The Trouble with Going it Alone -- No one needs to read this, or respond

[CreamyLady]

This is one of those days when I could use a very close friend. This is also one of the days when I realize that I don't have one.

I'm feeling discouraged, alienated, frustrated and angry. There are sound reasons for these feelings, and it doesn't help that I can't talk to one single person who will understand me, understand why, and have the tact to keep quiet while I work my way through the morass.

The saddest part is that, given the above, I'm not going to go out and do anything about it. I'm too wrapped in my solitude to let anyone in casually. Consequently, very few try.

I looked at my ICQ list; it is long and involved, and I don't talk to anyone on it. The one person I do talk to is being unavailable to me right now, so there's no point in keeping MSN either. I'm going to dump both.

Back to the cocoon. Can't see, can't hear, and certainly can't talk. I only hope that this time the butterfly emerges, not Mothra.

 

[April]

CL, if you want, I'm here to talk to. I'm neoapril on AIM and MSN. I have an idea about how it feels to be that alone.

 

[CelestialBody]

 

[Alyrahh]

I'd gladly throw my listening ear in there too. That not only goes for you CL, but for anyone feeling blue, I certainly know how it is. My ICQ # is in my profile. But, I also know, it's just as easy to feel completely alone and unloved in the midst of tons of people. That's what usually happens to me.

But, for what it's worth ((((( CL ))))) here's a hug.

 

[April]

I'm sorry, CL, but I have to be going now. The offer still stands, however. Any time I'm online, I'd be happy to talk to you. That goes for most everybody else, too.

 

[Nicole]

CreamyLady,
If you would like to talk to someone, I just want to let you know that I'm here. My icq #is 98782846. Sometimes it just helps to talk things through. I know you have people you won't talk to, I know it helps me sometimes to just vent to someone who doesn't know every intimate detail. I'll be around if you want to chat. I know how you feel, I've been there.
CB

CB that is so true. Sometimes it's best to talk to someone that knows nothing about you personally. Let it out, vent, and you will feel slightly better.

I'm not saying your pain will go, because more than likely it won't until you talk to that one special person who understands you, but try talking to anyone about it.

Take someone up on their offer, I know April is a brilliant person to talk to and anything you say to her stays with just her, she is a good soul that can be very trusted.

Good Luck CreamyLady.

 

[jcgirl]

CL, I completely understand where your coming from, happens all the time. Its horrible. I was always changing schools when I was a kid because My father was in the navy. I think there was a span of 4 yrs there, unfortunately the most important years of a teenagers life, where I had absolutely no one to confide in. I just started a new job with a very small firm, only 12 people. and Im now the youngest person there. The closest person to my age has 27 yrs on me. Ive never felt so alone before. I got the job when someone retired. (I believe Im going to be the 1st person in the history of the company to quit) So 8 hrs out of my day, I have no one to really joke with or bond with. Its a horrible feeling. Unfortunately sometimes it feels the same way here. No one wants to take the time to get to know a newbie. But thats just an oversensitive feeling. Its tough, but your feelings are understandable.

[Edited by jcgirl on 12-05-2000 at 03:02 PM]

 

[BlondeBeauty]

Hi CL~
Just offering myself if you ever need someone to talk to...and my ears are here if you just need someone to listen. I wish all the best for you. (((CL)))

 

[Nicole]

CL, I completely understand where your coming from, happens all the time. Its horrible. I was always changing schools when I was a kid because My father was in the navy. I think there was a span of 4 yrs there, unfortunately the most important years of a teenagers life, where I had absolutely no one to confide in. I just started a new job with a very small firm, only 12 people. and Im now the youngest person there. The closest person to my age has 27 yrs on me. Ive never felt so alone before. I got the job when someone retired. (I believe Im going to be the 1st person in the history of the company to quit) So 8 hrs out of my day, I have no one to really joke with or bond with. Its a horrible feeling. Unfortunately sometimes it feels the same way here. No one wants to take the time to get to know a newbie. But thats just an oversensitive feeling. Its tough, but your feelings are understandable.

I know this is CL's thread but, JC honey I think your great, loved ya months ago when I used to go to the Chat Room, You and Dave. If you ever wanna talk I'm here, you just Email me and I'll pass my details onto you.

