To all who are interested in BlessedBe..

[Forever_Gemini]

BB I am so glad to see you post here. Hope you are feeling better! Good vibes are still coming your way.. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

As in mine BB...

 

[KillerMuffin]

And, for the record, I have no idea what KM is talking about. Unless her connections are Mike (from Lit, not my b/f) or MCI she doesn't know what she's talking about either. Those have been the only calls that have come in. And, Mike didn't get through. He had to leave messages. And, I never answer the phone when it's "unavailable" on the caller ID. Also, no one came to the door while I was gone.

Right. Since you are alive, then obviously I do know exactly what I'm talking about. I called Laurel and the Rockford P.D. Since I had more info written down, we decided I should do it. She pursued other avenues.

I don't give out sympathy, but when someone screams for help like you did, I help them. And I did what I could to help you. I could give a rat's ass if you wanted help or not. You asked for it.

Are you still suicidal?

 

[MercyMia]

BlessedBe,

I'm glad to know you are still on this planet.

Love,
Mia

 

[sweet soft kiss]

Blessed Be....


I don't even know you... but many of us were worried.... and very glad to hear your still among us... take good care...

 

[sarahuk4]

For the record, I am home now. I was released early this afternoon.

And, for the record, I have no idea what KM is talking about. Unless her connections are Mike (from Lit, not my b/f) or MCI she doesn't know what she's talking about either. Those have been the only calls that have come in. And, Mike didn't get through. He had to leave messages. And, I never answer the phone when it's "unavailable" on the caller ID. Also, no one came to the door while I was gone.

Thank you for those who had warm wishes, especially the sincere ones. You, and I, know who you are.

Glad to see you are ok Blessed Be , we were all very worried about you .....If you do wish to pm with me you are very welcomed ...

 

[Spenser41]

Blessed
We are glad you are ok. And folks, I know you all are glad to see that she is ok as well. However, I will say this, and if there are those that get upset with this I am sorry.
Blessed you made a public statement on a public board that you planned to end your life. As you can see by all the post, you scared the hell out of a lot of people. There were many that came forward with offers of help to talk to or be there for you and some that were just smartass remarks of cold hearted people.
I know all the people here want to be there for you, and I think that is good to have as support. But having worked in counseling, I know the only way that you will be ok, is to seek professional help. You said you had just been released. That could mean you did try it and they found you and took you to a hospital or you checked in for this depression and they just released you. In either case, this is a very serious situation and all the moral support from friends is good, but to really beat this, it will take on going professional help and maybe even some medications for the depression. It is my prayers that you do just that. I have no idea what is going on and why you wanted to end your life, although many on here said what they thought caused it, but no matter what you maybe facing, it is not worth ending your life over. Be it a man or woman or job or what ever, life changes so fast from day to day that we have to remember the words, THIS TOO WILL PASS. You will be in my prayers and I know the prayers of others, but please, seek professional help and keep going until this trail in your life passes so that you can see that life is worth living for. And it is, for as you can see, people really do care.

 

[starkpic]

Hello BB....

Good to see you posting again.
Best wishes.

 

[cycleman]

I guess Ive not been paying attention lately and missed out that BB was having problems. Anytime she want to chat please do. Lots of caring people on here. Im one of them.

 

[Bug Eyed Monster]

Great to see you back.

BB,
First I know that I have only seen you in a few areas, but that I respect you and appreciate you. I have been rooting for you since day one. I have to agree with Spenser41, please understand that there are lots of people who care and love you, and please get whatever help you need.

I am honestly very happy that you are fine.

Good luck, contact me if you need to.

Buggy

 

[Un-registered]

BlessedBe, it's so good to read your posts and know that you're ok. A lot of people here were touched by your original post and have sent loving thoughts and prayers your way.

You have a lot of friends here hon, who genuinely care for you. I wish I could give you a big warm hug and remind you just how special you are.

Take care.. ok.

Yes, many people were fooled by her, me included.

The one I feel sorry for is Sarah who went frantic and was making inter-continental telephone calls because of this silly exhibitionist.

Edited to add
And KM who also went to a great deal of trouble, only to be insulted in Tiggs/MasterDJs Pest/Blessedbe's first new posting.

 

[sarahuk4]

Yes, many people were fooled by her, me included.

The one I feel sorry for is Sarah who went frantic and was making inter-continental telephone calls because of this silly exhibitionist.

