The Isolated Blurt BDSM Thread

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Yes Ma'am.. moving AA from the "occasional stalk" list to the "perpetual stalk" list, adn adding Miss T to the same..
 
Re: Here's hoping

AngelicAssassin said:
one thread and three posts get deleted from the Talk forum with extreme prejudice.

i so love it when a fucktard walks into my sandbox and shits all over everything.

so fucktards are at it again
I stand with you my freind
 
I wish
1) I was not a fialure
2) that R would come into my life and make me more misserable
3) that a certain woman here who can not decide her gender would find another play ground
4) that I could find that airport
(though with VA fucking with me I do not have to $ to get there)
 
D's mariposa said:
Yes Ma'am.. moving AA from the "occasional stalk" list to the "perpetual stalk" list, adn adding Miss T to the same..

Thank you:rose:

I find myself in good company, all the way around.

(The fucktard has been dissed for the time being, but if he returns, would someone please notify catalina? I will be out of town tonight. )

:rose:
 
Re: Re: Here's hoping

Richard49 said:
so fucktards are at it again
I stand with you my freind
Have a great day Richard.

Sunny, blue, and warm here ... kinda like golden toast with butter dripping over the edge.

MissTaken said:
I will be out of town tonight.

:rose:
Lucky scooter ... someone's getting laaaaaaid tonight ...
 
Re: Re: Re: Here's hoping

AngelicAssassin said:
Have a great day Richard.

Sunny, blue, and warm here ... kinda like golden toast with butter dripping over the edge.

Lucky scooter ... someone's getting laaaaaaid tonight ...

or someone is getting fucked

It is lovely here today also
Though my soul is black

It is good for some that I live in
BFE ....... yup...prehaps good for me also
 
(((Richard))))

Hope today goes better for you.

The airport may not be an issue too much longer..:( Yes, informing special agent doodyhead that he is the greatest living asshole in the western world was not the bestest thing I've done lately... On one hand, his butt is getting transferred far far away. On the other hand, I've been informed to watch my step. "Just because the man is an ass is no reason to bring the feds down on us like the wrath of God.." But do they take me off the *&^&*%^* security desk like I've been asking them to for over a YEAR? Oh no, they add one more day a week. "We don't reward bad behavior here."

I don't wanna go to work today. I want to go to Michigan instead..

Good news is, party at the bdsm club tonight.
 
D's mariposa said:
(((Richard))))

Hope today goes better for you.

The airport may not be an issue too much longer..:( Yes, informing special agent doodyhead that he is the greatest living asshole in the western world was not the bestest thing I've done lately... On one hand, his butt is getting transferred far far away. On the other hand, I've been informed to watch my step. "Just because the man is an ass is no reason to bring the feds down on us like the wrath of God.." But do they take me off the *&^&*%^* security desk like I've been asking them to for over a YEAR? Oh no, they add one more day a week. "We don't reward bad behavior here."

I don't wanna go to work today. I want to go to Michigan instead..

Good news is, party at the bdsm club tonight.

D might prefer you not cum to Michigan

A party is good news?
Not for me
I can't go
and if I could and did
I would *(*&^ something up

One, weather submissive or Dom, should be careful
to not develope hoof and mouth disease
 
Richard49 said:
D might prefer you not cum to Michigan

A party is good news?
Not for me
I can't go
and if I could and did
I would *(*&^ something up

One, weather submissive or Dom, should be careful
to not develope hoof and mouth disease

They shoot horses with that, don't they? :( The good news, is I made it through my day without murdering anyone, and D liked his bday prezzie.. (snazzy new toy box).

Ysa says hi, and remember, no matter how bad it gets, they can't take your belly button! I was like, what if aliens came and did an belly button-ectomy. She gave me a hairy eyeball sort of look and said maybe I'm working too hard again..
 
Re: time to rip off the band-aid.

alonelygal said:
*sneaks in and finds a nice quiet corner of the cafe...a comfy couch and a nice thick milk shake...folds her legs up under her and finds her peace*

Kajira...i am sorry. i was a fool. i was blinded by my own stupidity and gullibility. It was abuse. i should have listened to you. You are a strong, wonderful woman. You have a great love for your fellow being, i see that in you. i am sorry that you were basically harassed because of and by me. Thank you for the person that you are...for the heart you have and for your amazingly beautiful soul.

i am learning by leaps and bounds. i have confessions to make and i won't feel right until i do. i have to relearn everything i thought i knew. i have been lied to. i knew there was something funny about things that were said to me. Things that simply didn't match up. i accepted blindly what was offered to me. i ignored the obvious signs that led to my rebelling as i did.

In May i was sent on an assignment to be with a woman. i went to this club. i met, by chance or by fate, a DOMME. She and Her sub and i all went to a gathering that night in a hotel in New Jersey (i am in Philadelphia). It was the first time i had spent any real time with anyone in the Life. It was amazing. i had such fun talking openly and in r/t about the way i am and this Life i find myself in. The next day i was told that i was not to speak to thse people again. i felt horrible for having any kind of fun that night. i wrote to this DOMME and told Her that She was off limits to me. She wrote back and said that she thought that would happen. That what i was in didn't sound like a good thing and that in her opinion i should get out.

Being with Her that night brought, to me, a chance to serve, however menial the tasks. i was shocked at the amount of pleasure and peace i found in simply getting Her something to drink...in the quickness and completeness with which i could perform. i'd had a taste and i was hooked.

i put an ad on a local message board. An experiment, of sorts. i sought a local DOM for real time interaction. i got several responses...i responded to all, but there was one that caught me. i met with him soon after. We had a wonderful supper at fancy restaurant, my first time at one of those. We spoke all through supper about things we had been speaking about in IM. By the time the meal was over i had decided that if he asked, i would go. He asked; i went. i spent hours in service. Bringing pleasure to him and, through that, myself. Let's just say...my masochistic side was affirmed that night. It was awesome. i have never felt stronger than with his belt across my back. i could go on about it for days.

But i digress...

Fast forward to last week. Two Fridays ago. i got a call at about 7pm from a man i used to know a lifetime ago. He was someone whom i had served, in that way that i did before i knew what i was doing. He was someone that i had been involved with for a long time. He wanted to talk...and then see me. That night i went to him. We talked for hours. It was so nice to be with someone who knew me and had no designs on changing me. He said the most incredible thing to me. Something that made me think, well, maybe i'm an ok person after all. He told me that in the 6 years since we saw each other there had only been 5 or 6 days when he hadn't thought of me...and he can only remember 3 of them.
Here was this person sitting in front of me. Holding a real conversation with me. It was such a peaceful time for me.

It was, also, absolutely perfect timing. Over this last week i have had a nice long chance to examine alot of things that have gone on in the last few months. Everytime i would come to a moment that was painful or where i felt weak, i thought...5 or 6 days, and he can only remember 3. It straightened my back and gave me a push forward.

*deep breath*

i started here to go on about being done and being released and how it's coming off. This is about no one but me, though, and i can't see, at this time, going into it.

Here i am, take me as you will. i am a strong person. i am a bit headstrong at times and occasionally outspoken.

Thank you to those who have, in the past few months, offered me advice and solace. i appreciated it even then, but i say it now.

:rose: Thank you :rose:

still and always...
joanna
:) *hug*
 
I try, AA, but sometimes my patience takes a holiday and leaves me here. Aaah, well. In the end, I did the local tsa and airline people a favor. Doodyhead had so many complaints that this was sort of the last straw and he's on his way elsewhere. I hear Hell is nice this time of year..
 
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