Keep smiling you are SO worth it girl.

 

[Bobtoad777]

I have a sholder also that no one is using. Feel free to do the im thing

 

[forgetunome]

Hey....

Just wanted to say you're not alone there's tons of us here who like you CL...here's a hug!!

((((((((((((CreamyLady)))))))))))))

And also to you jcgirl I love your posts...keep it up!!

((((((((((((Jcgirl)))))))))))))))))

in fact here:

(((((((((((Group Hug))))))))))))))

 

[Cheri]

It is easy to feel unconnected especially when you really could use someone to talk with.
I hope the person you do want to talk to becomes available soon.

 

[Chuckus]

This is one of those days when I could use a very close friend. This is also one of the days when I realize that I don't have one.

I'm feeling discouraged, alienated, frustrated and angry. There are sound reasons for these feelings, and it doesn't help that I can't talk to one single person who will understand me, understand why, and have the tact to keep quiet while I work my way through the morass.

The saddest part is that, given the above, I'm not going to go out and do anything about it. I'm too wrapped in my solitude to let anyone in casually. Consequently, very few try.

I looked at my ICQ list; it is long and involved, and I don't talk to anyone on it. The one person I do talk to is being unavailable to me right now, so there's no point in keeping MSN either. I'm going to dump both.

Back to the cocoon. Can't see, can't hear, and certainly can't talk. I only hope that this time the butterfly emerges, not Mothra.

Anytime you need an ear, my email is linked here and I will gladly listen, sometimes just letting it out helps. I don't know you, but I do understand as I have been there before and know what it feels like.

Anyone on this board can email me, if you like. Cannot promise I will get right back to you, but the door is always open and I will respond one way or another.

 

[Isabella Thorne]

awwww Miss Creamy ... i hate to see you like this dear ...

i have seen you when you are your most vibrant and happy self ...

it's the damn holidays ... it does it to me too every year .... we'll ride through them, dear ...

please smile .... i think you're awesome ...
_______________________
She sits in a corner by the door.
There must be more I can tell her.
If she really wants me to help her.
I'll do what I can to show her the way.
And maybe one day I will free her.
Though I know no one can see her.
~Cat Stevens~

 

[Sammyjo]

After a long day at work, and an even longer Girl Scout meeting (anyone who has been in a room with 11 shrieking 6-8 year old girls knows what I mean)...I came home. I haven't been feeling all that well lately...I picked up the phone, and suddenly realized I have no one to call. I have no one with which to share my day to day activities, my joys, my hopes, my fears. I could pour them all out to people that really don't care...but they still wouldn't care...very sad.

I empathize with you. I know exactly what you feel.

 

[KillerMuffin]

I know exactly how you feel CL. You were there for me when I was going through a major trauma alone. I will be here for you as well.

 

[Guest]

 

[FlamingoBlue]

I bet that writing this has helped....

It has always been a help to me to put my thoughts and feelings int the printed word. Friends are transitory. You, however, ar5ealways there. One day youwill understand that you are your best friend.

blue

 

[CreamyLady]

Thank you all

After I posted that yesterday, I went upstairs, had a good howl, and took a nap. Apparently that was a good thing, because I felt a lot better when I woke up.

I'm really touched by your responses. I know I'm not alone here; we really are like a big family, with people bickering and squabbling and still circling the wagons for one of their own.

I really, really appreciate it.

Sammyjo, I was a Cookie Chairman one year by the simple mistake of going to the bathroom. I know what you mean by the Girl Scout meeting. Hint: Do NOT go to the bathroom during a parents' meeting, or you will never get the scent of Samoas or Thin Mints out of your hallway. Trust me.

 

[Sammyjo]

Re: Thank you all

Sammyjo, I was a Cookie Chairman one year by the simple mistake of going to the bathroom. I know what you mean by the Girl Scout meeting. Hint: Do NOT go to the bathroom during a parents' meeting, or you will never get the scent of Samoas or Thin Mints out of your hallway. Trust me.

I'm glad you are feeling better!

But see, I CAN'T be a cookie mom, I'm a leader...so, I get to get out of all those fun things...but you had me LMAO at that one...we suckered the new mom into doing it...LOL