Hey everyone, I'm a freshman in college and I've been a lurker here for sometime. In the past and recently I have fantasized about being with a man possibly doing some mutual j/o head etc. I guess you could call me bicurious. I'm not attracted to men, and in fact actually have a girlfriend but I thought that I may find cock appealing. So anyways, I finally went through with it and last night met up with any older guy on craigslist. He picked me up and we headed back to his house will he jerked me off in the car a bit. We got to his house where he sucked me and rimmed me a bit and then I sucked him off and let him cum in my mouth but I spit it out. After sucking him off i decided i didn't want to finish and he dropped me back off. I don't really know how I feel about the whole situation. I didn't really enjoy sucking him off all that much, and it didn't really turn me on when he came. It felt fine when he gave me head, but it would have been ten times better had it been a girl. Sorry if I'm ranting, but I guess I'm just looking for some input on the situation. The thing that I'm confused about is all the stuff i read on here or fantasize about turns me on, but I really didn't enjoy this experience.
sucked my first cock last night...
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hotladynj
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I think that is cool that you finally had your first bi experience sucking a cock!!!! To me it is VERY hot to watch and help a guy suck another guy.......You may feel weird about it today because it is so taboo.......You may also enjoy it alot more if you were doing it with a girl there too!!!!! I know when my Hubby and I started we got to talk to each other about it and that helped....... Good Luck!!!!!
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I wouldn't dwell too long analysing the experience.You tried it,you didn't enjoy it-fine. Seems like you prefer ladies,anyhow!
Fantasies are just that,Fantasies.Lots of people get turned on by things that they would normally run a mile from in real life.
Don't fret about it,just enjoy the women.......
Fantasies are just that,Fantasies.Lots of people get turned on by things that they would normally run a mile from in real life.
Don't fret about it,just enjoy the women.......
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I think that is cool that you finally had your first bi experience sucking a cock!!!! To me it is VERY hot to watch and help a guy suck another guy.......You may feel weird about it today because it is so taboo.......You may also enjoy it alot more if you were doing it with a girl there too!!!!! I know when my Hubby and I started we got to talk to each other about it and that helped....... Good Luck!!!!!
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Well, for starters, he might not have been your type. The act of sucking cock can be hot, sure, but if I'm the one actually doing it, I'd better be really really REALLY attracted to the person. In porn or written smut, it's easy to dissociate oneself and say "Oh, that's hot," because you're not, ah...face deep in it, so to speak. It gets a lot more personal when you actually have to put your mouth where your money is.
I think there's a great deal of separation between fantasy and reality, really. For example, I read all sorts of smut: gay, lesbian, straight, whatever. The variety of what can turn a person on in their fantasies can be pretty broad. I mean, just because I read a story about a younger woman seducing an older woman and it turns me on, that doesn't necessarily mean that I'm going to go be turned on by random older women.
I've had a similar experience when I realized that my sexuality was not as cut-and-dry as I'd previously thought it was. It also took me a while to realize that just because I was attracted to women as well didn't mean I was just as picky about women as I was about men (if not more so).
If you want to try the experience again, I'd recommend spending some time really thinking about what you want out of it. Are you attracted to other men as a sex, or perhaps just curious about the acts that happen between two men?
If you're attracted to the idea of sucking cock but you're not attracted to men, you can always ask your girlfriend to buy a strap-on and suck on that. She might really enjoy it
I think there's a great deal of separation between fantasy and reality, really. For example, I read all sorts of smut: gay, lesbian, straight, whatever. The variety of what can turn a person on in their fantasies can be pretty broad. I mean, just because I read a story about a younger woman seducing an older woman and it turns me on, that doesn't necessarily mean that I'm going to go be turned on by random older women.
I've had a similar experience when I realized that my sexuality was not as cut-and-dry as I'd previously thought it was. It also took me a while to realize that just because I was attracted to women as well didn't mean I was just as picky about women as I was about men (if not more so).
If you want to try the experience again, I'd recommend spending some time really thinking about what you want out of it. Are you attracted to other men as a sex, or perhaps just curious about the acts that happen between two men?
If you're attracted to the idea of sucking cock but you're not attracted to men, you can always ask your girlfriend to buy a strap-on and suck on that. She might really enjoy it
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Many guys your age, especially when first off to college and away from home, will experiment. Don't worry...it doesn't make you or mean that you are gay, or even bisexual. Thanks for having an open mind and being willing to experiment, but it sounds like you have pretty strong emotional and sexual attractions to women. Maybe the situation will arise again, maybe it won't. But I certainly wouldn't loose any sleep over it.
