Betticus
FigDaddy!
- Joined
- Apr 9, 2004
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It has been a long time since I last visited. I apologize for the lack of presence and camaraderie. I have been through hell this past year. I have been diagnosed by 3 different doctors and all have reached the same conclusion. I have PTSD and brain damage due to a violent police raid on my home in NM and have moved home to Oklahoma on the advice of one of my best friends who is a director for homeland security. His words were leave now or the Las Cruces police will kill you. It was the police that damaged me so badly. They did a no knock warrant with about half their police force on an illegal warrant based on the word of a meth dealer who was busted passing forged checks. I had just retired from operating spacecraft for NASA 3 months prior. Thankfully I did have a video security system installed but the damn police destroyed my cameras at the beginning but I have some good footage of them fucking up. The department of Homeland Security via my pal has used my footage as part of their training... on what to never do. So where does that leave me? I now feel like I am high on weed all the time. 24/7 I feel high due to brain damage. My short term memory is just done.. I can't balance correctly so when I go to a store I have to get a cart just so I can hold on to it without falling. These are all things I can compensate for but something else broke and it is worrying me a lot. Ever since the raid and TBI, after the hospitalization and everything.. I have become aware that I do not feel emotion unless I am like one on one with a very trusted friend but even that is not right. I have already been thru the psych eval for SS and I'm now on an end of life comfort plan through my doctors due to my liver failure.
(Their salsa sorta sucks... ) 
