There's no denying, when one ages, one's sexuality is bound to suffer. Unless one is blessed with an overly optimistic nature, which is the way I feel right now. So I better get these self-reflecting thoughts down "on paper", before I change my mind again.
For one thing, I see the current phase of my sexuality revert back to what it was when I was very young, i.e. when I could only dream and fantasize, and had no way to experience what was developing within myself. Actually I am in better shape now, because every now and then my wife remembers that she is a woman.
But most of the time I do nothing but dream, and fantasize, and masturbate occasionally. Compared to my younger days, I have another advantage: my memory. I can re-live countless experiences now, which had not occurred yet when I began masturbating. My imagination in those days was really limited. And that had nothing to with the fact that I lived behind the so-called "Iron Curtain" then.
When I look optimistically at my present situation, I see that sex has moved largely from my genitals to my brain. This was not as much of a change as you may think, since even much earlier, much of my sex took place in my brain already. Even if not so close to 100% as that's the case now. If I look at the joy I had felt, when a whore in Berlin gave me a parting kiss, after a night of hard work on my part, (I had mentioned that experience in one of my earlier posts), I realize that joys like that could only have come out of my brain, not my (overworked) genitals.
So now my brain gets the bulk of what I feel, WHEN I feel something. An optimist might say: good for him, unless he gets Alzheimer's. But even Alzheimer's may not be so bad, where it to hit me. You heard about all the new friends, I am sure, that a person with that deficiency makes every day.
There's really only one hardship I suffer as I get older: fewer and fewer female takers show up with time, to collect from my brain what I am still able to give. Because fantasy, when one can share it with another human being, is one of the best things ever. Well, maybe I'll get lucky and even that may change for the better with time; now that I discovered Literotica.
For one thing, I see the current phase of my sexuality revert back to what it was when I was very young, i.e. when I could only dream and fantasize, and had no way to experience what was developing within myself. Actually I am in better shape now, because every now and then my wife remembers that she is a woman.
But most of the time I do nothing but dream, and fantasize, and masturbate occasionally. Compared to my younger days, I have another advantage: my memory. I can re-live countless experiences now, which had not occurred yet when I began masturbating. My imagination in those days was really limited. And that had nothing to with the fact that I lived behind the so-called "Iron Curtain" then.
When I look optimistically at my present situation, I see that sex has moved largely from my genitals to my brain. This was not as much of a change as you may think, since even much earlier, much of my sex took place in my brain already. Even if not so close to 100% as that's the case now. If I look at the joy I had felt, when a whore in Berlin gave me a parting kiss, after a night of hard work on my part, (I had mentioned that experience in one of my earlier posts), I realize that joys like that could only have come out of my brain, not my (overworked) genitals.
So now my brain gets the bulk of what I feel, WHEN I feel something. An optimist might say: good for him, unless he gets Alzheimer's. But even Alzheimer's may not be so bad, where it to hit me. You heard about all the new friends, I am sure, that a person with that deficiency makes every day.
There's really only one hardship I suffer as I get older: fewer and fewer female takers show up with time, to collect from my brain what I am still able to give. Because fantasy, when one can share it with another human being, is one of the best things ever. Well, maybe I'll get lucky and even that may change for the better with time; now that I discovered Literotica.