Firmhanded_Daddy
reborn in flame
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He nodded slowly to her as she mentioned the climate change up north. “Yeah, it was so cold up there a few days before I left, that your skin could get frost bite with ten minutes of exposure. Those days we didn’t’ work, there was a cabin we had in the mountains, and we just huddled in there freezing until the temp came back up. I’ve never seen so much snow in my life. When they ran the snow plows to clear the streets so people could drive, sometimes the snow mounds reached fifteen feet high, and easily as wide as a small house. It was a really bad winter there, from what I was told.”
The silence brought on by the revelation of his parents demise stretched on. His hand stayed on her own and he felt her own hand twist. He blinked slowly and watched her fingers slowly curled around his own. He sat there staring for a moment, just watching how their fingers twined together. He felt the gentle pressure she offered. He had not intended for this night to turn into a pity trip. He managed to slide a smile onto his face, turning his gaze to her own. He seemed to draw pleasure, and strength from her presence, and her own warmth.
“Funny you say that, when I was in the café that’s I was looking through travel magazines and I was reading about just the place. Hawaii looked beautiful; one day…it’s on my list a rather long list mind you of things to do and places to see.”
“I’ve heard great things about it. That it’s a great place to just sort of refocus yourself. Lots of activities you can do, the nature there is so tranquil. Well Kitten, I’m sure that if you keep on the path your going now, with the same passion I have seen in you today, I do not doubt that you will achieve everything you desire.” It was his turn to squeeze her hand slowly, then he turned to refill both glasses. He felt her bare foot gently stroking the back of his calf and he smiled warmly. It really did feel great to have a woman in the house again.
He took a slow sip of his wine and felt a tingle rush through his frame. The effects were starting to show themselves. Not outwardly, but he could feel relaxation settling in on his body, except for his damned shoulders.
She spoke about her fathers death, and then her mother spiraling into a state of almost child like irresponsibility. “Well, there is nothing wrong with using the gifts that god gave you to help you live your life, but using them to control others is not really the same thing. I’m glad to hear that’s one lesson you did not take to heart. I think your perfect the way you are, Pearl.”
He paused, and then spoke up again. “I am sorry you had to endure that. The role should have never been reversed, however look at what you have become. It took me a long time to really see this, but I took a long look back at my life, and the lives of those who have achieved great things. Strife is never a thing you wish to endure, yet enduring it is what makes you a stronger person. It changes you, and as long as you learn the lesson from your hard ships, you are better for it. Those who go through life without ever walking through fire, never truly become tempered.”
The conversation shifted toward his past marriages, and then he did something stupid. He dropped a hint of how he felt about her. She had been in mid sip of wine and suddenly it went down the wrong pipe. She began a coughing fit and he frowned. Inwardly he was calling himself every name in the book. However his hand reached out slowly, hand gently running up and down her back soothingly to help settle her coughing fits.
He drew a deep breath as the moment settled and she spoke in such a soft tone. It was as if she was pleading for it to be her, but unsure if it was. He could feel the power of her emotion washing over him. She was afraid of the answer.
Could he tell her? Dare he tell her? He contemplated not being honest with her. He couldn’t loose her, for reasons she could not ever understand. His mind was reaching, clawing, trying to find a way out of answering her question. Her soft hand reached up to touch his cheek. His thoughts shattered like a wine glass on the floor. He couldn’t lie to this woman. He felt guilty as hell for even thinking it. It was time to stop playing this game, pretending he didn’t want her with every part of his soul.
He opened his mouth to speak to her, to tell her yes it was her, yes she was the only women he ever wanted, and he found even words failed him. There was a look in her eyes. The candles were dancing, playing light all over her face. She was so fragile, so delicate, yet she was reaching out to him as surely as she was breathing. He had never felt this before. He had always been in control, even with his first wife. He had given freely, not because she manipulated him. Yet those eyes haunted his dreams last night, and now they were systematically shredding every hint of control he had.
She wasn’t doing it through strength, through force of will. She was doing it simply because she needed him, she craved his strength, his love. Just as much as he needed her. If he was so strong, how was it this girl had shut down all of his defenses, just by looking into his eyes? Because she was the part of his soul that was broken, and only with her, could he be whole.
“Pearl…I…”
His voice faltered. Still no chance he could give voice. He struggled, he raged, he railed against the currents ebb and flow. At last his strength melted. His arms circled themselves around her slender figure, wrapping her in a fierce grip. It wasn’t painfull, just so full of emotion and need for her mere presence that his arms trembled. He had imagined their first kiss, he had expected it would be sweet, and tender. This was nothing of the sort. She had torn down the walls of his soul, drawn every bit of personal pain out of him without much effort. She disarmed every trap and pitfall, and now he was an avalanche. His lips pressed to hers with so much need that it bordered on the point of pain. His arms slowly tugged at her smaller figure. Tugging her up out of the chair, draping her figure along his lap, never daring to break that kiss.
