The count down is on again!

[the captians wench]

Yeah, that's it exactly. I can pretend all I want that I would try and get around it, but in the end I know that I would only be pretending.



Any chance you would be able to wash clothes while you are there?

There's always a chance. His folks have a washer, but no dryer. When I saw clothes out on the line "drying" outside I just couldn't get it in my head how it would be possible to dry anything that way there!

 

[the captians wench]

We've cancled or post poned trips before, but I don't recall any of them impacting me the way this one has.

I keep trying to play in my mind what's different this time? Why is this so much harder than the many times we've done it before. Hell it was only 2 months ago I was on a vacation that, when I scheduled it, I had planned on spending with him, but ended up stuck state bound.

I don't remember the urge to count down the hours to when I should be leaving. I don't remember fighting this hard to stay chipper and distracted. I don't remember quite this much disapointment.

I've made other plans, trying to perk myself out of this, but I'm not sure I'm really masking anything. Infact I was talking to my mom today about our up coming road trip to see my brother. She's added a stop, one of her cousins who is about midway and is really missing family interaction. I admited today that I'm not very enthusiastic about making that stop. When she asked why, I told her I'm just bound to be even more recluse than I usually am, and she'd just have to make an excuse for me. My dear mother responded by asking me to not ruin this vacation for her.

I wanted to strike out at that comment. I wanted to tell her "fine, get some one else to drive you 12 hours to see your son". I wanted to shout at her and tell her it doesn't really matter to me where I am, as I'm bound to be some stage of misserable, so if that's how she felt then I'd save us both some money and just stay home. I wanted to yell and scream and cry and throw a fit, but I didn't. All I said was "I'll try. but this trip will be hard for me". Ever the duitiful daughter. The obediant sub.

The truth is my replacement trip isn't about me at all. I know I'm going to be some form of grumpy until I have everything paid for for my October trip so it can't be cancled. This road trip is all about my brother. He's been told he'll be deployed again with in a year, and his leave has been denighed becuase they are too busy, he needs his family. He needs to know that we are here and love him and are willing to do what we can to show him. I asked mom to come along because it's important to her. Maybe that's why this is falling so short, it's just not all that exciting to me, and my whole vacation is being spent doing things for other people.

Maybe the reason this time is so much harder is because of how much closer I was. The ticket has been booked for months now. I didn't pay for it, but it's been booked. It was set. It was a sure thing. Now it's not happening.

I'm trying to get excited about October. Trying to get the hopeful butterflies and count down feeling I had before, but I'm not feeling it. Maybe I will after this vacation is over.

 

[the captians wench]

Trip to see my brother was a blast, and really a nice substitute. I'm glad I could perk up enough to enjoy it.

I had to get a filler for my laptop. Something is wrong with it (I'm thinking I just need to download a new browser, but that's kind of hard to do when the only one on it isn't working. ) I chose to just get a little netbook (little pretty much only refers to the size in this case as it has twice the ram and 6x the hard drive space that my other laptop has), it serves me well as all I need it for is posting on ebay (which I'm stalling, I really hate that process) and surfing every now and again. I think it will be really cool to travel with too, once I get an exturnal dvd drive so I can watch movies in the airport.

I also did a lot of shoping since I've been on vacation. In otherwords, I've gone through most of my "Ireland Pennies" so I'm starting almost from scratch. But I figure I would have spent the money there, and most of what I've bought I can count as business expences (including the netbook) so I'm not letting myself beat myself up for it.

But this does mean some tight living for the next 4 months (unless we manage to double bonus this quarter). I don't mind, I know I can make it on just over half of my income, it's just about making choices and re-evaluating. And budgets!

But with any luck, I'll sell a lot of little pieces, or a few big pieces on ebay and get a jump. I have some great ideas with some material I bought in Kansas.

 

[the captians wench]

Major bad news today.

My van has been acting up for a while. I put a new thermistat in it a few months ago, but it's still been running hot. Well about 3 weeks ago it over heated on me for the first time. Now we had been suspecting that the water pump would need replacement, and when my friend looked at it, he really couldn't find anything else wrong with it.

