Kismets_Paramour
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I shivered in my sleep and turned, arm outstretched in search of my blanket. Blanket... I frowned refusing to open my eyes even as I shivered again. My hip hurt and I wiggled in an effort to get comfortable but my memory foam mattress wasn't what greeted my bruised side.
"Wha-!"
I shot upright out of bed but this wasn't the bed I had fallen asleep in and I faltered in a hunched over seated position. I was in a meadow perfectly circled by thick trunked trees towering above me. Crushed wildflowers pillowed my failing form and outlined my sleeping shape like sad snow angels. The flower themselves were beautiful, delicate white cups reminding me of tulips were scattered around the meadow, overshadowed but the vibrant many petaled flowers in jewel tones. I don't know if it was shock or recognition that kept me frozen but suspended seconds turned minutes passed before I moved into a more comfortable seated position. It was too quiet but even as I thought that I could hear birds off in the distance singing to one another, the rustle of squirrels and the buzzing of something like a cricket? I didn't know enough about bugs to truly know it was a cricket, in my mind crickets chirped and screeched like unskilled violin students but it was the only thing that came to mind when I heard the sound. There was also water moving even further then the birds, a river? So maybe it wasn't too quiet but it was dramatically softer than the busy city I had fallen asleep to.
Pushing off the ground I expected to float up and drift, moving like a ghost over and through things. I didn't. Instead the hard ground met my palms with resistance and a small pebble dug into the fleshy pad below my thumb. Well that was new. Frowning I gathered my legs up under me and stood, half expecting to float and sorely disappointed when I didn't. It had been years since I had last been here, maybe things had changed. I didn't pry into why a fictional world I had dreamed up since childhood and suddenly changed. I felt crazy enough without needed to defend my actions and train of thought.
I took my first real step and ran into my first real problem.
It hadn't registered when I woke up to the pain in my hip or when I felt the rock pinch my palm as I tried to get up the first time but I felt pain. Not just pain but everything. I had always experienced emotions when I visited as a observer but this was the first time I was feeling sensations. This was real, the sharp broken edge of the flower stem jabbing me between my toes hurt. I took another step and frowned my feet having found a rock this time with the heel of my foot. When I was younger I had feet as tough as steel but I was a grown woman now and running around barefooted was looked down upon at my age.
Breathing deep I squared my shoulder and walked on. I was trying to ignore my soft feet but I walked with a special kind of gait that was sure to look every bit as silly as it felt as I tried to walk softly. Shivering again I continued to press on, my gray light cotton sleep pants and worn star trek cotton shirt offering little to no protection against the early morning chill.
"Mmmm..." I hissed skipping over a step like a drunken bunny when something stabbed at the arch of my foot. I had gone maybe twenty yards, I wasn't making any progress and missed the days when I hovered. In an attempt to distract myself I poured over a comparison of this visit and my last.
Six years ago, a lifetime ago... I watched the older father figure sharpen his sword, there was a tiredness that went deeper than just the surface, it reflected in his eyes and dulled the feeling of him. I wanted to help, to do something to make it better but all I was able to do was watch. He had grown a beard and at first I hated it but it grew on me so the selfish reason of it hiding the rest of his face the exhaustion I was sure was there as well. As the sun dipped below the treeline he paused in his task and slowly stood up and disappeared into the woods. I wanted to follow him but the sight of him hurt my heart and I was secretly happy for the chance to be alone.
I didn't know the name of this place so I had named it myself, to me it was a sanctuary and so that's what I named it. I had seen television programs of places from all around the world and Sanctuary was the best parts of them all. At time it was scary because Sanctuary was filled with magic and beasts that didn't exist in real life but under it all it was perfect. Everytime she visited there was a song to the lands, windchimes and happy flute sounds that you could feel. No matter the moods I was in, or the pains that my episodes gifted me, that warm glowing feeling could make it all go away.
My heart raced the closer I got to the treeline and the tips of my fingers pricked with nerves and I paused. I wouldn't call it fear, or maybe I would, welled up inside me as I started forward again. This wasn't right. Something was wrong. Everything screamed at me to run the other direction, the other direction was safer a small voice tried to convince me as I took yet another step towards that sickly feeling. Where was the warmth? The song that wrapped around you like a hug? This was all different, perhaps the reason behind the change in this visit versus all the others?
I didn't have an answer to that as I paused again, battling with myself against-
There was a scream.
My head swiveled towards the sound, ears straining to hear more. Maybe it was an animal?
But there it was again and I took off running. Not in the direction that felt safe and warm but further into the cold clutches of this dreadful illness and towards the screams.
