Open to Exploring Possibilities with the right Dom...

[SuccubusScribe]

After having 2 very different submission experiences online with 2 very different men, I have been left with unanswered questions and a deep longing to learn more... So, after weighing the pros and cons, I have decided to come here, lay my cards out on the table, and see if anyone is interested in having an online corrispondence with me, with the possibility for more in the future...

I admit that my current situation is less than ideal. Due to my current finantial status, im trapped in a less than satisfactory marriage where my needs have not been awknowledged, nor met for quite some time. I do have kids. I am in college (business management and accounting). I am also an aspiring writer having been published as a poet on several occasions (though poetry is not my main foccus).

Im am 34, 5ft3, and 200 lbs (BBW). Im an Aquarius with an INFP personality and an IQ of 139. I am a bit of a nery girl and really enjoy reading science fiction, fantasy, romance and erotica. I also like being active. I love to belly dance in my living room, do yoga, and go on nature walks.

When it comes to BDSM, im a newbie in a lot of ways. While I have experimented with different aspects of the lifestyle, I have never been trained, because i havent found the right dom. It is in my nature to please, however, I do have questions and concerns that need to be adressed.

If any part of what I have said intrests you, I would consider it an honor to recieve a responce. Your time and attention is much appreciated...

 

[Kurizu]

I read your thread and as I did, I come to find that I have more than a few unanswered questions of my own. I know, from what you wrote, that you are not happy where you are at this time in your life. I know that you are looking for something that you think is missing from the grand equation of things. I know that you enjoy pleasing others. Those things are facts that you have admitted.

Now comes the questions I have. Is your venture into this going to be done to the best of your abilities? When a task is set it is made to be completed, not skirted around or ignored. Can you accept that and follow through?

Are you prepared to accept the things you discover, whether they be in general or about yourself? Some truths might be hard to accept. Some might cost you things you that you are not prepared to lose. Can you endure it all in order to find that which you are looking for?

Many are naturally submissive, but can you truly submit. Can you release the hold you have on yourself and belong to another, to allow them to make choices for you and guide you not as you deem proper or natural, but to their vision of you and of what you are to them?

Ask yourselves these questions to start with. Take the time to think about them before you open Pandora's box. Because as in all things, once opened, the secretes revealed can never be hidden again. If you decide that you still want to take that first step, then I invite you with open arms and a guiding hand.

 

[SuccubusScribe]

I read your thread and as I did, I come to find that I have more than a few unanswered questions of my own. I know, from what you wrote, that you are not happy where you are at this time in your life. I know that you are looking for something that you think is missing from the grand equation of things. I know that you enjoy pleasing others. Those things are facts that you have admitted.

Now comes the questions I have. Is your venture into this going to be done to the best of your abilities? When a task is set it is made to be completed, not skirted around or ignored. Can you accept that and follow through?

Are you prepared to accept the things you discover, whether they be in general or about yourself? Some truths might be hard to accept. Some might cost you things you that you are not prepared to lose. Can you endure it all in order to find that which you are looking for?

Many are naturally submissive, but can you truly submit. Can you release the hold you have on yourself and belong to another, to allow them to make choices for you and guide you not as you deem proper or natural, but to their vision of you and of what you are to them?

Ask yourselves these questions to start with. Take the time to think about them before you open Pandora's box. Because as in all things, once opened, the secretes revealed can never be hidden again. If you decide that you still want to take that first step, then I invite you with open arms and a guiding hand.

Thank you very much for your reply. I appreciate your feedback and have thought about what you have said...

This pursuit is not some flight of fancy, it is something that I have thought about and have been interested in pursuing for quite some time. In essence, I have already opened pandora's box when i agreed to partisipate in my last 2 online submission experiences, which in turn has lead me here, seeking answers, guidance and the possibility for more...

As I have analyzed the pros and cons, before stepping out onto this platform, I understand that there are many risks I take as I persue this venture. This is why I am doing my homework and looking for the right Dom for me. I am not about to jump into an agreement with just anyone.

I look forward to the honor of belonging to the right Dom. It's a great ammount of trust that I give when I agree to submit myself into his keeping, under his command. Also, as the relationship is online, there is a great trust he places on me when he assigns tasks for me to complete. This trust that I will give my future Dom, and the trust he will give me, is something I take very seriously. I intend to serve my future Dom to the best of my ability.