Just some perspective from a different point of view: I recall my very first cock, and like you, I wasn't all that attracted to the guy it was attached to; but one thing was certain, I absolutely knew, 110% that this is what I wanted and needed. It was like a missing part of me was suddenly found. And afterwards, I needed to do it again, and again... It was like a light going on over me. I guess it should come as no surprise, that I also feel strong emotional attachments and attractions to men too, (not all and any men, mind you.) but I never get that warm and fuzzy feeling with women.
Just some perspective from a different point of view: I recall my very first cock, and like you, I wasn't all that attracted to the guy it was attached to; but one thing was certain, I absolutely knew, 110% that this is what I wanted and needed. It was like a missing part of me was suddenly found. And afterwards, I needed to do it again, and again... It was like a light going on over me. I guess it should come as no surprise, that I also feel strong emotional attachments and attractions to men too, (not all and any men, mind you.) but I never get that warm and fuzzy feeling with women.
Yea I didn't feel at all like it was what I wanted. It was more like why am I here right now? I really don't think I'm attracted to men at all after this. Maybe it was just the wrong person or whatever, but I highly doubt I'll do it again.
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Kudos to you for having the balls to a least try it. I waited until I was about 35 before I did. I have one suck buddy I see when the urge is overwhelming. And even then it's not always that great.
Sometimes the fantasy is best left as that, a fantasy. Wonder if you'd be open to sharing a cock with your gf? Might be a supper turn on for both of you.
Sometimes the fantasy is best left as that, a fantasy. Wonder if you'd be open to sharing a cock with your gf? Might be a supper turn on for both of you.
Maybe, but probably not. I kind of just think dicks are gross now, not even because I'm embarrassed about what I did or anything. I just really think I don't like them at all even thought I thought I might have. Time will tell I guess, but I really think I'm set.
EDIT: Also my GF doesn't know about this or my supposed bicuriousity, and I don't think it would be good for the relationgship. I'm kind of glad I did it now looking back because now I feel like I know for sure. Yea I did it once, I suppose it could happen again, but I'd be very surprised if it did. Everything is just way better to me with girls i guess.
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Well as I said, good of you to have given it a try. At least now you can move on to other perverted fantasies
Well as I said, good of you to have given it a try. At least now you can move on to other perverted fantasies
haha indeed
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Remember that everybody is different. I may not use the term gross, but I'm not interested in penises at all, yet I'm gay. When I see one, I may think how I wish mine were bigger so I could penetrate deeper, but I don't think how I would like to touch it or have it in any shape or form in or on me. When I first started having sex, I really questioned why I was having sex with guys. I hated the sweaty smell of cock and balls. In fact, smelling a dirty uncut cock once almost made me throw up. I hated the pubic hairs. I hated the banging in the mouth and the pawing and hard groping. (I have sensitive balls where anything stronger than a soft pet can make them ache.) As to getting blown, it sucked. I don't care for teeth, nor a half hour of acidic saliva causing my penis skin to get raw especially after teeth scrapings.
This kind of sex went on for about two years when I first started gay sex. I never got to fuck because I was lead to believe that only really HUNG guys could top. Nevertheless, I wanted to try it. I met this one older guy who was rather homely, bland, nerdy looking (bald, short, hairless body -- definitely a face & body you'd ever brag about). Anyway, he let me fuck him. Since I was young (24 or so), I could get it up regardless of his unattractive face and body. Fucking him made me realize that for the first time in my life, I knew I was gay. The way his ass tunnel fit my cock like a tight glove was indescribable. When I finally came, I didn't know if it was the fourth of July, Christmas, birthday or whether I was peeing, cumming, being born, or dying. It was just so mind shattering that it is hard to explain with words.
I'm not saying that for everybody, fucking men would be the ultimate. (I should hope not, as I'd rather see more bottom men, than tops or wanna-be tops.) I'm just saying that different things turn on different people. I still had a lot of mis-information about having to be really hung to top, so I still was versatile out of ignorance. However, as I grew in confidence, I eventually got to where I just saw no reason to do what was uncomfortable at best. I became an exclusive top about 24 years ago.
Over the years, I did suck guys I cared about. I enjoy precum, but few have enough to write home about. I don't suck to completion because I don't have that kind of skill, plus my heart isn't really into penises. I only do it as a way of being nice and letting the guy know that he isn't just some toilet for my cum.
If some guy's skin became so sensitive that he couldn't have anybody touch his cock, or a guy went permanently impotent or had an injury or illness where his penis had to be amputated, I would truly feel real bad for that individual guy because as a guy myself, I know how much we base our worth on having a functional penis. However, from a sexual standpoint, I wouldn't feel a loss since penises are truly the very LAST thing I think about when I am with a guy.
