This is how I feel right about now.

[Ms_Lilith]

Statue


I enjoyed having the ground I walked upon
worshipped by him.
And I enjoyed worshipping the ground
he walked on.
But that is no more,
and I am only a statue-
not even a holy one.
And no one venerates me,
nor pays me any heed at all.
I miss those days.

10.19.01



Talk about a prophecy.. written a while back, and it feels like it's coming true now.

fuckit all.

 

[JazzManJim]

Nah. Here's more how I see you:

She stands like an oak
Bowing hard into the storm
Standing tall come dawn.

 

[pipercatt]

That's beautiful, Jim.

Vixen, I am sorry you are feeling down. Wish I could do something to make you feel better.

 

[Dougy]

I'm sure there is plenty of veneration out there for you Vix.

 

[Ms_Lilith]

it's a specific person who venerated me. And I got the wrong idea. I thought it was more than it was. And I was wrong. But my heart is sore from my mistake.

 

[red_rose]

((((((Vixie))))))

 

[Dougy]

Better sore from the mistake, as opposed to fearing it dead because of lack of them.

 

[Ms_Lilith]

Better sore from the mistake, as opposed to fearing it dead because of lack of them.

it was a mistake I should not have made.. and invested too much of myself into it, thinking that it was reciprocated.