Process of aging... gaining insight.. & not being able to pass on that type of lesson

[Jade]

I walked a young girl home from rehearsal last night and back to her dorms.
WOW I felt so nostalgic!

It was interesting because, stereotypically, this young girl was definetely not attractive and would easily be considered.. a "geek." Well, normally, when you are younger and are a geek, and people look at you funny, and snicker, it is supposed to make you feel bad.
Well, in the dorms, several sorority girls looked at her and gave smirking faces, but did it bother me? NO of course not.. I have been over that for a long time. (Oh gee.. these loser judgemental little bitches are looking at us like we are geeks! eee! LOL)
But the coolest part was that, SHE did not seem bothered either. She was comfortable enough with herself and only 19.


So I suppose what bothered me was the immaturity of some of these people. And well, I just didn't like them and I suppose I just could have ignored it.. but something was stirring within...(now is the opportunity to say "uh oh.")


I admit, I embarrassed her greatly anyway... I started singing in the hallways and galavanting around like a freak of nature... in part (sounds immature I know, but I had an innate, inner purpose I SWEAR it!) just to SHOW these people that I could give a flying ##$% what they thought of me... it was so ... so FREE! I mean, I haven't worried what others thought of me since h.s.... but this was my first time really and truly expressing that. (Okay so I did some silly ass things as a freshman also but those don't count b/c I was freshman.. nuff said).
Anyway, I felt vindicated, and intelligent, and ... beautiful!
In fact... I got hit on by bunches of little cuties... made me feel SO good.
Do you think they had ANY idea I was an old woman of 23?





Okay, your turn... when did it happen for you.. or have you ALWAYS not given a shit what others though?
I suppose it is worse for females? (but correct me if I am wrong)

Sorry.. sort of a confusing thread but...
dammit I want to know! I missed you all so much!

 

[Sparky Kronkite]

I've almost always known....

That over concern about what other's thought of me was illogical - even at a very young age - I really remember thinking about this as early as 3rd grade - but knowing that this kind of over concern was not smart and not succumbing to it were and still are, two different things. It's just that the older I get the less I succumb. The way the curve is going I predict I'll be a pretty nasty, careless, lecher by age 70. Come'ere little girl. Pinch, pinch.

 

[April]

{{{{Jade}}}}

I still care too much what others think of me.
I care less, but still too much.

 

[Thor's Hammer]

An advantage of age is to be able to say and mean it, "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn." From my advanced perspective the old platitude, "Youth is wasted on the young," is engraved in stone. Having said that, being around younger people is an elixer of life...a chance to drink from the true fountain of youth.

Besides, age is truly a state of mind!

 

[teresafannin]

AS I have gotten older, it matters less what people think about me. When I was in high school & college, it mattered a great deal. As a single mom, looked down upon by plenty of people, I got to where I didn't give a shit what they thought. During this past year, I know many people who disapprove of the way I have spoken out about the murder of my son & the others, but that is their problem. I have to do what is right for me & if I can make a positive impact or give hope to someone else, I feel I owe it to my son to do that. I do love being around young people & luckily, lots of his friends have become my friends. Thor is right about age being a state of mind. I work with a lady who is in her 60's & she is the youngest person I know.

 

[Sammyjo]

I don't really care what people think or say. Someone at work was actually giving me a lecture about not eating lunch, saying that it's not going to help me lose weight. Yeeeeesh, I never thought that, I just want to be home to get my daughter from the bus.

Anyway...my brother played hockey for a while, and I still see his buddies as being 12 years old even though they are 19...and the other day, one of them was flirting with me...ugh!!! ME!! A fat, ugly, old, single mom...WTF??? Oh well...it made me feel better...of course, maybe he just sees me as someone he respects, and I just thought it was flirting...LOL


P.S. No, I don't think I'm fat, ugly, or old...heehee...just so you know I haven't gone back on my self-affirmation from a few months ago.

 

[~justin]

i'm ninteen, i've never given a flying rat's ass what people i don't care about think about me, and i still don't.

let me put it this way. me as of a month ago didn't care. me now doesn't care. they're not the same person.

note the "people i don't care about." if you're important to me, then of course i care what you think. if you show me someone who doesn't care about anyone else i'll show you a blowup doll...

 

[Jade]

Sammi... I would LOVE to be flirted with by a nineteen year old.. completely flattering! And you need to LOVE it girl! Feel beautiful for the sexeh sexeh that you are!

Justin... YOu know I love ya babe!


((((April)))) I care what YOU think!

 

[Evesdemise]

State of Mind

I agree with the rest. "Sexy" and self-confident are both states of mind.The mind is such a powerful tool for each person to use according to his/or her dreams and aspirations in life.I still get carded for cigs and at bars. If when I was fourteen,standing with my pack of Marlboros at the counter of the 7-11, I had ever been carded, I would have been insulted. Now I smile sweetly, I fishing out my ID, and say to the questioning store clerk, or demanding doorman, "Thank you."

--Eve