Edited to add
And KM who also went to a great deal of trouble, only to be insulted in Tiggs/MasterDJs Pest/Blessedbe's first new posting.

I dont know who you are , but I didnt mind doing that , if I thought I was helping , which was the main and only reason I did that , so what , it is only money , what is that compared to a life?, also others went frantic with me , and did a lot more aswell ...

 

[Spenser41]

Yes, many people were fooled by her, me included.

The one I feel sorry for is Sarah who went frantic and was making inter-continental telephone calls because of this silly exhibitionist.

Edited to add
And KM who also went to a great deal of trouble, only to be insulted in Tiggs/MasterDJs Pest/Blessedbe's first new posting.

I too have no idea who this is but let me just say this. We have no idea what is REALLY going on. I mean there is no telling what is real or not. But one thing is clear, people do care. And it is great that they do. I agree with your comments about Blessed remark to KM, I thought that was a little out of line, but there is no telling what frame of mind she is in to be honest. And KM, thank you for stepping up to the plate and you and Laurel doing something about it. I am glad someone had that information.
And if this was not real, which I think it was to a point, then we got a wake up call, and now we know what to do in case something like this happens again. Kind of like a drill. And to the person who is un-registered, let me just say something. Yea there are people in this world that play games and are not serious but do things like this to get attention. I would not say Blessed fooled anyone because I don't think she was playing a game. But even if she did, so what. We learn from it and move on, hopefully not with a hardened heart to where we don't reach out to someone who is really in need. So to all that did show that cared and did reach out, I am proud of you. Glad that we still do care in this really screwed up world. And to those of you who still feel that you have to post negitive things, there is an ole rule of thumb, if you can't say anything nice, then don't say anything at all. There are other threads to post in and you encourage you to go there. And Sarah, thanks for having the sweet spirit and caring heart that you do. You go girl!

 

[starkpic]

Sarah and Spencer...

Well, I thank you both personally for what you have done. Plus, it is for many of us, I'm certain, really good to know there are people like you out there.
Thanks.

PS. Good wishes to BB.

 

[Guest]

Are you still suicidal?

Have been most of my life. Now is no different.

I'm still curious at what all you've said. Only a few numbers were on the caller ID and only Mike's messages on voice mail. And, I've been told that no one came to the door while I was away... Makes me wonder how you knew I was "alive, but not much beyond 'just breathing'", or whatever.

 

[Guest]

Edited to add
And KM who also went to a great deal of trouble, only to be insulted in Tiggs/MasterDJs Pest/Blessedbe's first new posting.

I knew you were Charm_brights! No need to hide it anymore, dick. Back on ignore you go.

 

[Spenser41]

Have been most of my life. Now is no different.

I'm still curious at what all you've said. Only a few numbers were on the caller ID and only Mike's messages on voice mail. And, I've been told that no one came to the door while I was away... Makes me wonder how you knew I was "alive, but not much beyond 'just breathing'", or whatever.

Blessed,
You ask what all did KM say. I guess I am confused, because she said what all she said on this site. She was concerned just as everyone else, when you said you were going to end your life that night. According to her, she and Laurel called. Now how they got that information I have no idea, but the fact is, does it matter? I mean we are glad you are ok. And we hope that you can get things worked out so you do not think of taking your life anymore. We just want you healthy and doing well. That is all.
Please correct me if I am wrong but your words sound like you are upset with KM for caring to find out what is going on. Sarah asked her to find out since she was a Mod like you. Figured she could get some answers. I am not sure how they got the answers they did but does it matter. You are alive and that is all that matters and that you get some help and begin to heal.
You are in our prayers.

 

[daisie]

Yes, many people were fooled by her, me included... because of this silly exhibitionist.

Like they say in Fight Club - people really listen to you when they think you're dying, instead of just waiting for their turn to speak.

I am not an uncaring person. I'm an honest, logical one. I think it's right to ask for help; I think it's wrong to threaten, and toy with the emotions of those who care most for you.

I received a few PMs this morning from people, including BB, who assumed I had no experience with this type of thing. They couldn't be more wrong.

A friend of mine in high school shot himself. No warning, no threats. Just there one day, and gone the next.

Every year or two, my aunt threatens to kill herself. She actually goes through the motions of it: taking pills, usually, but not quite enough to actually finish the job. She does her 72 hours in the hospital, at which time the whole family gathers around, holds her hand and tells her how worried we all were and how she should really turn to us for help and blah, blah, blah. She's set a lovely example for her teenage son, who, when he goes through a hard time, starts entertaining thoughts of suicide.

