Thats it!

[lickerish]

I've had it! FUCK FUCK FUCK! Grrrrrrrrrrrr!

I am so sick of the way I look that I can't take it anymore.

FUCK!

Yes, I know you all have seen bits and pieces of me.. you wouldn't know it that I'm FAT. Yes. FAT. In fact, I am approx 50 lbs. over-obese.

I did the exercize thing for 3 months. ie, running 3 miles a day/ 5 days a week. NADA.

I did the 'eat right' thing. NADA.

I did the Xenadrine, weight catalyst/ fat burner crap. NADA

I finally came to terms that I'm a perma-chunk..

I see my immediate family give me looks like they can't believe I went from super skinny to HUGE so quickly (2 years time).

I listen to my brother, whom I have seen for a few years, say "what happened to you?!"

I listen to my uncle who hasn't seen me in years, who btw is about 400 lbs himself and ugly as sin, say "God.. starting to look like me there.. *chuckle chuckle* don't worry, you're good lookin' like me"'

I listen to my 4 year old niece say "you have a beeg butt" & "you have a fat tummy"..

BUT.. I know.. I know that I won't ever lose this shit.. I told myself it is a fact and cannot be changed.

THEN, I walk into my former place of employment last night to get medicine for my daughter and saw someone that I haven't seen in about 2 years.. only to have my smile turn into a sad frown as I'm being asked when I'm due.

FUCK!

I am so tired.

 

[Laurel]

I think you're beautiful.

 

[Angel]

Skinny does not = beautiful.

 

[lickerish]

you don't see what i see everyday.. i find it impossible to believe anymore.

thank you tho.

 

[lickerish]

skinny, unfortunately, does equal beautiful in this society.

i don't have to wonder what's keeping the opposite sex away. i know what it is.

 

[Angel]

I have come to love and adore my gut. I am one with that extra hunk o' flab.

I mean, my gut and I have had some wonderful times together. I am almost attatched to it. I mean, you don't get your gut drunk every weekend just to throw it away do you?

*snort*

We can be the Gutty Wonders, Licky. Ok?

 

[Angel]

skinny, unfortunately, does equal beautiful in this society.

Bullshit. Come play in my neighborhood for three days. Bony chicks don't fly around these parts.

 

[Mz_Scarlett]

Sweetheart! I know how you feel. I am VERY unsatisfied with my body too and have been working hard to change that. You're right. In this society, people DO judge a book by it's cover. I live in Miami- land o' models- and there are times that I can feel very frustrated! I also know that I totally kick ASS, I have a dynamic smile, sparkling green eyes and curves that don't quit! My boyfriend loves my body and I am grateful for that. I also know that I want to improve where I'm at for ME- so I can always feel confident when I walk out the door. If you ever need to vent or want a support buddy, I'm happy to be there for you.

Muah!
Mz_Scarlett

 

[lickerish]

but you're still thin Angel babe, your 'gut' is cute.

i have a fat face. fat arms. fat gut. fat thighs. fat ankles. FUCK even fat fingers.

and you know what sucks, is my new medical insurance won't pay for any weight removal procedures.. even if your weight is a health hazard.

 

[Angel]

I'm not skinny at all. I'm healthy

 

[sexy-girl]

i happen to agree i dont like bony girls either ive seen pictures of you ... you look very pretty and sexy dont think you are "fat" no damn way

 

[freakygirl]

ok.. i've had a few pm's asking if i would post a "normal/regular" picture of myself..

well Lickerish.. i hope you don't mind.. but i'm going to use your thread to do it..

only because of the fact.. that i am FAT.. not just a little overweight.. but down right obese.. and i figured.. why start another "fat" thread.. when you have one here already..

if you want.. i'll remove this pic if you prefer..



This pic was taken on August 17th of this year.. it shows the "real" me.. (the look on my face is because i'm standing near my ex boyfriends son, whom is swinging a bat)

 

[lickerish]

No FG.. please share. I don't mind at all.

I would post 'normal' pics myself.. but I worked so hard on taking the '1:20 good shot' pictures.. I'd like to stay skinny in this fantasy world we call Lit. It's the only shred of happiness towards my body I've got.

I'm just venting because nobody in my RL seems to understand how hard this has been on me.. and they just have an 'it can't be that hard.. just lose it!' attitude.. yeah.. i'm gonna lose it and beat the ass of the next person who asks me how far I along I am..

I have tried everything that I can think of.. that's legal.. to no avail. It just ain't coming off.

One more FUCK for good measure.

 

[Sad Man]

Most men (myself included) like women to nice and healthy looking and not scarerly thin, its just the media that says men prefere that. I would much rather cuddle up with a woman that is deemed fat in our society than one that is so skinny, that if you hugged her you would be worried about puncturing a lung on her rib cage.

I'm sure you are beautiful as most fuller figured women are, and measurments of obesity that only take you height and weight into consideration are decades out of date. There are more accurate ways of working this out which cost more to do so many doctors ignore them completely, but using the new methods most people counted as obese are infact the right weight their size.

We as a people are changing shape as a result of our living conditions, it is called evolution and it is about time the media realised this and stoped trying to throw dangerously thin women at us when all you want to do is chuck them a sandwich.

