Armphid
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SEVERUSMAX said:"Thank you, sir, for your advice and confidence. He didn't force me, per se, but he was very aggressive about it. That is, I didn't refuse, but I didn't know that I'd like it. I was just very thrown back by his desires, and didn't really make a decision in time. He had what you might call initiative. Yes, initiative....thing is that I didn't say yes or no. It was unclear. He took what he wanted, but I didn't protest as I expected that I would. I've never really been interested in men before....but I did enjoy it....even if he was a bit rough with me. I just didn't object or encourage him....I didn't know why I was so passive about it".
Nate listened carefully, trying to think of what to say. He'd never thought of himself as a wise or worldly man, just a simple one. To be put in this position was very new for him. "I see." Nate leaned back in his chair, "Some o' th' readin' I've done says that there's two basic kinds of folks, lad." "Those who take charge an' like it, an' those who prefer to follow." "It might be you're th' kind as likes a...strong hand takin' control."
Nate shrugged, "I don't know if tha's so, but it may be an explanation." "Part of it just mighta been tha' it took you so by surprise, you couldn't react." "Tha' can happen, pretty easy too." "Th' real test, now tha' you know it, is if you find you want t' seek it out...see how you feel when it happens again, wi' a man or a lass." "When it's not a surprise or a shock, how do you respond?" "That'll show more meanin', I reckon."
"Another thing...well, we all went t' church an' heard how sodomy's a sin, di'n't we?" Nate shook his head, "Sermoned an' preached at by men who did th' sin themselves, an' don't you doubt it, lad." "There's no sin in enjoyin' another, givin'...pleasure t' someone an' takin' yours in return." "Not tha' I expect you'll get rid o' all tha' preachin' an' th' memory of it right away." "Jus' try an' remember tha' there's sin in hurtin' folk, an' good in helping and pleasing them." Nate smiled, "Might not mean much, but tha's how I try to live."