some thoughts

[muycurioso]

There a big difference between talking the talk and walking it! As soon as you show the world your sexual orientation, you are judged very differently and for many people, the fear of being ostracised keeps their desires as just fantasies. I don't judge those people for fearing alienation: we've each got to work our what makes us happy so if that means compromising which sex we date, then that's fine too.

But everything's mash-up, with some people speaking out against gays, but hiring rent boys on the quiet; some being in hetero relationship but having an occasional fling with the same sex; or homosexual people policing their tribe and attacking anyone who even suggests they might be bisexual. Sex versus politics and power and pffft... people

add to that I don't have many friends and I rarely hang out with them. I had and have many wild fantasies and what held me back of telling sexual partners was the fear of they rejecting me and lose what tiny bit of human affection I get/got at that time. I didn't even tell my wife about my bi fantasies until we were married about 16 years. We are forever separated now, not due to the bi sex stuff but maybe it did play a part, who knows. If you live in a small world more rejection is crushing, put you right into a tailspin. I figure being "honest" would be a lot easier if you live in a big world of family and friends.

 

[cuck72]

add to that I don't have many friends and I rarely hang out with them. I had and have many wild fantasies and what held me back of telling sexual partners was the fear of they rejecting me and lose what tiny bit of human affection I get/got at that time. I didn't even tell my wife about my bi fantasies until we were married about 16 years. We are forever separated now, not due to the bi sex stuff but maybe it did play a part, who knows. If you live in a small world more rejection is crushing, put you right into a tailspin. I figure being "honest" would be a lot easier if you live in a big world of family and friends.

I'm a MWM, and consider myself as a " closet faggot wannabe" if there is such a thing. I have very strong desirers to suck cocks, mainly guys I know that are straight as far as I know. I get so hard and cum fantasizing about being a submissive faggot on my knees. But I've not gotten to the point of coming out and telling anyone. I've been living with these fantasies for a few years now. My wife has known for years that I think about other men we know fucking her, and licking up her cum filled pussy. But has no real idea that I jack off to gay porn too, thinking of being the bottom cock sucker.