I loved you from the very first moment if not before if thats even possible. I will love you still every day of my life and the next one too. You are the first real friend I ever made here and still the one I cherish the most. We have laughed and cried and came and went from each others life to many times to even count. I know in my heart you were never meant to be mine but I love you just the same. I won't try to reach out to you or contact you ever again, you will have to do that if you choose to. You know how much I struggle with this shit. We have our own worlds to tend to, our own lives to live but I love you now just as much as I loved you then and I will love you forever more in my own way. You can think what you want, believe what you want, I won't try to change your mind. Hell this is probably not even really the place for this but I am me and often say and do things the wrong way. I am sure you expect dumb shit from me by now. I still find you in every song I hear and its you I sing to in everyone I sing, even if your stubborn ass thinks otherwise. Ok, thats enough emotion for me for like forever.. I will just go throw another log on the fire and wait for you there.
