The Jeffinator's Lounge

[The Jeffinator]

Hmmm. I dunno if I'm up to two superhero threads at the same time.

 

[I_Am_Lust]

*thinks* I do love playing Jubes, but who's girl would she end up as. << >> << *kinda hopes it's Wolverine* XD

 

[The Jeffinator]

Hehe sure.

 

[NiteCrowe]

I remember that i read an X-men story.

It started with logan returning to the mansion after five years, and discovering that jubilee has a daughter, and is going out with gambit, who has raised jubes daughter as his own.

You then find out that the child is in fact, logan's daughter.

The whole of the x-men spoil her, including her uncle Hank.

Then unfortunatly Jubes dies, and gambit can't bring himself to raise his adopted daughter, and gives her to logan, who is currently being yelled at for getting jubes pregnant.

The story ends with logan once more heading to canada once more with his daughter.

 

[NiteCrowe]

Heres a thread, and i was wondering if anyone wanted to join

http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=596902

its called Justice league 4: 2nd gig.

I'm also thinking about restarting my X-men next gen thread, if any of the old gang are interested.

And i'm also thinking about doing my own version of a ghost in the shell thread. again, any interest is welcome.

 

[The Jeffinator]

I've had enough. It's bad enough I got stuck watching the kids again, but the screaming and arguing and the way my stepmom treats me is all too much. Certain things she said to me today have pushed me over the edge. I'm tired of putting other people above myself -- shit's gonna hit the fan tonight when I sit my dad and stepmom down and talk to them. My stepmom has been pushing me an pushing me closer to the edge, even though I am watching her kids against my will, and now she has pushed too far -- I'm done. They are going to hate me and possibly kick me out when I tell them tonight that I won't be watching the kids anymore. I'm getting a job, and as soon as I get my first paycheck, I'm getting an apartment. If they end up kicking me out, so be it -- I'll go to a day labor place and sleep behind a dumpster. Sure, I might end up dead, I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees.

 

[NiteCrowe]

*hasn't got a clue what to say...*

 

[The Jeffinator]

GAAAH! She just won't stop BITCHING ABOUT EVERYTHING!!! I am opposed to hitting women, but this fucking bitch sure makes me consider it.

 

[The Jeffinator]

*sighs* I lost the balls my anger gave me and chickened out, lol.

 

[dragonrazor]

You're problem is you're like me...too nice....

 

[VelvetDarkness]

I'm sorry to hear that Jeff, step families are always emotional minefields. Can you not reach a compromise where you work part time and watch the kids on other days? It'd take you longer to save for an apartment but at least you'd be making progress without getting evicted. Perhaps there are ways you can earn some cash from home while ostensibly kid-watching?

 

[The Jeffinator]

Well, while watching them, I get to sleep on the couch, eat three meals a day and some snacks, and I get 75 a week, but it's not worth it. See, this is the third time another babysitter has backed out. Thess kids are hellions, and no one wants to watch them. They don't listen to anybody, and the last three babysitters backed out at the last minute. It's just like Nanny McPhee, but with two bad kids and no magical nanny. Victoria can be a bitch just like her mother, and Tommy has an attitude that makes you want to slam his head into the wall a few times. He's always jumping on the couch and trashing the place and picking on his sister and she picks back and together they throw toys and trash all over the house and pull cushions off the couch to jump on and no matter how many times they are told to stop or screamed at they keep it up until my dad looses his cool and smacks their asses. Then, after getting their asses beat, SOMETIMES they stop. Other times my Dad has to spank them multiple times before they'll calm down. Plus, a stepmom that screams at everyone from her recliner but doesn't get up to do anything about it adds to EVERYONE's anger. My Dad is like her bitch -- he does laundry, dishes, dinner, baths for the kids, homework doing school -- he is almost like a single parent, because Susan expects him to do all the work around the house and with the kids in addition to making sure she has clean work clothes, fresh iced tea made, and anything else she can get him to do. And whenever Susan doesn't get what Susan wants, she makes hell for everyone. My dad has said before he sometimes wishes he'd die in his sleep so that he doesn't have to wake back up to his miserable life. Sadly, he's overweight, smokes a LOT, eats junk food, and is 48 years old. My stepmom is driving him to his death -- he'll have a heart attack from the stress. My mom is at high risk for a major stroke too -- at this rate, both my parents will be dead before I'm 30.