Branches and shrubs thick with thorns pulled at my long hair and I cursed myself for not twisting it into a knot before I started running. Dodging a low hanging limb earned me a stinging slap in the face narrowly missing my eye and I stumbled over an exposed root. I don't know how far I had run or if I was even going the right direction and with my only clues being the few and far between screams I was fairly confident that I was going the wrong way.
Please be going the right way. Please. I begged as my lungs labored to take in enough air. I had spent too many years behind a desk and I showed in my figure and my burning calf muscles. Another scream was just the motivation I need to keep going, the trees around me started to thin out and I broke through the treeline into a large pasture. Farmlands by the looks of it. In fact as I scanned my surroundings I spied a smoldering building, a once upon a time house perhaps, burned leaving charred rocks, evidence of beams and ash.
My ragged breathing and the shift in the winds brought the smell of more than just a burning house my way. Animals I tried to convince myself but knew deep down the soured smell of rotting burned flesh and the distinct odor of burnt hair was more likely human. I tried breathing past the smell but it was impossible, in the movies and the books they never tell you just how strong the scent of fire and death are. How it clogs the very air itself almost thinning what oxegen there should be there with filth.
Coughing I finished the scan of the area and find nothing and no one responsible for the screams.
I'm too late. My shoulders sagged and my chin droped to my chest in defeat. If I had only-
"NOOO!!"
A young girl of maybe eleven, arms full of fabric bolted from the side of the burning house. Her dress was torn, ragged and cover in so much soot and ash it's original color was unidentifiable. She didn't even look behind her as she ran for her life. Something else that you always saw in movies but didn't seem to be true in real life.
Behind her a creature lumbered with an uneven gait, curved sword in hand and distant closing with every stride.
"GIRL!" I start at a run towards the girl confident that against one pursuer I could help her. I even had a smile on my face as the girl changed her heading towards me. Until I look past her and the single assailant has spawned into three, four now five. Shit. "Run! Faster!!" Saying as much was pointless and my voice strained with it's feeble effort. I was out of shape and running out of steam.
Still the girl nodded as she ran past me towards the trees I had just come from.
Now what?
There was nothing around me, no weapons or grown ups that could actually be of some help. Nothing I could use to stop five lightly armored orc like things all carrying weapons with practiced ease. I had to do something, the alternative was just letting the orc monsters pass by and go after the child.
A rock the size of my fist was the only other thing I could see within reach and I quickly picked up my newfound weapon and chucked it with all my might at the lead orc. It landed a lucky shot, hitting it right under the chin where his helmet gapped and left his throat exposed.
That seemed to be just the ticket for the creature to take notice of me. How it hadn't noticed me before, I don't know but now I had it's attention and he charged towards me. As a pack the other four moved with the first orc and all at once the remaining beasts saw me as well.
Shit.
If I wasn't sure of it before I was 100% all aboard sure of it now. I was scared and the closer the pack got to me the more knotted my stomach got. Urg... I could smell them, they were that close and if burning flesh was horrid the raw sewage, clotted old blood smell of these foul beings was way past ripe and threaten to make me puke right where I stood.
The orc that I had hit with the rock grunted some gurgled sound and lifted his sword high. Ten feet, he was ten feet from me and I was staring death down.
I would have liked to say I was staring down my death with a cold kind of collectiveness worthy of an action movie hero but I wasn't. I choked on my overwhelming panic, heart racing and pounding in my ears and my lungs still not recovered from my frantic run to my death gasped air in uneven breaths. All the while my visions swam with a collection of blinding sunbursts and black fairy spots.
Five feet.
Would anyone even notice I was gone. That I was dead? I swallowed against the pity party I was planning, reminding myself that my sacrifice could be the thing between the girl getting away and her death. My hands curled into fists and my nails bit painfully into my palms. I didn't know what I was going to do other then die but I wasn't going to met it like a meek mouse. Filling my lungs I screamed out a savage war cry, leaning into the bellowing shout as I stared down the bringer of my death.
Except it didn't happen like that.
Time slowed and something sharp snapped in my chest, what I imagined breaking all your ribs at once would feel like. Gathering what should have been agony as the sword cleaved into my body, energy radiated out from my chest. Scearing across all my nerve endings, down my legs the same time it shot out through my arms, to my fingers like lightning bolts uncontrolled, through my toes to the ground where the energy burst out like a connection of roots. It felt like someone was choking me and my head lifted as the war cry reached it's peak and more energy escaped from my open mouth.