I used to think that if I were the Creator of humanity, I would have designed a man who had all the characteristics I really like: muscles, hairy body, attractive masculine face, 5-o'clock shadow, masculine (but not mean) personality, big balls (for the testosterone that makes a male a man instead of a boy), yet instead of a penis there is a tight vagina. That would be my ideal sexual partner.
Currently, I am happily committed to one great man. (I missed our 6th anniversary on Labor Day due to my father's death, but I cannot wait to see him again Monday evening when I fly home.) I have no desire for him to loose his penis because love is about loving another human being as they are. I'm so glad that he loves me topping him. However, sex isn't what it is all about. I love how he hugs me when we go to bed. I love how when I"m down, he cheers me up. I love how he teaches me things, and puts up with all my personality flaws. I guess that is the gay part of me -- I need, want, crave love, approval, respect from another guy.
I got my first BJ at 15 and fantasized for years about trying to give one. On my 21st birthday, I managed to suck off a service station attendant near my house (yes, I was married... 3 months)... he was hairy and that is a turn on for me. I rubbed his chest and rode his cock orally...we were both nervous so he did not cum...Fact is I was disgusted with myself, whined all the way home about what an idiot I was, how filthy I felt....vowed to never do it again....
Two weeks later I was taking a full 8 inches from a hairy chested stranger in a courthouse men's room!!! Never stopped again....addicted to cock!
Two weeks later I was taking a full 8 inches from a hairy chested stranger in a courthouse men's room!!! Never stopped again....addicted to cock!
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I hear that, my thing is though, I do not find men attractive whatsoever. I would rather fuck a pussy or a girl in the ass then a guy is really what it boils down to. I don't feel like something is missing or anything like that when it comes to my relationships with women, I'm not seeking for something. I simply just tried it because I was curious to see if I might like it, and I didn't.
I have yet to suck off a guy, but i had a guy suck me off. I was nervous and had to pix bouncing breast to get off. Now that I think about it, I believe i was just really nervous. We were planning on getting back together for oral, but I ended up moving before that happened.
Deciding to bump this, been have some urges lately about sucking cock and being with a guy. I think i may try again with someone my age, and looking back on it, i think this was the reason why I didnt enjoy it. Now that I've had a couple months to think about it, I think I'm willing to give things another go. I think my immense nervousness ruined the situation. When I was fooling around with that guy I was too busy thinking about why I was there or what I was doing. I think I just need to try it again and relax and let go. So I just thought I'd share that with you all.
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Hot. Have you tried craigslist or anything like that?
Yeah that's where I have met the guys from craigslist. The first guy was around my age and that's why I picked him and he wasn't creepy or anything like that but, after I got paranoid of stds becuase, I did not know him. Fortunately I did get anything.
So, for the next guys I said to myself I will only jack off w/ them. So I met another guy who goes to the same college and we jerked off in his dorm room. But, he was gay and I don't think he liked it that we watched str8 porn and I think he wanted more then jerking off.
The last guy I met I have jacked off with twice and I have written about the experiences in the thread Men who enjoy masturbating with men.
In retrospect the first guy had the best cock but, I scared him away w/ my paranoia.
He had a thick 7in uncut latin dick that makes me hard thinking about and I did not get to enjoy probably the best part of cocksucking the CUM down your throat. My mouth got tired sucking his big cock that he did not finish we just finished by jerking. I so want to suck cock and taste cum for the first time but, I am weary about using craigslist to do so becuase, of safety. and this past veterans day I had the house to myself and posted on craigslist for guys to jerk off with and all I got was creepy old guys and I am so unattracted to older men.
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why we like sucking
It's not so much the taste as the erotic feeling of having another guy cum in your mouth. You can feel him throb, then all of a sudden your mouth fills up with his warm sperm and it just feels so good. The texture is really nice. I usually swallow the first shot quickly, then suck gently on just the knob so that more sperm will slowly come out and I let it fill my mouth again. I only swallow a second time after he's done ejaculating. Some guys have 3 or 4 good spurts. It's really incredible.
It's not so much the taste as the erotic feeling of having another guy cum in your mouth. You can feel him throb, then all of a sudden your mouth fills up with his warm sperm and it just feels so good. The texture is really nice. I usually swallow the first shot quickly, then suck gently on just the knob so that more sperm will slowly come out and I let it fill my mouth again. I only swallow a second time after he's done ejaculating. Some guys have 3 or 4 good spurts. It's really incredible.
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I felt a lot like you when I was your age, now I only regrete wasting so many years jacking off when I could have been enjoying sucking a hard cock instead.
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Agree 100%. Started getting the urge in my early 20's. Didn't act on it for 15 years, damn it. Found out my best buddy was interested too. So for the last 15 years (I'm 50) I've enjoyed the best of both.
Loving and sexy wife at home. Suck buddy every few weeks.
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