 

[Bigdog]

Lickerish:

Don't be so hard on yourself! Berating yourself won't make you any thiner, but it will make you feel like shit. So your not the ideal weight as pronounced by some chart put out by some government agency; so what? You're pretty, funny, and you love your kids. Thats a lot more than most people can say. Get out there and enjoy life, the opposite sex will present itself when the time is right. Not every guy is looking for cookie-cutter chick.

I see your 50 and raise you 30.

 

[bluntforcemama]

licky, the last picture you sent to me was HOT. I'm actually drawing it, too. I think you're gorgeous... GORGEOUS, and that's no lie! If I have to, I'll carry it all over Seattle and collect the phone numbers of guys who want to worship you. I bet I'll get over 2,000. Dare me?

 

[freakygirl]

Lickerish.. i would love to see a pic of you.. let me see just how fat you are.. please.. email it if you prefer.. i promise i'll delete it.. and not show it to anyone

and.. my husband was married before to a "cookie cutter chick" you know the type.. skinny (even after having 4 kids), perky boobs, nice ass.. hmm she is fine looking.. but her personality is nothing.. i can't stand her.. not because she is my husbands ex wife.. she KNOWS she is pretty and she uses that.. she has been married.. 4 times in 6 years.. she can't keep a man.. and i think it's because she gets so many looks and temptations.. she is one of those that the grass always looks greener on the otherside of the fence.. which is fine.. UNTIL it comes time to mow it.. if ya get what i mean.. lol My husband loves me for what i am on the outside as well as what i am in the inside.. and i have come to accept i'm fat.. it's hard.. and yes, i'd love to be thinner.. but i'm not going to die trying to get thin.. ie:starving, fasting, gimmick diets.. i tried that Metabolife stuff.. it about killed me.. did alot of harm to kidneys.. stuff was supposed to be herbs.. i don't think so.. herbs won't mess your body up like that shit did mine.

I've seen a few of your posts and pics.. what i have seen.. you are a very beautiful person.. not only in looks but in personality..

 

[lickerish]

Thank you SadMan and BigDog.. I know I need to chill out and accept myself for what I am.. but..

it's not society that's making me feel bad for how I look now. 2+ years ago I was thin and I looked good in my own eyes. I felt sexy and all that good stuff when I caught guys looking at me. Now nobody notices me, and my asshole ex tells everybody that I look nasty now. Sad thing is, he's right.

I could run around and chase my kids in tag.. I didn't have to deal w/ my bones and joints hurting and me wheezing for air when I do something active (granted, that's the cigarettes.. i'm not an idiot). I'm a mess. My old clothes don't fit for nothing and I can't find clothes in the styles that I used to wear, in the sizes that I need now..

'Baby got Back and Front' should be my new sig line. HA.

 

[lickerish]

Myst?! you're drawing my ass? Eek!


You're going to be in Seattle? hmm. so close....

 

[bluntforcemama]

Oh honey.... your body is beautiful, it reminds me of a venus statue, of even the birth of venus! Honestly, I think you're an incredible-looking woman, and I know that if I was bisexual, I'd be all over you, begging for your affections. You have the body that inspired great men to paint portraits of incredible beauty, to put on canvas the body of their dreams, yearning for it in the middle of the night, haunting them throughout waking hours, and teasing the corners of their minds with erotic visions.

 

[freakygirl]

Lickerish.. do you live in Washington? if so.. where at??

 

[Mz_Scarlett]

licky, the last picture you sent to me was HOT. I'm actually drawing it, too. I think you're gorgeous... GORGEOUS, and that's no lie! If I have to, I'll carry it all over Seattle and collect the phone numbers of guys who want to worship you. I bet I'll get over 2,000. Dare me?

Myst- you're in Seattle? I'm in Miami now, but Seattle is my home town!

 

[bluntforcemama]

I'll be in Seattle shortly, but for now, I'm in MT.

 

[Chuckus]

Lickerish just for the record, I like you for who you are and not what size dress or pants or blouse or whatever. I like you for you. I get ribbed alot too about my "buddah" belly and have for my entire life. I am by no means fat but have always had a non completely falt tummy. Even when I played sports and worked out all the freakin time it never got flat.........and I learned to live with what Mother Nature has given me.

Again to re emphasize the point of my post, I like you for you.

 

[Sad Man]

I know how you feel (not that I have been feeling you when you wasn't looking) five years ago I was very fit, and on my way to becoming a professional football (soccer) player, I was noticed a lot by the girls around me but then I had a knee injury.

Ever since then I find it difficult to excercise or even some days walk. Needless to say I put on a bit of weight, it took a lot of time to get used to but the way I see it is, if people are going to judge me because I am a few pounds overweight fuckem, who wants to know anyone like that.

Don't let these people get to you, I know its not easy when its your family and people close to you but fuck their opinions, what do they know. Are they some sort of god, can they really be completely right about everything when they obviuosly know nothing. I think its about time that you thought about yourself and not them, just enjoy yourself and have fun, life is not long enough to starve yourself to make others happy.