That is the first time I loved a person so very much

[Joey7060]

Hey
I am 19 years old and in love with an man. I guess I am bisexual but I love girls. It began in a chat room. I met a guy who was much older then me about 50 years. We just talked from day to day. We laughed, had so much fun together. So after a year i met him finally. The thing is that he is married and I dont want to create any problem. Anyway we met the first time and it was like in a dream I had. From the first time i saw him i wanted to have a good friendship to him. He is truly so important for me. So after an month I spent with him(we meet always) I went back home and let me tell you it was the hardest thing in my life ever. I spent crying at home EVERY DAY. I just couldnt sleep, no eating, just nothing...after 7 months I still feel the same. I still cry. It pains more than anything in the world. We talk sometimes about phone but not like we did before. I always pray that ill see him and just that we can talk to each other and be friends. He told me that he will always be here for me and we will be always friends... I just dont want to wake up every morning and to cry and to be unhappy. I want to have something to looking forward. That is the first time in my life that I loved a person so much. Thank you guys for listetning to me...please leave a message

 

[Raimondin]

Hey
I am 19 years old and in love with an man. I guess I am bisexual but I love girls. It began in a chat room. I met a guy who was much older then me about 50 years. I just dont want to wake up every morning and to cry and to be unhappy. I want to have something to looking forward. That is the first time in my life that I loved a person so much. Thank you guys for listetning to me...please leave a message

You're young and that's definitely on your side. Believe me, time heals everything (It does) and you have everything to look forward to. Wouldn't we all like to be 19 again! First love is usually the most difficult one to get over or get past. You're not alone. We've all been through that. And guess what? It's not the end of the world. There's no reason why you should "wake up every morning and cry and be unhappy." There's a whole world of beautiful men (and women) out there waiting for you.

 

[mercy's_grace]

It will certainly get better. Thank you for telling that wonderful story.

 

[Joey7060]

Thank you very much for your help. I just wish I could talk to him more often as we did earlier. But I know that is very difficult but he and me we both try the best. I can see that our love grows much more now because we are not able to talk that often. But the time will past and everything will be fine and we will be able to talk again alot )

 

[Joey7060]

You're young and that's definitely on your side. Believe me, time heals everything (It does) and you have everything to look forward to. Wouldn't we all like to be 19 again! First love is usually the most difficult one to get over or get past. You're not alone. We've all been through that. And guess what? It's not the end of the world. There's no reason why you should "wake up every morning and cry and be unhappy." There's a whole world of beautiful men (and women) out there waiting for you.

Thank you...Its just that I really love him very much. He has a great heart and personality. I know now how it is to be in love with someone. Its just so great and I know how much it pains when you can´t talk to someont who you really love very much but we both we will get through that and the time will come where we will talk again and even meet

There´s a whole world of beautiful men and women but for me nobody is like him. We have so much in common, we think alike just everything.

The thing is that Im not gay I just love that one guy so much. So of course i will have a wife and kids but my heart belongs to him and it will be forever.