he gave me the head lift that means lose the clothes. So I left my clothes folded on one of the chairs in the foyer and walked in. He stood and but refused to hug me when I approached. He motioned for me to follow him to the bathroom and pointed at the scale. My heart dropped, he has been on me about my weight loss recently. I got on the scale, which is in kilos, so it took me a few seconds to do the math. I am about 8 pounds below what he has set as my minimum weight. He was furious I didn't know what to do except stare at the floor. He told me to stand in front of the full length mirror in the bedroom and look at myself for a while and left the room. Yes, I am too skinny, I know it but given my caloric intake, it shouldn't be happening.

He came back about half an hour later. He asked me if I understood that I was his property. Yes I said. "Then why the fuck do you think you have the right to neglect and abuse my property?" Before long I was silently crying. He chewed my ass for 10 minutes. "What the fuck am I going to do with you? You disobedient cunt? You are my most beloved possession, you bring me such joy, there is nothing on earth I love more than you! What do I have to do to make you take care of the body that I own?" I could only look at the floor, shake my head and say "Beat me, Sir." He didn't, he has every right to and he didn't. He had me kneel and blow him. When he came, he stuck his cock down my throat and held it there. I closed my eyes and steeled myself to not gag, even if it meant passing out. I was freaking out and I finally opened my eyes to look at him, our eyes met and his looked sad. "We will fix you, my broken little one." I was fighting not to struggle, but I desperately needed to breathe. He pulled me off his cock by my hair pulled me to my feet. He hugged me so tightly I could hardly breathe.

We talked for a long time and I pleasured him again, but nothing for me, of course. I will weigh in next Friday and if I don't weigh the same as last night, or more he said he will take "drastic action". I assured him that wouldn't be necessary, but I have been saying that for the past month . I don't know if this makes sense to anyone, but while I didn't think it was possible, it just makes me love him more. Thanks for letting me share .

I have only read this post so I am sorry if I miss the point...but I am sure you are getting help in the other posts...good luck...

but this is fucking beautiful!

about 7 years ago I was in a relationship with a sub who had a history of eating disorders...

I tried tough love very much like this to have her gain and maintain a healthy weight....over all it did not work for us...but in truth...I do not think I was tough enough...or maybe the love was not balanced enough...

I don't know....but she was mine and I loved her deeply..I wanted good things for her and us

thank you so much for sharing...good luck to both of you...

fucking beautiful!!!

 

[J D Danger]

I'm afraid this is it (above, in bold). I don't know what the exact term the DSM V would use but that's me. I traded booze for exercise and weight loss. The truth is I have upped my calories, but I also run a faster pace and work harder at Jazzercise. I know I'm doing it, I just can't stop it.

Now I am in a self-induced state of turmoil. Even though Sir was perfectly happy with chubby Kim, I want to be fit and trim for him. Now I'm too skinny and I know I am letting him down. I am mad at myself and I just need to break the cycle of stupidity and weakness.

Thanks for everyone's replies. When he says drastic action, I think he means counseling. The reason that counseling is drastic is that for completely different reasons we both have a very low view of shrinks. He is at a loss on how to deal with my problem and he is wise enough to know that he can't beat the problem out of me, even though I so wish it were that simple.

So where is stands, I am forbidden from running, period not road work, treadmill, anything. At least I'll be able to sleep an hour later now . I'm going to eat more calories while still eating healthy. Since I stopped eating so much processed foods my skin is amazing. I think larger portions, whole milk and the like will be a good start. I love peanut butter but it gives me zits . I need to find a good weight/BMI whatever and stay there. I don't want to be chubby or skinny. I envy women that easily maintain a perfect weight/figure. Just to be clear, Sir would prefer me chubby over skinny and frequently points out that overweight people are often healthier than their skinny counterparts. I'll shut up now.

firstly...never shut up about this....talk about it..try different things

it sounds like you have what my cari has....to me....Sir and you are taking good steps....but if you have not....I would talk to a doctor...he can help you find a good weight...that can shape your body in a pleasing way for both you and Sir and have you healthy

the best advice I can give is fight that voice in your head that pops up when you are done eating and says....

oh no...I ate too much...I have to burn it off now!

stick to the routine given you by Sir and a doctor and over time you will see good results...give yourself time

 

[Kim_Burly]

I have only read this post so I am sorry if I miss the point...but I am sure you are getting help in the other posts...good luck...

but this is fucking beautiful!

about 7 years ago I was in a relationship with a sub who had a history of eating disorders...

I tried tough love very much like this to have her gain and maintain a healthy weight....over all it did not work for us...but in truth...I do not think I was tough enough...or maybe the love was not balanced enough...

I don't know....but she was mine and I loved her deeply..I wanted good things for her and us

thank you so much for sharing...good luck to both of you...

fucking beautiful!!!

Ok, well our love is beautiful and genuine, but me Fing things so badly up is anything but. I thank God that my daughter was with me yesterday when we were at the grocery store. They had big bottles of Absolut on sale and they looked soooooooooo good!

 

[J D Danger]

Ok, well our love is beautiful and genuine, but me Fing things so badly up is anything but. I thank God that my daughter was with me yesterday when we were at the grocery store. They had big bottles of Absolut on sale and they looked soooooooooo good!

you are not fing things up at all..please do not think that...I know Sir does not think that....

everyday will be a battle..but I know you will find what works for you

yes it is clear your love is beautiful and genuine