Today, my mom went with me to take it to a shop to replace the water pump. The guy talked me into doing a diagnostic first, he thought maybe the problem was something smaller than a water pump.

Well turned out it wasn't smaller, I need a new manifold. He said with the water pump it would run about $1300, just the water pump was $250. Well I don't have $1300 laying around so I told them to just do the water pump. They're telling me that it's just seeping around the gasket so it's not a huge issue right now, but it will need to be replaced soon.

With Jounar not having steady work at the moment, and now this huge car repair, it looks like I won't get to go in October either. My mom was so kind to be the first one to say this when I anounced the cost of this repair.

So, any one interested in some bodices or ren ware? I really need this trip.

 

[the captians wench]

I heard today that with the "swine flu mania" they are naming the top germiest tourist attractions, and warning travelers about the risk.

#1 on the list: The Blarney Stone, Cork, Ireland.

For those that don't know, I've kinda been fighting Jounar to take me to see Blarney Castle. I'm sure he'll use this as another reason we shouldn't make the trip. *sigh* Even though he knows I never wanted to kiss the stone, I just want to see the castle.

Oh well. Still 11 other castles on my list I haven't seen yet.

 

[the captians wench]

We have a date!

It's a long way off, but we agreed to just shoot for next October and if we can get me there sooner then we will. But at least now I have a date to look towards.

 

[BiaTcHiNFiRe]

We have a date!

It's a long way off, but we agreed to just shoot for next October and if we can get me there sooner then we will. But at least now I have a date to look towards.

YAY!!! I am so happy for you Wenchie!

The date makes all the diference in the world, doesnt it? Hope you can see Jounar even sooner than that, but know the final date is deffo lovely. Its nice to have something to look towards, it helps in the LDR A LOT.

This really made me smile.


http://i324.photobucket.com/albums/k353/hispeanut/hugs05.jpg

 

[the captians wench]

It does help greatly. I work better when I have goals.

 

[the captians wench]

So I figured I'd bump this as i am eagerly counting down to my trip.

I looked up hotels and sent him a list of them. We talked about them a bit tonight, but nothing decided, no long discussion about it really. He did list the one that he would like to rule out.

I'm all butterflies just thinking about starting the planning process.

*giggles*

 

[wicked woman]

How can you have a count down without counting down the number of days/sleeps until you leave?

 

[the captians wench]

How can you have a count down without counting down the number of days/sleeps until you leave?

*giggles*

I keep trying to get tickerfactory to work and it just won't! *pout*

But it's 5 weeks and 4 days


*giggles madly*

 

[DeepGreenEyes]

Can you Photoshop an "X" on your asscheeks for each day that gets marked off?

 

[the captians wench]

Can you Photoshop an "X" on your asscheeks for each day that gets marked off?

*giggles*

No photo shop, but you just gave me a brilliant idea.

 

[DeepGreenEyes]

*giggles*

No photo shop, but you just gave me a brilliant idea.

Well, real marks would be preferable, yes.

 

[the captians wench]

I found out yesterday that Avenue Q will be running while I'm there.

I love the music, but I've never seen an actual production, so I mentioned it to him. He'd never heard of it, so I sent him a youtube link to one of the songs. It's been added to my list of things to do while I'm there.

I've also been trying to narrow down the hotels. Won't be able to book one for about another 3 weeks but i want to have an idea of which one I want. He only ruled out one, the rest he was okay with. What i can't decide is if I want to go with a traditional hotel or rent an apartment for the week. The apartments are about $20-40 more a night, but closer into the city center. They would be better for keeping things for light meals, and give the option to cook rather than eat out, but would that really save more in the end and is it really worth it?

Any thoughts? Mom seems to think the hotel would be better since I could always cook at his mom's place if I really just want to cook for him/them. But i was thinking more along the lines of transit expense.

 

[wicked woman]

How much time are you going to spend in the room?

If you're looking at it as saving on transportation costs that's pretty easy to calculate.

 

[the captians wench]

How much time are you going to spend in the room?

