So Far its AWESOME!!!!!

[lil_slave_rose]

this reminds me of when i went to visit Sir and he was so sick i thuoght he had appendecitis. something things just dont work out, and im sure that he didnt blame you for how you felt.

no, of course not, in fact he left me a letter telling me He understood, but it doesn't help my feelings of 'failing' any. one of the 2 million things i love about Him, is how understanding He is, but sheesh, i could have g iven so much more, and now my chance is gone because well He's gone. i guess i just need to hear His voice, and i still have 3 hours left before i will *sighs*

 

[MasterPhoenix]

now I want spaghetti! After soup for dinner last night I'm feeling undernourished.

one wonders, a little underskirt shibari with a knot in a delicate place for you to wander around in during the day!

Underclothes bondage was definately something I was planning on, but didn't get to....

 

[MasterPhoenix]

thank you all for your posts. He is now gone and on His way back to California. i will not get to talk to Him again until about9:30 or 10:00 tonight. the loneliness is creeping in and that ache in my heart and stomach is also returning. i was sick for most of the time He was here so i feel like i was not all that i should have been to Him. i was very irritable and moody with Him, and honestly not so submissive most of the time, at least that's how it feels to me. and sometimes i wonder how He puts up with me. but i'm going to end this post before it becomes a Poor me post and say one more time what a great time we had together while He was here....and i cannot wait until He's here for good

Just a few months baby... *sigh*

yeah, your not feeling good kept Me from getting a couple of things I wanted... and well got you in trouble... (or maybe you were just feeling tired and let your sammyness get away from you)

But it was what it was... I had an awesome time just being with you.. just sleeping next to you...

we got some good scenes in, and you did serve Me quite well...

just a few more months to wait...

too bad your nephew's wedding is going to be the week of your birthday so you have to spend 13 hours each way in a van with your family, when you could be flying out here, and riding back with Me... I guess we will just have to push our plans back... can't have you seen as a horrible aunt... (and I know you will love spending 26 hours cooped up with them)

 

[MasterPhoenix]

no, of course not, in fact he left me a letter telling me He understood, but it doesn't help my feelings of 'failing' any. one of the 2 million things i love about Him, is how understanding He is, but sheesh, i could have g iven so much more, and now my chance is gone because well He's gone. i guess i just need to hear His voice, and i still have 3 hours left before i will *sighs*

I called you as soon as I could, baby....

then you were asleep by the time I got 'home'... shit the BART ride and car ride seemed to take almost as long as the dammed flight...

but after a few tries you got Me awake.. and I told you I loved you... then you fell asleep on Me...

 

[lil_slave_rose]

I called you as soon as I could, baby....

then you were asleep by the time I got 'home'... shit the BART ride and car ride seemed to take almost as long as the dammed flight...

but after a few tries you got Me awake.. and I told you I loved you... then you fell asleep on Me...

*nods* i know that You called me as soon as You could, and i'm sorry i fell asleep on You after finally waking You up, but when i woke up at 3:00 in the morning , and rolled over to snuggle up to You, and You weren't there, i had to hear Your voice, i guess hearing You tell me You love me made me feel safe enough to return to sleep *sigh* i miss You

 

[MasterPhoenix]

*nods* i know that You called me as soon as You could, and i'm sorry i fell asleep on You after finally waking You up, but when i woke up at 3:00 in the morning , and rolled over to snuggle up to You, and You weren't there, i had to hear Your voice, i guess hearing You tell me You love me made me feel safe enough to return to sleep *sigh* i miss You

I miss you too babygirl... more than you can know....

It really blows being back 'home' because home is with you.... I remember landing at SFO... and mind you the Bay Area is where I grew up, and always considered home even after moving to the damn valley, and all I could think of was that I was miserable becuase I was not home cuz I wasn't with you...

 

[lil_slave_rose]

I miss you too babygirl... more than you can know....

It really blows being back 'home' because home is with you.... I remember landing at SFO... and mind you the Bay Area is where I grew up, and always considered home even after moving to the damn valley, and all I could think of was that I was miserable becuase I was not home cuz I wasn't with you...

*sighs* it's starting to hit me now...and i can feel myself spiraling to that not so nice place known as 'sub drop' trying really hard not to go there, because i'm not sure i could come back up this time but dammit....i miss You, and my heart hurts, and my body aches to feel You close to me and......*sighs*

 

[MasterPhoenix]

*sighs* it's starting to hit me now...and i can feel myself spiraling to that not so nice place known as 'sub drop' trying really hard not to go there, because i'm not sure i could come back up this time but dammit....i miss You, and my heart hurts, and my body aches to feel You close to me and......*sighs*

It hit Me the first time as I sat there in the terminal at IND waiting for the boarding calls...

Then it was really hard whne I woke up this morning and reached out for you... and you weren't there...

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[wynnie]

you two are so cute i could package you and sell you on valentine's day and make a buddle!!!! sending HUGS HUGS HUGS to the cutest people! hope today is fairing better than last night!

 

[RJMasters]

This was a great thread. Thank you for sharing the trip and some of the highlights of your time.

I am glad a great time was had and best wishes for you both in a continued future together.

 

[MasterPhoenix]

Thanks wynnie & RJ...

Our friends here on LIt mean a lot to us both.

We will keep you guys posted as things progress.