See, the reason I need to get out of here ASAP is because of the stress it causes me too. Like, today, it was BAD:

My day off from watching the kids, so I should be able to sleep in, right? Wrong. Susan wakes me up because she needs me to show her how to make pancakes for the kids, which translates into "You need to wake up and make them pancakes because I can't be expected to do it myself." So, I'm awake, in the kitchen, tired and cranky and pissed as I make pancakes. Then, the bitch has the nerve to say, "Make sure you get this kitchen clean by Friday." I take orders from no one, so this nearly caused me to turn and yell at her, but my Dad doesn't want me to stand up to her because he's scared she'll turn on him if she thinks I'm being rude to her. So, being the coward my father wants me to be because he himself is a coward, I silently take her shit. Then, she says to me later, "Make sure and get this kitchen clean today." I get pissed, and say "I'm not doing all these dishes today! I'll do one load, but that's it!" to which she replies "Well, get them done by tomorrow then." I got more pissed, and at this point, I said "fuck dad's coward ass" to myself and lost my cool, but just slightly. I said, "I got this kitchen all cleaned up like six times in the last two weeks, yet you all keep trashing it, throwing papers and wrappers and food into the sink. If all three of us did dishes instead of just me, it'd stay clean!" and then I stomped off and she got quiet for a while.

Then, I get hit with the runs, and ask if anyone needs to use the bathroom because I was going to be in there a while. She says she'll need to go in just a second, then proceeds to finish her conversation with Victoria, leaving me standing there with my ass cheeks clenched until it's convenient for her to go pee. I feel like a fucking slave or something -- no offense, Velvet, lol.

 

[The Jeffinator]

Oh, I noticed an inconsistency -- my dad used to do all the dishes, until I started doing them. Then he stopped and focused on other things.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

None taken.

That sounds just awful. My best friend is a good mum to her kids but her family are trash. I recently went to a BBQ at her and her SO's house and her brother, W was there with his gf and 2 kids. These kids are hell on Earth and don't listen to anything that's said to them. My friend L and her partner, C (who was doing the cooking) both kept herding W's kids away from the BBQ while W & his gf sat on their asses drinking free beer and ignoring their spawn. Of course, the inevitable happened and W's older kid went running past the BBQ, tripped on his shoelace and got burned. The kid then gets yelled at by his dad while L's trying to treat his burnt arm. I felt angry that these kids are getting hurt because they have been given no boundaries and taught no respect. The youngest has bad asthma and still W and his gf chainsmoke around the poor little sod all day.

It does sound like you're being treated like a slave and it must be hell for you. Are the kids your dad's children or just hers? Has he never tried to leave this poisonous woman? Sounds like something is going to have to give and by being so passive you father is letting you be the bad cop. He needs to back you up.

 

[The Jeffinator]

The kids are my dad's. Victoria, who is about to turn seven, and Tommy, who turned five a few months ago. The ONLY reason he's still with her is for the sake of my halfbrother and halfsister. See, my mother is a bitch too, and he had the same issues with her as he has with his current wife. But back then, my dad was younger and in the Navy, so he got to be away from her shit several months out of the year. Though, they eventually got divorced. My Dad wasn't around a lot when we were growing up because he could only deal with my mom's shit for short periods of time. He FINALLY became a big part of my life when I was like 14. When we found out Susan was pregnant (I was 18 at the time), I sat down with my Dad and what I said next probably caused this, lol. I told him, "Dad. Don't do to this child what you did to us. Be there for him or her. Do right with this kid what you did wrong with us." and ever since, he puts up with her shit for the sake of the kids.

As far as backing me up, there are times he'll stand up for me, but this is usually for much smaller things. I have tried living here three other times in the past, and each time I end up leaving because he won't try and change things. He's a fucking pussy, and it's hard to look up to a father like that. Sure, he staying for the kids, which is awesome, but he needs to put his foot down and assert some control in the household. I mean, what good is it to stay in this house for the kids' sake if in doing that he dies from the stress? Then five people lose their father.