As the energy surged outwards and the orcs ran into it and stopped, bodies rigid and trembling as if they were being electrocuted. A scar puckered and long since healed following the collarbone of the led orc under his leather shirt burst open like a fresh wound and thick dark red blood poured from the jagged opening. It, he? I couldn't decide. Opened his mouth to scream but there was no sound, blood now dripped from his sword hand causing him to drop the sword. I looked to the other orcs and found them in similar stages of torture. The one in the back had fallen to a knee and he clutched at his useless limb with terror. Another was already slumped on the ground in a pool of his own blood, while another slack faced but still fighting tried one step at a time to make it to me before he too collapsed to the ground. The last, nearest the first orc was arched back like a bow, his eyes rolled back to his head as his tremors became more violent before freezing air squeezed from his chest in a low whine before at last relaxing and falling limp to the ground.
The lead orc was still alive even though by now he had rivers of blood trickling down his arms and chest. A gash on his head blinding one of his eyes. Amazingly he shuffled forward, determined to pull the dagger from his hip. Unlike his friends who had died in different stages of fear, his eyes only held rage as he tried again to come for me.
I was smart enough to retreat back a step but it wasn't far enough as he lunged for me. It was a weakened attack and he went down in a last ditch effort to kill me. For all it was worth he did manage to rake the wickedly sharp blade down my shoulder, across my armpit to my arm just shy of my elbow. I barely even felt it or the blood that welled to the surface drenching my sleep clothes.
"Well that was fun..." I half chuckled, half moaned as my knees gave out from under me. I struggled to stay upright but failed, laying back. When did the sun rise? Shouldn't I be warm? Why am I so cold? My skin tingles and my chest feels too full. At least that quicksand prickly feeling from before is gone. My mind jumped from random thought to random thought. I hope the girl is safe. "Oh!" It was the girl and she had tears in her eyes. I frowned, she didn't make it and this was her ghost tormenting me with my failed attempt at saving her. "I'm sorry..." I breathed my injured arm raising before I flinched back. Oh the fairy spots are back.
The girl leaned over me and said something but her words were too far away and I couldn't hear her. Instead I just smiled and closed my eyes. I'm pretty sure I was dying and together we could go off into the otherworld, heaven or whatever it was that people wanted to call it. There I could apologize to her. My eyes fluttered open once more at the sound of a crying baby. Baby? My eyes closed again as a boiling sensation built in my injured arm.
Maybe I'm not dead and I'll just wake up.
This is afterall just a dream...
"Wha-!"
I shot upright out of bed but this wasn't the bed I had fallen asleep in and I faltered in a hunched over seated position. I was in a meadow perfectly circled by thick trunked trees towering above me. Crushed wildflowers pillowed my failing form and outlined my sleeping shape like sad snow angels. The flower themselves were beautiful, delicate white cups reminding me of tulips were scattered around the meadow, overshadowed but the vibrant many petaled flowers in jewel tones. I don't know if it was shock or recognition that kept me frozen but suspended seconds turned minutes passed before I moved into a more comfortable seated position. It was too quiet but even as I thought that I could hear birds off in the distance singing to one another, the rustle of squirrels and the buzzing of something like a cricket? I didn't know enough about bugs to truly know it was a cricket, in my mind crickets chirped and screeched like unskilled violin students but it was the only thing that came to mind when I heard the sound. There was also water moving even further then the birds, a river? So maybe it wasn't too quiet but it was dramatically softer than the busy city I had fallen asleep to.
Pushing off the ground I expected to float up and drift, moving like a ghost over and through things. I didn't. Instead the hard ground met my palms with resistance and a small pebble dug into the fleshy pad below my thumb. Well that was new. Frowning I gathered my legs up under me and stood, half expecting to float and sorely disappointed when I didn't. It had been years since I had last been here, maybe things had changed. I didn't pry into why a fictional world I had dreamed up since childhood and suddenly changed. I felt crazy enough without needed to defend my actions and train of thought.
I took my first real step and ran into my first real problem.
It hadn't registered when I woke up to the pain in my hip or when I felt the rock pinch my palm as I tried to get up the first time but I felt pain. Not just pain but everything. I had always experienced emotions when I visited as a observer but this was the first time I was feeling sensations. This was real, the sharp broken edge of the flower stem jabbing me between my toes hurt. I took another step and frowned my feet having found a rock this time with the heel of my foot. When I was younger I had feet as tough as steel but I was a grown woman now and running around barefooted was looked down upon at my age.
