Noir

[Poganin]

Spencer Grant

I was sitting on the sand, feeling the coldness at my back and sides fighting with the warmth of the fire in front of me. I tried hard to push all negative thoughts and feelings far and away, drown them in the water far off the beach or burn them in the fire right here. But they just wouldn't leave. When I thought I managed to kill one, two new ones sprung up as if invited by the void I tried to create in my mind. I just wanted a while to concentrate and think completely of nothing good and nothing bad. It was impossible, after this evening I just couldn't regain my peace. I knew there was a hard, sleepless night looming ahead... and no bottle to make it any easier on me... or at least a single cigarette to poison my lungs with.

Realising my fingers were cold, stiff and cracking at the joints when I tried to flex them I brought my palms closer to the fire to warm them. My eyes were fixed on the flames raging over the stack of wood and then I caught movement that could neither be a flame wandering somewhere off or a stray spark.

I looked in that direction and noticed Josie, standing there with shiny streaks on her cheeks accentuated by the moving fire. I tried to understand how bad she was feeling but had no time for that. Her teas were showing that things were far from perfect. I looked at her wipe the tears like a little girl who didn't want to show her fragility.

”I’m cold … “ she said and I barely heard it, ”Do you mind … ?” she asked pointing to the sand somewhere near to me.

Why was she asking? I invited her to join me whenever she wanted, she needed no permission for that.

”Spencer … I’m sorry … “ Josie said before I had a chance to say anything. I was the one who should apologise for spoiling her birthday like this. I felt real shitty because of this: instead of making this day memorable and fun for her I made her miserable. Instead of making her forget about bad things I was afraid I made them resurface. I was pissed at myself.

Sighing sadly I got up and slowly crossed to where she was standing.

"You've nothing to apologise for, Josie," I said softly. "If anything it's my fault... Come on, sit down and... uh... no, just sit down. You're welcome." I smiled reassuringly at her and gestured for her to join. I wanted to say more but felt that my speaking whatever might only make things worse.

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

Josie Rimmington

I watched as he stood and closed the distance between us.
He didn't smile.
He didn't reach out to me.
He just sighed and spoke softly.

"You've nothing to apologise for, Josie.
If anything it's my fault... Come on, sit down and... uh... no, just sit down. You're welcome."

I forced a smile in return to his and we both moved and sat a short distance from the fire.
The flames danced and licked upwards.
We were together ... but still so far apart.
I wrapped my arms around me and stared blankly.
The tears dried on my cheek, but I still felt empty.

He didn't want me ... on any level now I guessed.
I'd done it all wrong ... but I didn't know how to make it right.
I sighed heavily and dropped my head on my hands.
I as tired, drained and hazarding a glance over at Spencer he looked the same.
He caught my eye, but I blushed and looked away quickly.

I didn't know what to say, short of apologise again ... and he had barely accepted that the first time.

 

[Poganin]

Spencer Grant

Josie joined me and sat down a little to the side as if she were afraid to get closer. It felt as if she came over not to be alone in the house but the way we were sitting it was as if we were alone together. I thought I knew what was wrong but I was afraid of speaking or doing anything so that I don't make it worse or hurt her any more. How stupid can a man get?

I watched the chaotic dance of the flames in front of us, wanting to speak but afraid to do so. I wanted things to be as they had been right when we had come here, in the morning. Somewhere along the line all this was twisted and turned inside out and now we were sitting like a pair of strangers sharing a fire before moving on our own ways.

I heard Josie sigh and out of the corner of my eye noticed her drop her head. For a moment I thought she was falling asleep but then I saw her turn a bit to look at me and I met her gaze. She turned away the moment our eyes met.

I moved a little closer to Josie, shuffling over the sand, and drawing my legs closer I embraced my knees with my right hand, winding my left arm around her shoulders.

"I'm sorry, Josie," I began looking into the flames. "I'm sorry I made such a mess of your birthday. I'm sorry I confused you. I'm sorry all this is going wrong. I understand if you hate me. I never wanted it all to turn out so awkward... please believe me."

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

Josie Rimmington

I look felt rather then saw Spencer ease closer.
His arm moved around my shoulder and held me drawing me closer to him.

"I'm sorry, Josie,"

His eyes were trained on the flames as he spoke.