If you're looking at it as saving on transportation costs that's pretty easy to calculate.

Not sure, but I will be there over the Easter weekend (arrive April 3rd leave April 12th) so probably a bit more than last time as a lot of the stuff I like to do is closed on holidays. That's also a consideration as where we stayed before there was NOTHING to do out side of the hotel. If we were in the city center there would always be a pub around the way.

I didn't pay any attention to how much he spent on getting us places. (I felt it rude ) But I could look it up and do some calculating. Ah the internet.

 

[the captians wench]

32 days

If I don't stop getting sick, I'm never going to get everything done!

I haven't even started my practice packing yet. I have found my passport and put it in a visible spot, but that's about it.

 

[Babyslave]

32 days

If I don't stop getting sick, I'm never going to get everything done!

I haven't even started my practice packing yet. I have found my passport and put it in a visible spot, but that's about it.

Practice packing? Like, how much you can cram in your suitcase, right?
It's not how fast or how pretty, but how much. I hope you know how excited I am for you.

 

[the captians wench]

Practice packing? Like, how much you can cram in your suitcase, right?
It's not how fast or how pretty, but how much. I hope you know how excited I am for you.

Yes this exactly. How much can i cram in and not go over the 50lb weight limit at that!

I'm only allowed one checked bag this time, per the airline, though he is very much keen on this limitation. He says I won't need much clothing anyway. And since we probably aren't going to be doing as much site seeing this time, he's probably right. Still I want to make sure I'm prepared for everything.

Can't believe I'll be there in a month! *squeal*

 

[the captians wench]

Still haven't settled on a hotel yet, and i'm contemplating on how much Euro I should go buy, or if I should just try to use my card over there. The later would probably be easier, but I'm just so paranoid that I'll get over there and something won't work.

I'm still leaning towards the apartment, but then I see what the price difference is ($20 a day doesn't sound like a lot, but $200 difference is!) and i revert back to being unsure.

*sigh*

I'm so wishy washy this time!

 

[ecstaticsub]

Still haven't settled on a hotel yet, and i'm contemplating on how much Euro I should go buy, or if I should just try to use my card over there. The later would probably be easier, but I'm just so paranoid that I'll get over there and something won't work.

I'm still leaning towards the apartment, but then I see what the price difference is ($20 a day doesn't sound like a lot, but $200 difference is!) and i revert back to being unsure.

*sigh*

I'm so wishy washy this time!

My daughter just got back from a school trip to London. She went with about 50 pounds and a debt card. She used her card almost exclusively. She had no problem using it everywhere from tiny shops to museums.

 

[the captians wench]

My daughter just got back from a school trip to London. She went with about 50 pounds and a debt card. She used her card almost exclusively. She had no problem using it everywhere from tiny shops to museums.

My issue is that I don't want to use the card like a card, because my bank will charge a fee for every purchase, but use it like an ATM and just draw out cash when i need to.

I suppose I should look into if my paypal card will charge a fee for me using it in Europe. That might be a solution.

 

[the captians wench]

28 days

Well, a little less since right about now I'll be waiting to board my flight to Dublin from Philly.

Feeling antsy today. Probably because I was off work and couldn't really focus on anything. Stupid meds for that allergic reaction. Nearly a week left to go on them.

I had the opportunity, but I couldn't get into a practice pack today. Instead I ran some erronds, did some house work, got a corset near completion, and vegged with Netflix. Really I did do a lot today, but for some reason it feels like I didn't do anything.

I'm just not looking forward to a practice pack today, though mentally I have hit the tops of what I want to pack. I know I want my little black dress, the shear top, and that one v-neck top that makes me blush it shows my tits so well, and of course every corset I own. But actually getting the stuff together...meh.

I probably need the rest. It's so weird to feel wired and exhausted at the same time. But about the time I start feeling normal, it will be Paddy's day, and half way to the day I fly. At least the boss will be away the two weeks before I fly out. That'll keep me busy.

28 days seems like so far away.

 

[wicked woman]

So enjoying your anticipation. Keep posting Wench.