Breathing deep I squared my shoulder and walked on. I was trying to ignore my soft feet but I walked with a special kind of gait that was sure to look every bit as silly as it felt as I tried to walk softly. Shivering again I continued to press on, my gray light cotton sleep pants and worn star trek cotton shirt offering little to no protection against the early morning chill.
"Mmmm..." I hissed skipping over a step like a drunken bunny when something stabbed at the arch of my foot. I had gone maybe twenty yards, I wasn't making any progress and missed the days when I hovered. In an attempt to distract myself I poured over a comparison of this visit and my last.
Six years ago, a lifetime ago... I watched the older father figure sharpen his sword, there was a tiredness that went deeper than just the surface, it reflected in his eyes and dulled the feeling of him. I wanted to help, to do something to make it better but all I was able to do was watch. He had grown a beard and at first I hated it but it grew on me so the selfish reason of it hiding the rest of his face the exhaustion I was sure was there as well. As the sun dipped below the treeline he paused in his task and slowly stood up and disappeared into the woods. I wanted to follow him but the sight of him hurt my heart and I was secretly happy for the chance to be alone.
I didn't know the name of this place so I had named it myself, to me it was a sanctuary and so that's what I named it. I had seen television programs of places from all around the world and Sanctuary was the best parts of them all. At time it was scary because Sanctuary was filled with magic and beasts that didn't exist in real life but under it all it was perfect. Everytime she visited there was a song to the lands, windchimes and happy flute sounds that you could feel. No matter the moods I was in, or the pains that my episodes gifted me, that warm glowing feeling could make it all go away.
My heart raced the closer I got to the treeline and the tips of my fingers pricked with nerves and I paused. I wouldn't call it fear, or maybe I would, welled up inside me as I started forward again. This wasn't right. Something was wrong. Everything screamed at me to run the other direction, the other direction was safer a small voice tried to convince me as I took yet another step towards that sickly feeling. Where was the warmth? The song that wrapped around you like a hug? This was all different, perhaps the reason behind the change in this visit versus all the others?
I didn't have an answer to that as I paused again, battling with myself against-
There was a scream.
My head swiveled towards the sound, ears straining to hear more. Maybe it was an animal?
But there it was again and I took off running. Not in the direction that felt safe and warm but further into the cold clutches of this dreadful illness and towards the screams.
Branches and shrubs thick with thorns pulled at my long hair and I cursed myself for not twisting it into a knot before I started running. Dodging a low hanging limb earned me a stinging slap in the face narrowly missing my eye and I stumbled over an exposed root. I don't know how far I had run or if I was even going the right direction and with my only clues being the few and far between screams I was fairly confident that I was going the wrong way.
Please be going the right way. Please. I begged as my lungs labored to take in enough air. I had spent too many years behind a desk and I showed in my figure and my burning calf muscles. Another scream was just the motivation I need to keep going, the trees around me started to thin out and I broke through the treeline into a large pasture. Farmlands by the looks of it. In fact as I scanned my surroundings I spied a smoldering building, a once upon a time house perhaps, burned leaving charred rocks, evidence of beams and ash.
My ragged breathing and the shift in the winds brought the smell of more than just a burning house my way. Animals I tried to convince myself but knew deep down the soured smell of rotting burned flesh and the distinct odor of burnt hair was more likely human. I tried breathing past the smell but it was impossible, in the movies and the books they never tell you just how strong the scent of fire and death are. How it clogs the very air itself almost thinning what oxegen there should be there with filth.
Coughing I finished the scan of the area and find nothing and no one responsible for the screams.
I'm too late. My shoulders sagged and my chin droped to my chest in defeat. If I had only-
"NOOO!!"
A young girl of maybe eleven, arms full of fabric bolted from the side of the burning house. Her dress was torn, ragged and cover in so much soot and ash it's original color was unidentifiable. She didn't even look behind her as she ran for her life. Something else that you always saw in movies but didn't seem to be true in real life.
Behind her a creature lumbered with an uneven gait, curved sword in hand and distant closing with every stride.
"GIRL!" I start at a run towards the girl confident that against one pursuer I could help her. I even had a smile on my face as the girl changed her heading towards me. Until I look past her and the single assailant has spawned into three, four now five. Shit. "Run! Faster!!" Saying as much was pointless and my voice strained with it's feeble effort. I was out of shape and running out of steam.
Still the girl nodded as she ran past me towards the trees I had just come from.
Now what?
There was nothing around me, no weapons or grown ups that could actually be of some help. Nothing I could use to stop five lightly armored orc like things all carrying weapons with practiced ease. I had to do something, the alternative was just letting the orc monsters pass by and go after the child.