Even I went through it. It was a tough year. I was dealing with a lot of guilt. I slashed myself up a few times. Of course, I was one of the crying-for-help types; only the ones who actually die are suicidal. Once, though, I cut myself up enough to garner attention, and my mother was very upset. Here's how she stopped my "suicidal tendencies" really quick: she brought my grandfather, my favorite person in the world, into my workplace that day to say hello. I looked at him and saw, in his face, what would happen if I really did die, how it would hurt him, how incredibly foolish and selfish it would be.

So, like Spenser suggests, I got help, for the sake of those who loved me. I got some therapy, even got some medication, and decided to work on what was wrong in my life. I took up vigorous exercise and because of my efforts, went off the medication and therapy after six months. It's still a struggle to keep above the water line, sometimes, but all it takes for me to pull my shit together is to look into the faces of those who love me.

Blessed Be, you are a child of the goddess. You, of all people, should know how precious life is. Perhaps you're taking what I say as mean because you can't really look into the faces of all the people here who worried over you, who "bumped" this thread over and over.

End rant! I don't think that'll change anyone's mind about me or BB, but, at least I feel better for having explained myself.

Cheers!

D

 

[dwd316]

I walked in a little too late here, but from reading what I read, I 100% hope you are able to get your life in order and are able to move forward. Im by no means a licensed counselor, but I am here in case you ever need a friend

Remeber that which does not kill you will only make you stronger.

Dennis

 

[sarahuk4]

Well lets all hope that BlessedBe gets the treatment and help she needs , and hope that nothing like this happens again. A lot of very good people have been worried sick for the past week.

BlessedBe please get the help you need , there is plenty of it widely available, and come back safe to us, to your "Lit" family.

 

[Ladybird]

Yes, many people were fooled by her, me included.

By choosing to quote my post, when there are so many loving and caring posts here, you've given your identity away.

Lance I wish you'd picked the nic of De-registered, then I could show you the back door, and lock it behind you as you left.

You're wasting your intelligence, now please get out of my face and my posts.


To BlessedBe, I'm sorry that this low life has posted here, but please rest assured that you are still in my prayers and thoughts.

 

[Damanshot2]

BB,

I understand that what was going on in your life (and what may still be going on in your life) was/is nobodys business but yours.

Many people on the this board were truly concerned for your well being. They showed it in a variety of ways over the last several weeks. Others showed some degree of insensitivity that is typical on all message boards.

I for one, would like to know what went on with you that caused this episode to occur. You don't have to tell me, it's really none of my business. But, from personal experience, I have found that it helps to talk it out a little with people that care.

Perhaps this is not the forum for that, what with some insensitive jerks lurking around every corner.

But if you would like to send me a PM, I am ok with that. Or, if you wish, you can tell me to get lost. I am ok with that as well now that I know your alive.

In either case, I wish you well! Girl, you put a scare into us!

 

[Guest]

By choosing to quote my post, when there are so many loving and caring posts here, you've given your identity away.

Lance I wish you'd picked the nic of De-registered, then I could show you the back door, and lock it behind you as you left.

You're wasting your intelligence, now please get out of my face and my posts.

LadyBird,

Un-registered is/was Charm_brights. He's a man who has hated me since he came here. Why? I'm not even certain. He had a tantrum in Story Ideas a while back vowing he would "never come back to Lit 'because' of me", etc. But, that same day he created Un-registered. His posts have been the same harassing bullshit as they were under Charm. That's how I know it's him. He's like a 50-some year old BOY who will not grow up. Simple as that.

Now, I'm not saying that Lance *isn't* Charm_brights, but based on their writing style I'd say they're not.

 

[Guest]

I for one, would like to know what went on with you that caused this episode to occur.

Since you're still pretty new here, do a search on my name and read some of my past posts. (Especially in How To.) It won't "tell" you everything, but it'll give you a good idea.

 

[drew62]

touched alot of people

BlessedBe,

Weve never chatted and dont know each other but you must be something special. Ive read how alot of people hear have been very concerned about you. It must be great to know that so many people care about you and what is going on with your life. Count your blessings that you have people that care, even though you may not have contact with other than through here.

I hope that everything works out for you.

 

[Guest]

Thank you.