Lucifer_Carroll
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I have already in my young life become utterly jaded to the big surprises. I was not particularly surprised to see American soldiers laughing and torturing hapless Iraquis. I was not surprised by the staggering close-mindedness and ignorance that has birthed causes like opposing gay marriage and "saving" Terri Shiavo. I'm not surprised by the lows human intelligence, morality, or nature can take. I'm not surprised by much of the big stuff.
But despite being far more jaded than is likely healthy on the big stuff, I notice that what trips me up, surprises me the most, is the little stuff. Uncharacteristic behaviors, deviations to small assumptions I took for granted. Recently a pain-hating friend of mine who has always been a plain-clothed, plain-styled type wants me to take her the birthday after next to get her a tattoo. Not earth-shattering, not even something to even raise an eyebrow at when thinking about it, but initially I was thrown for a loop.
Similarly again another friend of mine who I happen to be moving in with next year and who I had assumed by dating habits and mannerisms to be as straight as they came recently told me that she had been bi for awhile. Again, something that's no big deal, that doesn't even matter, but the very nature of its unexpectedness threw me for more of a temporary loop than if aliens started bombing New York City.
Since, we are mostly young 'uns here and since also the jaded factor post-election is a bit higher than normal, I'm wondering if anyone has noticed the same thing.
That is the more jaded one becomes to the big things, the more the little changes and idiosyncrises jump out at you.
Or is it that all surprises big and small hit you equally and that it's just when the big ones cease to surprise that you notice the little things?
Or is it that small surprises that are more personal, connected to people you feel you have a better connection to always hit one harder than the big upheavals?
Anyways, I thought it could be an interesting conversation.
Or perhaps that's just the nyquill talking.
But despite being far more jaded than is likely healthy on the big stuff, I notice that what trips me up, surprises me the most, is the little stuff. Uncharacteristic behaviors, deviations to small assumptions I took for granted. Recently a pain-hating friend of mine who has always been a plain-clothed, plain-styled type wants me to take her the birthday after next to get her a tattoo. Not earth-shattering, not even something to even raise an eyebrow at when thinking about it, but initially I was thrown for a loop.
Similarly again another friend of mine who I happen to be moving in with next year and who I had assumed by dating habits and mannerisms to be as straight as they came recently told me that she had been bi for awhile. Again, something that's no big deal, that doesn't even matter, but the very nature of its unexpectedness threw me for more of a temporary loop than if aliens started bombing New York City.
Since, we are mostly young 'uns here and since also the jaded factor post-election is a bit higher than normal, I'm wondering if anyone has noticed the same thing.
That is the more jaded one becomes to the big things, the more the little changes and idiosyncrises jump out at you.
Or is it that all surprises big and small hit you equally and that it's just when the big ones cease to surprise that you notice the little things?
Or is it that small surprises that are more personal, connected to people you feel you have a better connection to always hit one harder than the big upheavals?
Anyways, I thought it could be an interesting conversation.
Or perhaps that's just the nyquill talking.
