To our friends in the AH & poetry forum

[Linbido]

Hello everyone. I have some things that I need to tell you. Forgive me for being brief, but this is very painful for me.

This weekend, the two girls that I and John (Icingsugar on Lit) have been waiting for, and was born late Saturday morning. The most eager one to see the new world we called Maria, and the second one Martina.

Sadly, little Martina didn't make it through the first night on her own. Her sister is a helthy, feisty girl, but Martina was weak and tired from the first breath. Her heart gave up beating in the middle of the night, and the doctors were unable to save her life.

It is nobody's fault, at least that's what we've been told - that niehter we not the hospital could had prevented this outcome, and that these things just...happen. I don't know. They are probably right. One nurse tried to give us a long winded medical explanation, full of latin words and evasive solutions, but honestly, it went in one ear and out the other. We'll try to make sense of what happened later. We're home now. A bit earlier than was recommended, but Maria is healthy and well, and I just couldn't stay there, in that room anymore.

Seeing all the good wishes (thank you all, wonderful people ) I just wanted to set the record straight about this. It would be wrong to let you think of us as the twin parents, when we're not. We are parents, the gift of a beautiful daughter has been bestowed on us, and that is such a wonder in itself that we cannot allow ourselves to be greedy. Both our daughters deserves better than that.

It's a very strange place to be in. We will give Maria a double dose of love, and try to put our lives on the right track again. It's a difficult time, but we've both been through difficult times before, so even if it does not feel like it now, I know that we'll come out of this with our heads above water.

We have more reason now than ever.

Forgive me for messing up the good mood here. But I thought that you deserved to know. We're both around, and can be reached by mail and PM, but we have too much to deal with right now for keeping in touch.

Don't worry about us, we are ok, or will be. Shaken, a little confused, and not with all marbles in place yet. So until later...

Thank you for reading.

-Lin

 

[Colleen Thomas]

*HUGS*

I have no words to express what I feel, I will simply wish you both the very best and let you know you are all in my thoughts and prayers.

-Colly

 

[SnoopDog]

I wish you all the best and I think it was a good idea to post it. Just go and give her all your love. I think you'll make it. I definitely feel for you.
By the way, may I tell you that I think Martina and especially Maria are some of the best names in the world. The name Maria always sounds like 'Angel' to me.
Snoopy

 

[Guest]

Lin, sweetie, and this goes out to you, too, Ice - I can't find the words to express how I feel right now, either.

But, know that I admire you both, on a level beyond love and compassion, and you will be in my thoughts.

Katie

 

[Guest]

 

[minsue]

Lin & John

I know I am not alone in wishing desperately to be able to help in any way.

*HUGS*

- Mindy

 

[Linbido]

Lin & John

I know I am not alone in wishing desperately to be able to help in any way.

*HUGS*

- Mindy

Thank you all. Nothing much that you all can do, and nothing I will ask for. What we need is some time, that is all. Stick around, and keep this board a good fun place to come back to later. *no emoticon for a tired smile*

Now, if you excuse me... Maria woke up.

 

[destinie21]

No word just

 

[cookiejar]

You said it was wrong to say you were the twin parents. No, it's not wrong. You have twins, only one is an angel. My heart goes out to you, the pain must be overwhelming. Ten years ago my cousin had twin daughters, both died at birth. It is heart wrenching. I know we have never formally met but both of your babies and the two of you are in my prayers.


Cookie

 

[Guest]

I'm so sorry -

You both must be emotionally and physically exhausted.

I cannot even imagine what you are going through now - immense feelings of joy for your new daughter Maria while trying to deal with terrible grief over the loss of Martina.

Blessings on your family, all of you.

 

[Wills]

Lin, Ice & Maria

Very courageous of you to share this with us, that courage will see the three of you through this difficult period.

My heart goes out to you. I'll add Martina to my prayers tonight.



Will's

 

[damppanties]

Now, if you excuse me... Maria woke up.

Lin, Ice,

Maria will get all the love you wonderful people can give her, and then some more. Martina was anticipated and loved so much for the short time she was here. A small life, but she was loved all through it and will be, forever.

Take care of yourselves.

for you both and a for Maria.

 

[dr_mabeuse]

My deepest sympathies and condolences, but congratulations too.

Please forgive me if this seems trite or facile, but I couldn't help but remember that Elvis Presley (of all people) was born under the same conditions: he had a twin that died at birth. He always thought that he had his brother's soul as well, and that's what gave him the strength to accomplish what he did.

---dr.M.

 

[Liar]

Lin, Ice, Maria.
Martina.
---------

To the hangout: I've had the privilige to have Lin as a firend for the last three years, and Ice for almost as long (since they met and became an item). They have both been dealt strange cards in the past, but I also know that if anyone can deal with that, they can. Lin is, in her own timid ways, the strongest person I know. Martina will always be remembered, and Maria will have a wonderful life. I am sure of it.

 

[Belegon]

to Lin and Ice

As the father of two I can only try to empathize. I literally cannot imagine what you are going thru, or perhaps I simply know how much pain awaits there and thus have convinced my self I can't imagine it.

If there is any, any, any little thing you feel our family could do for yours don't hesistate. We would be honored.

I admire your determination to turn your emotions from grief over what you cannot change to loving someone who can benefit from it.

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[dirtylover]

*hugs and so sorry for martina, all the best for maria,
dl

 

[Guest]

{{{HUGS}}} I am about at a loss for words. I am so sorry for the loss of Martina, but I am joyous for your very healthy Maria.

I found this poem when my cousin lost her baby, now I will post it for you.

Angel Wings

A precious angel slipped away, no one heard a cry. No time for Dad and Mommy to sing me lullabies.
My time with you was much too short.I had to leave too soon, But love had joined us as I grew inside my Mommy's womb.
It wove it's way within our hearts, in all our hopes and dreams, Until the very purest love became my tiny wings.
Although I could not stay with you, I knew right from the start, That once you felt your angel's love, you'd keep me in your hearts.
I'm just a little angel but my time was not in vain. As dark clouds that surround you give way unto the sun,
My precious parents you will see that any heart will sing, If only for a moment it is brushed by angel wings

 

[gauchecritic]

 

[Black Tulip]

Wishing you strength.

A hug for all of you.

 

[lucky-E-leven]

Lin, Ice and Maria,

A family now, ever complete; To be guided by the bright and shining light of Martina's spirit.

~lucky

 

[pop_54]

No words could say it, so I won't try. Just that I feel so deeply for you all

 

[LorriLove]

 

[Sabledrake]

Deepest sympathies on your loss, and best wishes to your family.

Sabledrake

 

[Guest]

Ice and Lin, I am so very sorry. Be glad you knew Martina for a day, and that she had life, however brief. I wish you and sweet Maria much peace, and joy.

Perdita

 

[sailorm72003]

Lin, Ice, I'm so terribly sorry for your loss, know you're all in my family's thoughts and prayers.

Sailor