All in all, I believe it would be a terrible disservice to both of us (my future Dom and I) if I were to jump into this type of situation halfheartedly and without proper preperation...

 

[SuccubusScribe]

I am interested in more than cheap thrills. I am a smart, witty and abundantly creative woman. I have a lot to offer the right person (both in and out of bed).

As this day began, I knew that I was looking for something here, but I honestly did not know the specifics of what exactly that was. I knew that I wanted to learn more about what it means to be a submissive woman and I knew that I wanted to meet a Dom.

After having done some research today I have decided to edit and add a little more information to this thread post.

I know now more of what it is that I am looking for. I want a mature man whose wisdom, guidance and protection I can count on. I need someone who is caring and patient; someone who is willing to take the time to get to know me and to earn my trust.

I am into tight lacing. However, I do want someone who will appreciate my curves as they are and see my body as a treasure built to handle a wide variety of pleasuring. I am very affectionate, I love pleasure and I love to please. I don't mind light pain (spanking, hair pulling, and more to be determined as I progress), just enough sensation to heighten my senses, but not enough to really hurt. I have been hurt enough in my life, so I am not interested in being abused. Used perhaps, but not abused. I like the idea of bondage. I like being groped and man handled. All in all, I do have an open mind, I like trying new things and I like being told what I need to do to please (both in and out of bed)...
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[kace53]

hello

Hi from Australia.
I have read your thread and found it intriguing.
the possibilities seem endless for you.
I think it's a pity I am so far away as I believe I could assist you.
I love your photos - a body of a real woman - very desirable curves.
Such a waste that you're being neglected

 

[SuccubusScribe]

Open to exploring possibilities, but not willing to settle.

After my original post “Open to Exploring Possibilities with the right Dom…” I have received so many responses that I am both over whelmed and flattered at the same time... This is a new and exciting world for me. I am learning as I go here. I am trying my best to understand what is and will be expected of me on this journey. I am honored and thankful for every one of you who have taken the time to respond to my original post. Thank you kindly.

I want to stress that I am not here for cheap thrills and that this is not a decision I take lightly. I know my worth and I am going to wait right here, for the right Dom, at the right time. If you want someone to put to task and who is going to surrender herself into your keeping, right away, after the first or even the second day of “getting to know you” then I am not the one for you…

I also need to note that due to my current situation which I have listed in my original post; (i.e. the realities of family life) this relationship will begin as an online correspondence via chat and email (with the possibility for more in the future). Also, my time is limited. The only time I have “alone” is during the night Sunday-Thursday, from approx. 2am till approx. 11am (MST), some days more, some days less. This is not to say that I do not have time to chat and other things throughout the week, it is simply the time I have for being alone. I realize that this is a big limitation and that many will not be willing to put up with such things. This is why I am trying to be up front about my situation.

I want to open myself up to you. I want to share all that I am with you and more. I need you to know me, to be willing and able to get into my head. I need more than the dominance of an alpha male, I need more than your command, I need a lover and I need a friend also. I need someone who appreciates the woman I am while also molding me into the woman I will be.

I am uncertain, largely untried, and I need to know where my place is. I need to know what methods of discipline you use, along with what the rules and boundaries of a D/s relationship with you will be. I need to understand what you want and need. I need to know how I am to please you on this journey.

Furthermore, “TRUST” is the key word here. If I am going to submit all that I am to you, then I must know and trust you, not only as a Dom, but as a man of honor and worth. I need to know your “modus operandi” and what you will need and expect of me. I want to be your most cherished and treasured possession.

I need your wisdom and guidance as I step out on to this path. I need patience and understanding, because I have never been collared and am untrained. These steps I take are not easy. I know that you will test me and that you will push me. I may stumble along the way and I need to know that if I should fall; your hand will be there to catch me.

I look forward to hearing more about you; your modus operandi, your rules, your expectations, and what I can expect if I were to submit all that I am into your keeping. I also humbly request a picture of your face (I have been wondering if it is some kind of unspoken rule that a Dom keeps his face hidden?) In return I welcome your comments and questions, and though I may not have the right answers, I will answer with sincere honesty, to the best of my ability…