"I'm sorry I made such a mess of your birthday. I'm sorry I confused you. I'm sorry all this is going wrong. I understand if you hate me. I never wanted it all to turn out so awkward... please believe me."

I sighed and nodded staring at the flames as I replied.

"I know ... I didn't mean to insult you ... about the drinking ... I was trying to be considerate ... I have no idea how much of a problem it is for you ... or not ... hell ... how could I know?"

My voice had raised in frustration.
I wasn't angry at him, just annoyed that something like that had gotten between us.

" ... but it is my birthday ... I'm 21 Spencer ... "

I turned to face him meeting his eyes, forcing him to meet my gaze.

"I'm 21 ... "

I repeated trying to get through to him.

"Not a teenager ... not a child."

Did he accept that at all?

"I know my mind ... and I knew what I wanted ... I wanted you ... then all that got complicated ... what ifs ... and thinking where it would lead ... what then ... but it can't be worse than it is now between us? Can it?"

I asked him and seeing him shake his head sadly.

"Spencer ... "

I licked my lips nervously and laid a hand on his arm playing with the fabric there.

"Spencer ... I'm only going to ask this once ... and whatever your answer is ... it doesn't change a thing between us ... tomorrow will just be another day ... it will be what we want it to be but ... "

I stopped realising that I was rambling.
I looked out at the sea and almost lost my nerve.

I felt his hand touch me lightly, turning my head to face him.

"Josie ... ?"

His voice was concerned, confused. He clearly had no idea ...

"Spencer ... I ... want you ... want you to make love to me ... "

I watched his face and the emotions that played over it.

"I don't want to be alone tonight ... and I don't want you to be alone either ... please ... "

I held my breath and waited, not letting him turn away, forcing him to answer...

 

[Poganin]

Spencer Grant

I turned towards Josie and sitting on my heels I took her hand in mine and for a second rubbed her skin with my thumb. Smiling at her warmly I raised my eyes and held her gaze.

"Me neither, Josie. And I'd hate for you to be alone, too. Not tonight."

I spoke softly and kissed her open palm, I couldn't deny this was a dream come true situation but at the same time it felt right. For some reason intimacy and being close with Josie were coming naturally and somehow I felt that such a turn of events was right. As if everything had agreed that it alright for the two of us to come together.

"I want to be with you, Josie. And I want you to be with me. I want to make love to you and I want to make you feel good."

I realised I was blabbering and decided to shut up, there was no need for more words once we've spoken our hearts. Instead I drew Josie closer and kissed her lips, as delicately as I had before, bit with more passion now. And more at ease about this. I no longer felt uncertain.

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

Josie Rimmington

The silence seemed to stretch between us.
The waves lapped and I watched the play of emotions over Spencer's face.
I smiled hesitantly as he turned towards me and took my hand.
His smile in return was warm.
At least he hadn't just pushed me away.

"Me neither, Josie. And I'd hate for you to be alone, too. Not tonight."

I nodded and shivered as he pressed a kiss on my palm.

"I want to be with you, Josie. And I want you to be with me."

I met his eyes and saw sincerity there.

"I want to make love to you and I want to make you feel good."

I shivered as he told me that he needed me as much as I needed him.
At last ... it had been said ... and it was still OK.

"Spencer .. "

I murmured his name as his lips met mine and kissed me just as tenderly but deepening leaving me breathless.
I curled a hand around him and let my fingers play through the hair in the nape of his neck as I pressed my body close feeling our tongues dancing against each other then gave a gasp as Spencer sucked at my tongue.

My whole body quivered.
My other hand moved to his chest, outlining his hard torso and steadying my reeling senses.

 

[Poganin]

Spencer Grant

Gently sucking on Josie's tongue and treasing it with mine, our lips still connected, I slowly eased us down on the sand. I put my arm around Josie's shoulders, supporting her so that she wouldn't get sand in her hair. I let go of her tongue and broke our kiss, our breaths intermingling for a while. I looked Josie in the eyes but she just drew my head down, still caressing my neck, making me shiver in pleasure but I resisted her, teasing her. I pecked at her upper lip and then the lower. I felt her tongue dart out and lick my lip and I sucked it into my mouth finally connecting in another kiss with a sharp intake of air.