 

[The Jeffinator]

There are times I want to just curl of in a ball and cry because of all this shit I've had to deal with my entire life. I mean, I was raised by a bitch of a mother who screamed a lot, did drugs, was high on pain meds a lot, and constantly trash-talked our father behind his back. She would tell us how he didn't care and try to make us hate him or something. I later found out from him a lot of this was her way of getting back at him for not being there, by turning his kids against him. So, I'm sure you can imagine how my emotions could be all fucked up growing up in a household like that. My mom has tried multiple times to kill herself, and is very mildly insane, or so I think. She was manipulative, vindictive, and if pissed off enough, verbally cruel. Susan is the same way, minus the drugs.

There are times I wish I had no family and was all alone. I never see the people on my dad's side of the family anymore, and my mom's side is full of psychopaths, druggies, drunks, jerks, and bitches.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

Oh wow.

My father was a waste of space. He's a nice enough person these days but he's totally incapable of responsibility of any description. The best thing my parents ever did was divorce. When I was a kid, he was an alcoholic and occasionally violent as a result. He's still an alcoholic but these days he's mellowed a bit. I hardly ever see him so it's a moot issue really.

My mother wasn't the best. She provided for us and gave us discipline but she made it clear that she felt trapped and that if she hadn't had my sister and I, she wouldn't have had her life hamstrung when my father left. She also knew she was going to become ill with a genetic condition at some point. My grandfather died of Huntington's Disease the year I was born and he was only in his 40s. Thankfully mum had no symptoms until her early 50s but she always pushed us to be independent in case she got ill before we were old enough to take care of ourselves. In doing that, she pushed us away and at the time, we didn't understand why. There was a lot of resentment there even after she began to get ill. I felt there was a waste of so many years when our relationship could have been different and for a long time I blamed her for that.

There are worse things for kids than their parents splitting up. What kind of life is your dad really giving them by staying? What are they learning about adults and relationships by watching the way their parents are? I know that none of this is your decision but I get really angry sometimes when people martyr themselves to shitty, destructive relationships out of some misguided desire to give their kids security. Kids really don't need much and they're pretty resilient when it comes to change. The important things, like love, discipline and good examples are more important than seeing the same faces every day.

 

[The Jeffinator]

I agree with you. But, as said before, seeing my father like this has scarred me for life. I will NEVER marry or have kids and have to go through this again. I'm going to move into my own apartment, and shut out the world for a while. Sure, I'll go to work and shopping and occasionally out to eat, but for a nice long time, I want to just be alone. I'll still be online every day, but as far as IRL, I don't want any one to be near me when I'm at home. They can't take advantage of me if I don't let anyone in, lol.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

I can SO relate. I lived in student accommodation and houseshares until I was 23ish. After that I got my own, tiny, 3 room studio apartment. It was expensive by comparison but I loved being able to shut the door on the rest of the planet. I stayed there until Master and I got a place together about 9 months ago. I have been such a grumpy spinster too, living with him took a lot of adjustment and I still have days when I wish I could just be alone.

As for kids? Fuck no. I'm way too selfish at heart.

 

[The Jeffinator]

See, I don't even want a mate living with me. The idea of actually having sex is so scary to me because if I knock a girl up and end up like my dad, I'll go insane. I have every intention of dying a virgin. For me, the closest thing to true happiness will NOT occur if I share my heart with another. My perfect match does not exist, and I will never trust a girl enough to find out if I'm wrong. Right now, more than anything in the world, I'd love to freeze time and live a few years without any human contact.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

See, I don't even want a mate living with me. The idea of actually having sex is so scary to me because if I knock a girl up and end up like my dad, I'll go insane. I have every intention of dying a virgin. For me, the closest thing to true happiness will NOT occur if I share my heart with another. My perfect match does not exist, and I will never trust a girl enough to find out if I'm wrong. Right now, more than anything in the world, I'd love to freeze time and live a few years without any human contact.

I can understand that. Getting pregnant would be my worst nightmare but at the same time, I know myself well enough to be certain that I could never go through with a termination. I'd give motherhood my best shot, but I really don't want to have to.

Sleeping on the couch means you have no privacy and in such a crowded home I can completely understand your desire to just shut everything out and have some peace. I live with Master but we do our own thing a fair amount of the time. He likes computer games like TF2 and he also enjoys playing the guitar and writing angry rock music (with headphones on thank goodness.) I'm a total bookworm and enjoy writing fiction. We're not the kind of people to constantly have a TV or radio making background noise, we both value our quiet time.

you sound like you're suffering from depression and it's no surprise. Your situation is sapping your hope and optimism. If you can't change that situation at the moment, it might help to get some counselling in order to cope more effectively.

