wolfheartmoon
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- Apr 16, 2013
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*sighs*
I've finally accepted, I am transgender (FtM).
I claimed gender-fluid for awhile just to deny it.
Mostly because of what happened with a transgender friend of mine.
He was my friend a long time ago (six/seven years ago), I still knew him as Cassie before and then got back into contact with him, and he'd finally gotten himself sorted out and changed his name to Carson.
Well, I thought 'surely if anyone would understand my gender identity problems, he will'
So I talked to him about it, back when I was still conflicted even to myself.
He bugged me and bugged me and bugged me to come out to my family when I really did not want to, because like I said, I hadn't even fully accepted it myself.
And then finally he said I wasn't really trans, needed to shut up, and stop trying to pretend to be something I'm not, and that he got enough shit from other people and he didn't need someone else mocking him.
He then deleted me from Facebook.
I had just thought talking about it with a friend who had gone through the same thing would be helpful for me.
Well I was dead wrong there, wasn't I?
And I shut down and denied denied denied.
And then I found gender fluid and just grabbed onto that label and kept it.
I've finally started getting away from gender-fluid and more slightly (very recently) accepting that I am transgender.
I've finally accepted, I am transgender (FtM).
I claimed gender-fluid for awhile just to deny it.
Mostly because of what happened with a transgender friend of mine.
He was my friend a long time ago (six/seven years ago), I still knew him as Cassie before and then got back into contact with him, and he'd finally gotten himself sorted out and changed his name to Carson.
Well, I thought 'surely if anyone would understand my gender identity problems, he will'
So I talked to him about it, back when I was still conflicted even to myself.
He bugged me and bugged me and bugged me to come out to my family when I really did not want to, because like I said, I hadn't even fully accepted it myself.
And then finally he said I wasn't really trans, needed to shut up, and stop trying to pretend to be something I'm not, and that he got enough shit from other people and he didn't need someone else mocking him.
He then deleted me from Facebook.
I had just thought talking about it with a friend who had gone through the same thing would be helpful for me.
Well I was dead wrong there, wasn't I?
And I shut down and denied denied denied.
And then I found gender fluid and just grabbed onto that label and kept it.
I've finally started getting away from gender-fluid and more slightly (very recently) accepting that I am transgender.
