Sorrow

[Eagle70]

Beware, me feeling sorry for myself dead ahead.


I've been away from lit for a good couple of weeks now. Hell, i've been away from the internet for a good couple of weeks now. Work has been kicking my ass, as all i do is work and sleep anymore...no time for play, and the only time i've played (read: gone to parties) is the past three days. I've been getting my ass kicked constantly by work, as i've had to pick up again another job i'm not too fond of, bouncing. So not only am i the deli man/produce guy/baker at my store, but now i'm a bouncer in a club at downtown boston. But thats not the point...i can handle that shit...

Whats killing me is that i've been away from my online friends for so long, i dont know how to get back in touch with them...i dont want them to think i've forgotten them...i dont want anybody to ever feel that way...especially one certain person, who i cared about dearly, has drifted far away from my life over the course of the past month....and it sucks, i'm not gonna lie to ya'll. I'm all sad and stuff...it sucks. I feel like...i dont even know what i feel like. i feel depressed again...and boy, does it sure suck

I really had to vent....<sigh> just had to get that out...i'm gonna go mope around some more...have a good night all

 

[Guest]

Hey look, sometimes a break is needed. And, sometimes life gets in the way of Lit. If they are friends, they will understand.
Hang in there!

 

[Guest]

 

[SleepingWarrior]

Keep your chin up Eagle. That special person will probaly PM ya or post on this thread as soon as they read it.

 

[InnocentAngel81]

welcome back to the board, smile a little bit it wont hurt much

 

[Eagle70]

its almost like i'm a clown latley IA...when i'm around people, i'm always smiling, at work, with my friends...but when i'm alone, its like i dont know how to smile...i totally hate feeling sorry for myself...this is horrible

 

[Guest]

Eagle, I know my words won't matter much. You don't know me. And, you can only hear what you are willing and ready to hear. I speak from painful experience.
Until you are happy, alone, with you. You, most likely, will continue to feel this way.

I wish I could help.

 

[Siren]

 

[Eagle70]

Thank you RD, it helps just knowing someone cares...this is just another one of my cycles...it happens alot...from happy to sad to depressed to happy again...we'll see what happens...all i can do is listen to my depression music and attempt to think of better things to come....

 

[Siren]

 

[Eagle70]

Thank you Siren...for the welcome, and for understanding me, like you always have

 

[Siren]

 

[Eagle70]

Thank you darlin...i appreciate it alot...

"And there will be Sorrow..."

Jesus Christ i'm so sick of myself.