Please stop doing this... I fall for it too easily... and it hurts...

[angela146]

The "Boyfriends" thread is a classic example:

Someone posts to an old thread, one that hasn't been updated in months, and it pops back up to the top of the list.

I don't notice the dates on the posts and assume it is a new thread.

Then, two thirds of the way down the page, I see that familliar stockinged thigh and say "What the Hell?", only to suddenly realize that it's an old post to an old thread and that glimmer of hope that I had for a split second is dashed.

And I'm reminded that Colly is still dead, and I start crying.

 

[EmeraldKitten]

I'm not sure we've ever talked before, but...
*Gentle hugs*

 

[sweetnpetite]

The "Boyfriends" thread is a classic example:

Someone posts to an old thread, one that hasn't been updated in months, and it pops back up to the top of the list.

I don't notice the dates on the posts and assume it is a new thread.

Then, two thirds of the way down the page, I see that familliar stockinged thigh and say "What the Hell?", only to suddenly realize that it's an old post to an old thread and that glimmer of hope that I had for a split second is dashed.

And I'm reminded that Colly is still dead, and I start crying.

Oh that was me. I'm so sorry. I hadn't even noticed that Colly had posted on it, it was one of the threads that I had posted on and I went back to check on it and someone posted something to me and I posted a response. Ok, I guess it was a couple of months ago, but I haven't been on lit much lately, just a couple of times a month.

I am really sorry that it was upsetting. I'm really really really sorry.

 

[Lucifer_Carroll]

I believe that would mean I share some of the responsibility for being the one responded to. Sorry.

I know all about the wounds of Colly and also of hoping it was all just a dream. Just coming to these threads sometimes is like picking at the scab.

To me, there is a cruel and perfect symmetry that this thread is born off of the boyfriend thread. One mentor's torch and the fresher torch of Colly bearing their weights onto what I could only hope to achieve.

Yeah, I miss her. We all do. But we carry on and in my case make vague statements. Blah blah blah.


Anyway on the other thread's response, I believe you should feel good about it. Now it's up to me to continue to kick my ass and actually live up to that fucking ideal for myself. Both their ideals honestly.

 

[Roxanne Appleby]

Gosh, I understand the pang, but I think I love the fact that this medium confers a whiff of immortality.