The silence brought on by the revelation of his parents demise stretched on. His hand stayed on her own and he felt her own hand twist. He blinked slowly and watched her fingers slowly curled around his own. He sat there staring for a moment, just watching how their fingers twined together. He felt the gentle pressure she offered. He had not intended for this night to turn into a pity trip. He managed to slide a smile onto his face, turning his gaze to her own. He seemed to draw pleasure, and strength from her presence, and her own warmth.
“Funny you say that, when I was in the café that’s I was looking through travel magazines and I was reading about just the place. Hawaii looked beautiful; one day…it’s on my list a rather long list mind you of things to do and places to see.”
“I’ve heard great things about it. That it’s a great place to just sort of refocus yourself. Lots of activities you can do, the nature there is so tranquil. Well Kitten, I’m sure that if you keep on the path your going now, with the same passion I have seen in you today, I do not doubt that you will achieve everything you desire.” It was his turn to squeeze her hand slowly, then he turned to refill both glasses. He felt her bare foot gently stroking the back of his calf and he smiled warmly. It really did feel great to have a woman in the house again.
He took a slow sip of his wine and felt a tingle rush through his frame. The effects were starting to show themselves. Not outwardly, but he could feel relaxation settling in on his body, except for his damned shoulders.
She spoke about her fathers death, and then her mother spiraling into a state of almost child like irresponsibility. “Well, there is nothing wrong with using the gifts that god gave you to help you live your life, but using them to control others is not really the same thing. I’m glad to hear that’s one lesson you did not take to heart. I think your perfect the way you are, Pearl.”
He paused, and then spoke up again. “I am sorry you had to endure that. The role should have never been reversed, however look at what you have become. It took me a long time to really see this, but I took a long look back at my life, and the lives of those who have achieved great things. Strife is never a thing you wish to endure, yet enduring it is what makes you a stronger person. It changes you, and as long as you learn the lesson from your hard ships, you are better for it. Those who go through life without ever walking through fire, never truly become tempered.”
The conversation shifted toward his past marriages, and then he did something stupid. He dropped a hint of how he felt about her. She had been in mid sip of wine and suddenly it went down the wrong pipe. She began a coughing fit and he frowned. Inwardly he was calling himself every name in the book. However his hand reached out slowly, hand gently running up and down her back soothingly to help settle her coughing fits.
He drew a deep breath as the moment settled and she spoke in such a soft tone. It was as if she was pleading for it to be her, but unsure if it was. He could feel the power of her emotion washing over him. She was afraid of the answer.
Could he tell her? Dare he tell her? He contemplated not being honest with her. He couldn’t loose her, for reasons she could not ever understand. His mind was reaching, clawing, trying to find a way out of answering her question. Her soft hand reached up to touch his cheek. His thoughts shattered like a wine glass on the floor. He couldn’t lie to this woman. He felt guilty as hell for even thinking it. It was time to stop playing this game, pretending he didn’t want her with every part of his soul.
He opened his mouth to speak to her, to tell her yes it was her, yes she was the only women he ever wanted, and he found even words failed him. There was a look in her eyes. The candles were dancing, playing light all over her face. She was so fragile, so delicate, yet she was reaching out to him as surely as she was breathing. He had never felt this before. He had always been in control, even with his first wife. He had given freely, not because she manipulated him. Yet those eyes haunted his dreams last night, and now they were systematically shredding every hint of control he had.
She wasn’t doing it through strength, through force of will. She was doing it simply because she needed him, she craved his strength, his love. Just as much as he needed her. If he was so strong, how was it this girl had shut down all of his defenses, just by looking into his eyes? Because she was the part of his soul that was broken, and only with her, could he be whole.
“Pearl…I…”
His voice faltered. Still no chance he could give voice. He struggled, he raged, he railed against the currents ebb and flow. At last his strength melted. His arms circled themselves around her slender figure, wrapping her in a fierce grip. It wasn’t painfull, just so full of emotion and need for her mere presence that his arms trembled. He had imagined their first kiss, he had expected it would be sweet, and tender. This was nothing of the sort. She had torn down the walls of his soul, drawn every bit of personal pain out of him without much effort. She disarmed every trap and pitfall, and now he was an avalanche. His lips pressed to hers with so much need that it bordered on the point of pain. His arms slowly tugged at her smaller figure. Tugging her up out of the chair, draping her figure along his lap, never daring to break that kiss.