AKentuckyLady
Damsel in Defiance
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As part of my ongoing process to educate myself about my submissiveness and also be able to separate fact from fiction, I read a book today called "Conquer Me: Girl - to - Girl Wisdom About Fulfilling Your Submissive Desires" by Kacie Cunningham.
This is a book written by a submissive for other submissives. And something in Chapter 8 struck me as so profound that I wanted to share it and see what other thoughts are on the subject of sex and connection.
"...I speak of the tendency, as I have seen it, for people (I have noticed this most among submissive women, but that is not to say that others don't feel it as well) to ask for sex when what they really desire is some other, deeper level of emotional connection. Often, the invitation for sex is issued out of fear of rejection: while it would be a blow to a woman's ego to have her sexuality rejected, it is perhaps preferable to having her heart, or her submission, or her tears, or vulnerability rejected. Also, experience has shown most women that our sexual invitations are rarely rejected, whereas our desires for further intimacy are frequently denied.
So, rather than saying "kiss me", "hold me", "touch me", "cuddle me", "comfort me", we say "take me", "have me", "use me", "fuck me". And then we strive to pull all the connection and comfort we can out of that. Perhaps we suck those moments of tenderness dry, trying to find peace, or perhaps we crave those heavy hands and dirty words, justifying to us what we are in the deep secret place of ourselves. Maybe we use that rough time to reinforce the idea in our heads that this is all we are, all we deserve, and tender touches are reserved for good girls, which we most assuredly are not - at least, not in that moment.
... Sex is also intensely personal. There are women out there...who view it much like men do - it isn't about love, it's about fun. But even those women typically require the presence of some emotion in order for it to work - chemistry, trust, respect, affection, good humor, etc. - because love or no love, sex is connection.
What kind of world have we built when it is more acceptable to ask for sex than a cuddle session? What do we value so highly that we would rather be naked and compromised physically than emotionally? What are we so afraid of anyway?
...And this goes not just for women, but for all people. I've known Dominants who felt they could be vulnerable only during sex, and so they would ask for that instead of talking about what was bothering them, or even simply as a distraction from their own thoughts and troubles.
So ask for what you really need. Sex isn't a catch-all, it's a lot of things, but it isn't a long-term substitute for emotional-level bonding. Risk the other important things. Cry, laugh, open up, talk and be honest. If what you really need is to have her listen to you, try talking to her. If what you really need is to be at his feet and not necessarily under him in bed, try asking for that. You just might find that afterward, when you do make it to the bed, that the sex is a little less clouded with all that other stuff. And you'd be amazed what you can accomplish with a little clarity."
So, questions.
1. Have you experienced this, or can you think back to a time or event when you asked for sex but you really just wanted a connection?
2. In your current or past D/s relationship, have you managed to break this cycle and speak about your needs with your Dom/sub?
3. If you're not in a D/s relationship currently, do you find that you use sex to gain the attention of others in the hope that the connection will follow?
This is a book written by a submissive for other submissives. And something in Chapter 8 struck me as so profound that I wanted to share it and see what other thoughts are on the subject of sex and connection.
"...I speak of the tendency, as I have seen it, for people (I have noticed this most among submissive women, but that is not to say that others don't feel it as well) to ask for sex when what they really desire is some other, deeper level of emotional connection. Often, the invitation for sex is issued out of fear of rejection: while it would be a blow to a woman's ego to have her sexuality rejected, it is perhaps preferable to having her heart, or her submission, or her tears, or vulnerability rejected. Also, experience has shown most women that our sexual invitations are rarely rejected, whereas our desires for further intimacy are frequently denied.
So, rather than saying "kiss me", "hold me", "touch me", "cuddle me", "comfort me", we say "take me", "have me", "use me", "fuck me". And then we strive to pull all the connection and comfort we can out of that. Perhaps we suck those moments of tenderness dry, trying to find peace, or perhaps we crave those heavy hands and dirty words, justifying to us what we are in the deep secret place of ourselves. Maybe we use that rough time to reinforce the idea in our heads that this is all we are, all we deserve, and tender touches are reserved for good girls, which we most assuredly are not - at least, not in that moment.
... Sex is also intensely personal. There are women out there...who view it much like men do - it isn't about love, it's about fun. But even those women typically require the presence of some emotion in order for it to work - chemistry, trust, respect, affection, good humor, etc. - because love or no love, sex is connection.
What kind of world have we built when it is more acceptable to ask for sex than a cuddle session? What do we value so highly that we would rather be naked and compromised physically than emotionally? What are we so afraid of anyway?
...And this goes not just for women, but for all people. I've known Dominants who felt they could be vulnerable only during sex, and so they would ask for that instead of talking about what was bothering them, or even simply as a distraction from their own thoughts and troubles.
So ask for what you really need. Sex isn't a catch-all, it's a lot of things, but it isn't a long-term substitute for emotional-level bonding. Risk the other important things. Cry, laugh, open up, talk and be honest. If what you really need is to have her listen to you, try talking to her. If what you really need is to be at his feet and not necessarily under him in bed, try asking for that. You just might find that afterward, when you do make it to the bed, that the sex is a little less clouded with all that other stuff. And you'd be amazed what you can accomplish with a little clarity."
So, questions.
1. Have you experienced this, or can you think back to a time or event when you asked for sex but you really just wanted a connection?
2. In your current or past D/s relationship, have you managed to break this cycle and speak about your needs with your Dom/sub?
3. If you're not in a D/s relationship currently, do you find that you use sex to gain the attention of others in the hope that the connection will follow?