The calmness comes

[madetotakeit]

The mental frenzy has finally quietened. Thanks to all for the words and advice. It is nice to have only 3 or 4 thoughts at one time as opposed to fifty. It was very nice when it did arrive. Out of the blue I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and felt it wash over me.

I am ready to continue. Fortunately it is from a much more centered place. I can't imagine the state I would have been in without having paused to absorb. (Someone would have been hurt, and not in a good way!) After years of repression my mind is thinking more freely. This is who I am. I am so much more than the sum. The flood has passed and now the ground is fertile. I am still anxious to learn and I can not imagine that going away. My mind has gathered, considered, sorted, and filed. My body is ready to follow, and it has so much knowledge to gain.

I look forward to my journey. Although I feel there are a million things to discover, I want to savor each on its own. I am sure I will have my moments of frenzy again. Thanks to advice I am also at least familiar with the possibility of a drop (Not that I have any doubt it will be handled expertly.) I am passionate when I allow myself to be, and those are two things that I am sure are possible as a result. It is nice to know however that I have a place to look for wisdom of those who have gone before me. I look forward to the advice, the humor, the eye openings, and the new things to consider. I will do my best to refrain from too much blabbering, to use my paragraph breaks, and to breath.

(deep breath in... deep breath out...)

 

[nh23]

 

[Homburg]

I will do my best to refrain from too much blabbering, to use my paragraph breaks, and to breath.

(deep breath in... deep breath out...)

*applauds loudly*

 

[northwoods_sub]

It only gets better from here.

 

[FurryFury]

Good for you!

Someday you may miss that frenzy a bit.

Someday you may find yourself in another one.

It's all part of the journey.

*smiles*

 

[Daddyslilpet]

I look forward to my journey. Although I feel there are a million things to discover, I want to savor each on its own. I am sure I will have my moments of frenzy again.

Congrats!

You are most correct here. You will have many moments of frenzy again. Enjoy each and every one for what they are. However, my advice for now is to read everything you can get your hands on, talk to whomever you can, and glean whatever information you can. When I first started out I called myself a sponge, and I truly think the analogy fits. Soak up all the information you possibly can, it can't hurt a thing.

Most of all enjoy your journey to its fullest, no matter where it leads you.

 

[madetotakeit]

You are most correct here. You will have many moments of frenzy again. Enjoy each and every one for what they are. However, my advice for now is to read everything you can get your hands on, talk to whomever you can, and glean whatever information you can. When I first started out I called myself a sponge, and I truly think the analogy fits. Soak up all the information you possibly can, it can't hurt a thing.

Most of all enjoy your journey to its fullest, no matter where it leads you.

I plan to do just that. I have been gorging myself on all of the information I can find. Instructional, opinions, and experiences all give me a glimmer of the bigger picture. I enjoy reading it all!

 

[CutieMouse]

*****

 

[madetotakeit]

A good (admittedly biased ) starter reading list -

Link

Wow, thanks. Somehow I have a feeling I won't be able to peruse most of these over a latte at Books a Million! Time to hit Amazon I guess.

 

[CutieMouse]

*****

 

[Daddyslilpet]

I have actually bought several of my kink books at Books A Million in person and online. It can be done.

 

[FurryFury]

You can occasionally find them at mainstream bookstores; the vast majority of my kink-library was bought at one particularly fabulous ½ Price Books in Dallas, over a 2 year period.

If you want to buy online www.fetchbook.info will sort books by title, by lowest price.

www.greenerypress.com is a really good (small) BDSM publishing house that puts out some of the most highly regarded kink-based authors in "the Lifestyle"; buying directly from them helps fund future projects.

So cool! The fetch book thingie! *gets excited*

Thanks!

 

[FurryFury]

Wow, thanks. Somehow I have a feeling I won't be able to peruse most of these over a latte at Books a Million! Time to hit Amazon I guess.

Your local kink group might loan books out. Mine does.

Also, if you want to go out in public with a book and don't want folks to know what you are reading get one of those reusable book covers that protect the book. Be prepared with an alternate title if someone asks you what you are reading. Cause I always ask people that. I'm a book lover you see.