 

[NiteCrowe]

....A quick Advert....

#1) We need characters for Jeff's marvel thread!!!!

#2) I'm trying to start another thread, but no-one is joining...atm...i'm doing a justice league thread and i need characters!!!!


Thankyou, that is all.

 

[dragonrazor]

You guys should be thankful you've even seen your father's face. I've written mine off because the only contact we have ever had with him after him finding out my mother was pregnant with me was a few phone calls when I was almost 18

 

[The Jeffinator]

I can understand that. Getting pregnant would be my worst nightmare but at the same time, I know myself well enough to be certain that I could never go through with a termination. I'd give motherhood my best shot, but I really don't want to have to.

Sleeping on the couch means you have no privacy and in such a crowded home I can completely understand your desire to just shut everything out and have some peace. I live with Master but we do our own thing a fair amount of the time. He likes computer games like TF2 and he also enjoys playing the guitar and writing angry rock music (with headphones on thank goodness.) I'm a total bookworm and enjoy writing fiction. We're not the kind of people to constantly have a TV or radio making background noise, we both value our quiet time.

you sound like you're suffering from depression and it's no surprise. Your situation is sapping your hope and optimism. If you can't change that situation at the moment, it might help to get some counselling in order to cope more effectively.

Well, I don't believe in abortions or leaving a pregnant mother hanging, which is why I won't have sex -- if I knock her up, I'd have no choice but to be a husband and daddy, because I could never live with myself if I had my kid killed or left him/her without a daddy. I mean, if I found the right woman, I'd make a good daddy, but that will never happen. When my brother and sister are behaving (which isn't often), they enjoy time with me. I'm a good big brother, even my stepmom gives me that. When they are not screaming and trashing the place, I'll sometimes play with them. Like, one game we have is that I'll give them a funny look and they'll smile, then I'll be like, "On the count of three, I'M going to get YOU." I'll start counting to three slowly, and they'll scream (a laughing scream) and run to their room, hiding under their covers. When I get to three, I'll run really loud so they hear my bare feet slapping against the tile in the dining room towards their bedroom, and I'll be like "Hey, where'd they go?" and I'll hear giggles from under their blankets. Sometimes I'll lightly sit on one of them and say "Hey, this pillow is all lumpy! I'd better fluff it!" and then I'll tickle their sides. Sometimes, I'll do something funny and they'll start machine-gun laughing. One of the things that gets my brother going the best is when I grab his feet, turn so he can't see them, and say, "Hey, look! Chicken nugget toes! I'ma eat em!" and then pretend like I'm going to eat his toes. He starts laughing like crazy, and one time he nearly passed out from laughter when I chased him around the house with a bottle of ketchup in my hand saying, "I'ma eat those chicken nugget toes with ketchup!"

So, most of the time they are bad, but when they are good, I do have some fun with them. If I found the right woman who would back me up, I'd make a good daddy. Sadly, no such women exists. Believe me, I'd love to have some one to hold and kiss and be with and start a family and all. But thinking that there is a woman out there that won't end up like my mom or Susan with me is... unrealistic.

As far as counseling, I doubt I'd ever go back. I used to be in therapy and on meds, but I decided I didn't want to be dependant on medication and therapy. At one point I was diagnosed a paranoid schizophrenic. I have Bipolar Disorder, ADHD, and as you said, Chronic Depression. I should be on meds, but I hate moderm medicine. Sure, I'll take a few motrin if I get a bad headache, but that's about it. I prefer herbal remedies. Like, a cup of willow bark tea will do the same as an aspirin. For a headache, I prefer a cup of fresh peppermint tea, but will settle for Motrin if I have none.

 

[VelvetDarkness]

I understand how you feel about anti-depressants but chronic depression is a different animal to the occasional headache. There are herbal supplements such as 5HTP that promote the production of serotonin in the brain but I can't say first hand how effective they are.

I do like kids and I'm honorary aunt to my best friend's three. I go on days out with them to give her an extra pair of hands when her partner is working shifts. I don't think I'd make a bad parent, I just don't want to be one.