angelsrose
Experienced
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- Mar 25, 2006
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The thing is, all I have ever had is vanilla relationships. Yet I desire so much more. have played once or twice at some local clubs, with friends of friends, and enjoyed it soooo... I don't know how to cross the line and get what it is I feel as though I really want. Although the thing is I am not sure what it is I want. I know I am extremely experimental and that I have yet to say no to much, except for group sex/orgies. I am pretty game to try anything, yet I keep meeting these vanilla men who call me "sick" for wanting them to call me a whore, "twisted" because I want to be consumed in humilaition and "fucked in the head" because of my fantasies, that I really do want to enact one day. (rape scenes)
My gilrfriends come to me for ideas on how to spice up their sex life, and I am full of them, and often they share the outcome of the night with me, which is great, but my own sex life continues to suffer.
I can't seem to find a man who will pull my hair and push my limits. Which are so wide open at this point it is almost silly.
Yes I have tried bringing my desires up to the men I date. But more then often they are close minded and can not fufil me sexually. So now I just try to find men that fufill the other ideas I have about what a relationship consists of. Ya know all the vanilla things a girl could want. And I date some amazing men, and am bored within moments. None of them are interested in my sexual ideas.
Yes, some of it has to do with age. I am in my mid twenties, and it seems as though the men that are in my age range and demographic are pretty uptight sexually. Or they won't tie me up and "force me" but they'll tie up the chick they are cheating on me with... (Yes that has happened)
I just don't know what to do. I want the best of both worlds it seems, a relationship seeped in love,trust,compassion,equality, and love....yet I want to be humilated, degraded, pinched, spanked, whipped, "forced", scratched, all the things that make me say "OWWW". I want to beg someone to stop, I want to cry durring, before, after, I want whips and chains, the painful thangs.
I hope someone understands. I don't feel as though I have anywhere else to go with this...
Thank You in advance
angel
My gilrfriends come to me for ideas on how to spice up their sex life, and I am full of them, and often they share the outcome of the night with me, which is great, but my own sex life continues to suffer.
I can't seem to find a man who will pull my hair and push my limits. Which are so wide open at this point it is almost silly.
Yes I have tried bringing my desires up to the men I date. But more then often they are close minded and can not fufil me sexually. So now I just try to find men that fufill the other ideas I have about what a relationship consists of. Ya know all the vanilla things a girl could want. And I date some amazing men, and am bored within moments. None of them are interested in my sexual ideas.
Yes, some of it has to do with age. I am in my mid twenties, and it seems as though the men that are in my age range and demographic are pretty uptight sexually. Or they won't tie me up and "force me" but they'll tie up the chick they are cheating on me with... (Yes that has happened)
I just don't know what to do. I want the best of both worlds it seems, a relationship seeped in love,trust,compassion,equality, and love....yet I want to be humilated, degraded, pinched, spanked, whipped, "forced", scratched, all the things that make me say "OWWW". I want to beg someone to stop, I want to cry durring, before, after, I want whips and chains, the painful thangs.
I hope someone understands. I don't feel as though I have anywhere else to go with this...
Thank You in advance
angel