A rock the size of my fist was the only other thing I could see within reach and I quickly picked up my newfound weapon and chucked it with all my might at the lead orc. It landed a lucky shot, hitting it right under the chin where his helmet gapped and left his throat exposed.
That seemed to be just the ticket for the creature to take notice of me. How it hadn't noticed me before, I don't know but now I had it's attention and he charged towards me. As a pack the other four moved with the first orc and all at once the remaining beasts saw me as well.
Shit.
If I wasn't sure of it before I was 100% all aboard sure of it now. I was scared and the closer the pack got to me the more knotted my stomach got. Urg... I could smell them, they were that close and if burning flesh was horrid the raw sewage, clotted old blood smell of these foul beings was way past ripe and threaten to make me puke right where I stood.
The orc that I had hit with the rock grunted some gurgled sound and lifted his sword high. Ten feet, he was ten feet from me and I was staring death down.
I would have liked to say I was staring down my death with a cold kind of collectiveness worthy of an action movie hero but I wasn't. I choked on my overwhelming panic, heart racing and pounding in my ears and my lungs still not recovered from my frantic run to my death gasped air in uneven breaths. All the while my visions swam with a collection of blinding sunbursts and black fairy spots.
Five feet.
Would anyone even notice I was gone. That I was dead? I swallowed against the pity party I was planning, reminding myself that my sacrifice could be the thing between the girl getting away and her death. My hands curled into fists and my nails bit painfully into my palms. I didn't know what I was going to do other then die but I wasn't going to met it like a meek mouse. Filling my lungs I screamed out a savage war cry, leaning into the bellowing shout as I stared down the bringer of my death.
Except it didn't happen like that.
Time slowed and something sharp snapped in my chest, what I imagined breaking all your ribs at once would feel like. Gathering what should have been agony as the sword cleaved into my body, energy radiated out from my chest. Scearing across all my nerve endings, down my legs the same time it shot out through my arms, to my fingers like lightning bolts uncontrolled, through my toes to the ground where the energy burst out like a connection of roots. It felt like someone was choking me and my head lifted as the war cry reached it's peak and more energy escaped from my open mouth.
As the energy surged outwards and the orcs ran into it and stopped, bodies rigid and trembling as if they were being electrocuted. A scar puckered and long since healed following the collarbone of the led orc under his leather shirt burst open like a fresh wound and thick dark red blood poured from the jagged opening. It, he? I couldn't decide. Opened his mouth to scream but there was no sound, blood now dripped from his sword hand causing him to drop the sword. I looked to the other orcs and found them in similar stages of torture. The one in the back had fallen to a knee and he clutched at his useless limb with terror. Another was already slumped on the ground in a pool of his own blood, while another slack faced but still fighting tried one step at a time to make it to me before he too collapsed to the ground. The last, nearest the first orc was arched back like a bow, his eyes rolled back to his head as his tremors became more violent before freezing air squeezed from his chest in a low whine before at last relaxing and falling limp to the ground.
The lead orc was still alive even though by now he had rivers of blood trickling down his arms and chest. A gash on his head blinding one of his eyes. Amazingly he shuffled forward, determined to pull the dagger from his hip. Unlike his friends who had died in different stages of fear, his eyes only held rage as he tried again to come for me.
I was smart enough to retreat back a step but it wasn't far enough as he lunged for me. It was a weakened attack and he went down in a last ditch effort to kill me. For all it was worth he did manage to rake the wickedly sharp blade down my shoulder, across my armpit to my arm just shy of my elbow. I barely even felt it or the blood that welled to the surface drenching my sleep clothes.
"Well that was fun..." I half chuckled, half moaned as my knees gave out from under me. I struggled to stay upright but failed, laying back. When did the sun rise? Shouldn't I be warm? Why am I so cold? My skin tingles and my chest feels too full. At least that quicksand prickly feeling from before is gone. My mind jumped from random thought to random thought. I hope the girl is safe. "Oh!" It was the girl and she had tears in her eyes. I frowned, she didn't make it and this was her ghost tormenting me with my failed attempt at saving her. "I'm sorry..." I breathed my injured arm raising before I flinched back. Oh the fairy spots are back.
The girl leaned over me and said something but her words were too far away and I couldn't hear her. Instead I just smiled and closed my eyes. I'm pretty sure I was dying and together we could go off into the otherworld, heaven or whatever it was that people wanted to call it. There I could apologize to her. My eyes fluttered open once more at the sound of a crying baby. Baby? My eyes closed again as a boiling sensation built in my injured arm.
Maybe I'm not dead and I'll just wake up.
This is afterall just a dream...