The Confessional

[Ausus_girl13]

When you grow up.

Ahren, you know I like you. So I will say this with respect. I am pretty damn grown up, actually. And the slice of me that you see here, isn't totally representative of what and who I am. Try to take a step back and see that. I'd love to see you crack a joke once in a while.

Unless...

That was your attempt at humor. To which I reply.
Bite me.

I'm only posting to say this.

We're becoming friends.

That's why I'm not commenting.

Unless you ask me to.

Which, at that point in time, I will.

Just not here.

giggles
LI, there are simply not enough words to describe adequately just what I think of you. But this, I appreciate, and hold it up as undeniable proof that you are respectful, caring and smart. But prolly only to those you respect.

 

[Britwitch]

I confess that the kissing epidemic was just me feeling frisky on what would have been my 21st wedding anniversary, if my husband were still alive. So the kisses I would have smothered him with on that day, I spread around instead to new friends here.

ICT this proves love can easily be immortal

IACT I hope in another 19 years time I'll be just as frisky with my other half

 

[Annisthyrienne]

I completely agree with Alana. Ann, he must have been an awesome man. *blows a kiss* I realize we haven't been formally introduced. Aus. *waves*

Hi Ausus, I just saw this. Thank you for the sentiment. I think he would have been even more amazing, if he'd had the chance. As it was, in 20 years of life, he made a difference to many people.

ICT I've seen Ausus around, and I think she has a keen sense of humor and a darling avatar picture, but I'm a little shy, still, for the way she plays.

 

[Annisthyrienne]

ICT this proves love can easily be immortal

IACT I hope in another 19 years time I'll be just as frisky with my other half

I'm sure you will, Brit. It's like 'Ghost', with Patrick Swayze at the end of the movie: 'The love you feel; it survives!'

 

[Ausus_girl13]

Hi Ausus, I just saw this. Thank you for the sentiment. I think he would have been even more amazing, if he'd had the chance. As it was, in 20 years of life, he made a difference to many people.

ICT I've seen Ausus around, and I think she has a keen sense of humor and a darling avatar picture, but I'm a little shy, still, for the way she plays.

Chuckles

The way I play?

Honestly, am I scaring people?

 

[PenIsMightier1]

Chuckles

The way I play?

Honestly, am I scaring people?

errr...

....I mean no.

ICT that you're not scary, but to some new people you might seem a bit larger than life

 

[Light Ice]

Chuckles

The way I play?

Honestly, am I scaring people?

If by scare, you mean, "give a perpetual hard-on" then yeah. That's it.

 

[Ausus_girl13]

errr...

....I mean no.

ICT that you're not scary, but to some new people you might seem a bit larger than life

I should put a warning in my signature. I'm not a newbie plaything. Falls over laughing

If by scare, you mean, "give a perpetual hard-on" then yeah. That's it.

Only for you. I apparently terrify lesser men.

 

[Alana_]

IC to being chuffed to bits on receiving a pm from someone I miss here.

A little visit and catch up made me very happy.

 

[Ahren]

Ahren, you know I like you. So I will say this with respect. I am pretty damn grown up, actually. And the slice of me that you see here, isn't totally representative of what and who I am. Try to take a step back and see that. I'd love to see you crack a joke once in a while.

Unless...

That was your attempt at humor. To which I reply.
Bite me.

I do not think anyone who thinks that life with only one person is 'boring' while also wishing their SO would trust them is representative of a healthy relationship or an adult mind.

 

[Ausus_girl13]

I do not think anyone who thinks that life with only one person is 'boring' while also wishing their SO would trust them is representative of a healthy relationship or an adult mind.

I don't even know where to begin with this one.
I could attempt to explain polyamory to you.
I could tell you how long Zom and I have been together.
I could tell you how much forethought I put into all of this, how everyday I struggle with the knowledge that I have the most amazing man in the world, and yet I want to sleep with others, and how that in being honest with myself means I have to set myself apart.
I could tell you that he and I have spent hours, days, minutes, months devoted to this conversation.

I could tell you all that, and yet, I'd think that you either wouldn't believe me, or wouldn't care. To which I'd have to reply... being an adult also means learning acceptance. My world doesn't look like yours, if I somehow confront the black and white of your existence, you have a choice. Call my ass down, or try to understand it.

 

[Ahren]

I could tell you how much forethought I put into all of this, how everyday I struggle with the knowledge that I have the most amazing man in the world, and yet I want to sleep with others, and how that in being honest with myself means I have to set myself apart.

What a horrible life you lead.

 

[Ausus_girl13]

What a horrible life you lead.

Sorry Ahren. I absolutely refuse to be baited. Pick a fight somewhere else sugar.
blows a kiss You're better and smarter than that comment.

Would you like to try again?

 

[Ahren]

Nope.

 

[Ausus_girl13]

Nope.

Shrugs
Your choice.
I still think you're a smart kid, and cute too.
If you have any questions you know where to find me.

 

[Ahren]

I still like you, too, but it's not something we'll ever see eye to eye on, so I may as well follow your example and drop it.

 

[Ausus_girl13]

I still like you, too, but it's not something we'll ever see eye to eye on, so I may as well follow your example and drop it.

Here's a question, and in this as in all things feel free to disregard.

Why the hostility? Or in my case the perceived hostility? Like why do it?

 

[Ahren]

Let's just say I have personal reasons for finding "I can't help but sleep with other guys!" a very irritating excuse.

 

[Ausus_girl13]

Let's just say I have personal reasons for finding "I can't help but sleep with other guys!" a very irritating excuse.

Put in those terms I can see why it would be.
Though it makes me a little sad that I have to justify myself again.
I don't know how to explain it in any sort of short way that would make sense. I mean you can ask what you want to know, if you want to know anything.

 

[Ahren]

It's not something that'll make sense to me anyway so just ignore me I guess.

 

[Ahren]

I managed to stay out of the lounge entirely for like a week, only looking at my thread subscriptions. I'm not sure why I stopped. I think it would have been better for everyone for me to keep that up.

 

[Ausus_girl13]

It's not something that'll make sense to me anyway so just ignore me I guess.

You never know unless you ask.

I managed to stay out of the lounge entirely for like a week, only looking at my thread subscriptions. I'm not sure why I stopped. I think it would have been better for everyone for me to keep that up.

I missed you, if that means anything at all.

 

[Ahren]

Okay I confess I missed you too and that's why I came back. *smirks*

 

[Ausus_girl13]

Knew it.

 

[Drunken_Angel]

Save you from you?

Sweetie, you've got the kind of relationship where you can simply say.."this is me- updated" and it would be okay.

There is no saving from you.. there is exactly what you are doing, talking to Zom and gaining better understanding.

You're strong, he's strong.. your relationship is strong by virtue of your love and communication and how much fucking work you put into it.

So there!