CandideCoating
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- Apr 15, 2005
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Hi, I am 20, and like all young people, I don't want some, I want it all. I am engaged to the Man I have been with since I was (hush) 16. He introduced me to BDSM I suppose as a joke, for he was not serious about it. I tried, but I found that without disciplined guidance, I could not be the sub he wanted. Years passed and though now and again some kink would show up in our bedroom, it was not nearly what I desired.
I am a submissive woman, I desire so greatly to be used in every way possible to please Master. I am extremely masochistic, and yet my personality screams otherwise. A stranger meeting me might think I were a Domme, or at least a sadist. Life has treated me harshly and I have had to develop thick skin and a rough NYC attitude.
In recent months I have recommited myself to helping both Master and myself journey to the D/s relationship we both desire. I would like to share our journey from softcore to hardcore with you.
We began with small domestic discipline. Master bought a white board and writes me a list everyday. There are six or seven chores (like the dishes or sweeping) that remain on the list at all times, and others (like scrub the shower) appear randomly with some suprises (like have a bowl of ice cream, or take a relaxing bath) thrown in. I am required to take care of this list first and foremost, even if I have class or work that day. When Master arrives home he tells me that he is pleased to see how I have completed my tasks.
One day I awoke to find this task on the list, "hang up ALL of your clothes." I thought it odd, but I complied. And now, when Master sees fit, he chooses my clothing for me. I consider this to be a big step for him, since I felt that all along he did not want to take an active part in Lording his power over me. He had even spoken out against that very thing, chosing apparel, once before. So this is great.
In the bedroom, things have stepped up silently and fantastically. I crave bondage, particularly whole body rope bondage, but this does not particularly interest Master. In recent romps however, he has asserted physical and psychological bondage to my absolute delight. Last week he displayed his power and dominance by holding my wrists to my body with one hand, rendering me completely immobile. And just tonight, he instructed me to hold my hands together above my head and not move them. I only fogot once, and he stopped what he was doing and stood still and silent waiting for me to remember.
SM is an area we have not really branched into on our current journey much. I hope that he will explore this interest of mine also. Little things, like his mainly well trimmed nails trying to rake down my back have been given, but I crave more. Only time will tell.
However, the biggest step is this - Master is taking me to a loft party in the city to show me off. A lifestyle themed party is this weekend, and we are to attend. He has even outfitted me with a very nice leash and collar to be brought upon.
I know this is not really a post to inspire discussion, but I wanted to share myself and my journey. As things progress, if there is interest, perhaps I will keep you posted. If you have suggestions for us, feel free to post away. And lastly....if you know of any suggestions for how I can better learn to "turn" from the outside world me, to Master's me. Perhaps a daily ritual, or something we can say to each other, or do, to help put me into "sub mode" if you will, when I get home. My life requires me to be hard, and sometimes it is difficult to remember instantly to be soft at home.
Thanks for listening....
I am a submissive woman, I desire so greatly to be used in every way possible to please Master. I am extremely masochistic, and yet my personality screams otherwise. A stranger meeting me might think I were a Domme, or at least a sadist. Life has treated me harshly and I have had to develop thick skin and a rough NYC attitude.
In recent months I have recommited myself to helping both Master and myself journey to the D/s relationship we both desire. I would like to share our journey from softcore to hardcore with you.
We began with small domestic discipline. Master bought a white board and writes me a list everyday. There are six or seven chores (like the dishes or sweeping) that remain on the list at all times, and others (like scrub the shower) appear randomly with some suprises (like have a bowl of ice cream, or take a relaxing bath) thrown in. I am required to take care of this list first and foremost, even if I have class or work that day. When Master arrives home he tells me that he is pleased to see how I have completed my tasks.
One day I awoke to find this task on the list, "hang up ALL of your clothes." I thought it odd, but I complied. And now, when Master sees fit, he chooses my clothing for me. I consider this to be a big step for him, since I felt that all along he did not want to take an active part in Lording his power over me. He had even spoken out against that very thing, chosing apparel, once before. So this is great.
In the bedroom, things have stepped up silently and fantastically. I crave bondage, particularly whole body rope bondage, but this does not particularly interest Master. In recent romps however, he has asserted physical and psychological bondage to my absolute delight. Last week he displayed his power and dominance by holding my wrists to my body with one hand, rendering me completely immobile. And just tonight, he instructed me to hold my hands together above my head and not move them. I only fogot once, and he stopped what he was doing and stood still and silent waiting for me to remember.
SM is an area we have not really branched into on our current journey much. I hope that he will explore this interest of mine also. Little things, like his mainly well trimmed nails trying to rake down my back have been given, but I crave more. Only time will tell.
However, the biggest step is this - Master is taking me to a loft party in the city to show me off. A lifestyle themed party is this weekend, and we are to attend. He has even outfitted me with a very nice leash and collar to be brought upon.
I know this is not really a post to inspire discussion, but I wanted to share myself and my journey. As things progress, if there is interest, perhaps I will keep you posted. If you have suggestions for us, feel free to post away. And lastly....if you know of any suggestions for how I can better learn to "turn" from the outside world me, to Master's me. Perhaps a daily ritual, or something we can say to each other, or do, to help put me into "sub mode" if you will, when I get home. My life requires me to be hard, and sometimes it is difficult to remember instantly to be soft at home.
Thanks for listening....
