Some Sort of Diary I Suppose?

[AuthorAnonymous]

Hello fellow posters

I am an avid follower of this site, and I've had quite a few posts myself with my personal account. However, because of some of the close relationships I've built using that name, I've created this here. An anonymous account for myself. To post what I want, when I want. Without judgment or surprise from the people I know here. I know some people won't understand. Why don't I just do it anyway and not worry about what they think? Unfortunately I'm not that girl. I do care what people think. But here, being anonymous, I'm free to say as I please, not afraid of what they'll say or think.

I'm a 20 year old college student. I'm a bigger girl, with lots of curves. I have 42 D sized breasts and a nice round ass. I play here on lit very often. I love fucking myself for a man over the phone as he strokes himself for me. I think I'm fairly close to having a porn addiction, but I've got it under control Honestly, I just like it a lot. It doesn't get in the way of my life.

I couldn't begin to count the number of orgasms I've brought myself to, either alone or with the help of a man on the other end of the phone. I can however count the number of orgasms a man has brought me to. Zero.

I am a virgin. Aside from one drunken night, I've never had a man touch me. I've never had someone else's fingers on my sweet pussy other than my own. Hell, I've never even been kissed.

Lately, I've been dying for this to change. I'm not posting this here to find someone to take my virginity, I just am expressing my desire to have a man touch me. To feel hands on my body, in places that nobody has been before.

I don't really know what I want out of this. I guess just to express my thoughts, hear what other people have to say. To share my escapades I go on with myself, and others (when it finally happens ) and maybe have some people share there own stories here.

I do however have one story to share, if anyone's interested in hearing it. It's the night that I had my single 'sexual' experience. I gave my first and only blowjob. There's a reason it's been the only one, and I'd be happy to share a story if anyone's interested

Thanks for reading this, or not reading it. Like I said, I don't know really what to expect from posting this, but I just wanted to express this to someone. Or lots of people

 

[MrRobinson]

I think that this is a great idea for you it might help you to get the support and a different
Perspective of your issues I think that if your ready for this then you should go for it and just enjoy it.

An I think you should share your story of your first Bj and why was it the last time
Any way your taking the right first step and I will be watching you progress.

 

[John_Whittaker0826]

Interesting

I'm intrigued. So is this really saying that those you've shared with here (and elsewhere, I suppose) really haven't had the benefit of your truthfulness? I understand having underlying feelings & issues, but now you've created a new persona in hopes of what?

Please don't interpret this as a slam or me being snarky, I'm just wondering and intrigued.

Good luck, I'll certainly be following.

 

[AuthorAnonymous]

Oh no, I'm happy to answer questions

I wouldn't say that they haven't had my truthfulness .. I've been completely honest with everyone I've spoken too. And if people have asked about my sex life, I've been honest and told them it was non-existent. But a lot of the time it hasn't come up, and I don't really know how to just come out and say it.

Like I said, I'm not what I really want out of this. I like the idea of being anonymous, and not having anyone know who I am really. Not really to be sneaky or anything like that, but like I said before, to be able to not care about people's reactions.

I guess maybe my hopes of this is to be able to get comfortable enough to share my fantasies and desires not behind and anonymous name. So if I had to pick a 'goal' of this, I suppose that would be it

 

[Wife of Bath]

So you're trying to build confidence behind an anonymous name, in order to more openly share under your 'more real' pseudonym?

 

[AuthorAnonymous]

I guess. Idk it kind of sounds odd saying it lol. But I guess if I had to choose a specific reason for this than that would be it.

 

[InsatiableDsire]

I can understand this. I think quite a few of us come on here to be able to express ourselves anonymously, without fear, and then, over time, we get to know some people, which is terrific, but then you start to think about what you're posting...

 

[John_Whittaker0826]

Ok

I guess I understand :/ I wish you luck and if you're looking for an older guys point of view, take a look, I'm new here as well, but around quite often.

 

[John_Whittaker0826]

How's it going?

 

[AJ78]

I'd love to hear your story. And now I'm racking my brain trying to figure out whether I've encountered you under your other alias, but I suppose that will have to remain a mystery.