It almost felt as if we were melting together, pressing our bodies against each other. I slid my palm from Josie's knee up her leg, holding it on her hip for a while longer, my fingers reaching a bit below her to slide on her bottom and the moving upwads again to stop on her waist, feeling her move as we touched, kissed and caressed each other in a passionate embrace.

"Your lips... so tasty," I whispered, my lips stroking hers as I spoke.

I kissed her chin and moved lower to kiss her neck, enjoying a small sound she made. I covered her smooth skin with delicate kisses while my hand was creeping higher.

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

Josie Rimmington

His mouth was heaven.
The taste of his tongue as it teased added to the sensitivity of my mouth.
Somehow we sank towards the sand, the softness cushioning me as Spencer looked down at me, his eyes alive, searching and seeing an answering need in my own gaze.

Not wanting to give Spencer cause for second thoughts, I drew his head downwards and moaned as I felt his mouth teasing my swollen lips, licking, nibbling as I clung to him.
Finally he captured my tongue and sucked it into his own mouth.
Again tongues stroked and danced as I arched beneath Spencer, then finally i pulled free of his questing tongue and was able to explore his moist mouth letting my tongue lash his pulsing cavern as his chased mine and tried in vain to recapture it.
As the pace quickened, I felt Spencer's hand running over my body and gave my own freedom to explore.
Breathlessly, as if by unspoken consent we broke the kiss.

"Your lips... so tasty,"

His whisper made me shiver as did the soft touch of his lips against mind.

"Spencer ... oh God ... so ... good ..."

I breathed as he lowered his head and began to kiss my neck causing me to moan softly.

"Ohh uhh... umm ... "

Each pass of his mouth made me whimper, so erotic was that gentle touch.

"Ohh .. yes .. umm... "

I murmured my legs flailing pushing the sand aside beneath me.
The fire crackled just beyond where we lay.
The sea rocked rhythmically the pace much slower than my now hammering heart.

"Ummmm..."

The sound was more a purr than a moan.
Spencer's hands had crept up to my breasts.
He was stroking, circling awakening my newly aching orbs.

"Spencer!!"

I cried out his name as finally his fingers captured my nipples and squeezed, gently at first.

"Ohh ... God...yessss "

I urged as my hands moved desperately at his shirt and began to ease his buttons open wanting to touch his naked torso ...

 

[Poganin]

Spencer Grant

I could feel Josie's skin heat up under my hands and lips. I kissed and kissed the silky soft skin of her neck, drawing gasps and sounds of pleasure from her lips that kissed so well. I felt her body squirm under my touch as my hands slipped under her jumper and t-shirt and grazed her warm belly and sides and finding the full globes of her breasts. Josie's legs moved uncontrollably and it looked as if she were losing control over her body.

Her breasts felt so good to the touch! Soft skin so lovingly clinging to my hands. Her crying of my name in pleasure as I caressed her hardened nipples drove me crazy, so sexy her voice was. I rubbed the hard nubs with my thumbs, enjoying her moans, while my lips were slowly returning to find hers eagerly awaiting the renewed contact of passionate dance of our tongues.

Josie's hands were making a frantic attempt to unbutton my shirt and I let go of her breasts to help her, making her gasp and purr questioningly but I covered her lips with mine and moaned into her mouth as I felt her tongue dart forward to meet mine. I unbuttoned the remaining buttons and I felt Josie's hands run over my chest, following the lines there, her fingernails grazing my skin, scratching me as I tried to push her tongue out of my mouth. Backing up a bit I forced her to raise herself and I spread my shirt under her on the sand.

"Hmmrrrr," I growled as Josie bit on my tongue and massaged it with her lips. She was so active, so passionate, she knew exactly what she wanted. I loved the way she was kissing me, so deep, so hard. I realised I was making low growls during her daring attacks on my lips and tongue.

Then my hands moved to grasp and pull her jumper over her head and again put it below her. But before I had the chance to kiss her again Josie grabbed on to me and started kissing me while her hands roamed my back.

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

Josie Rimmington

The sensation of his hard body beneath my questing fingers continued to arouse me.
I scored his flesh gently with my nails loving the way he quivered beneath my touch.
I groaned loving his reaction.
I craved to kiss his torso, to taste his flesh, but Spencer's mouth still worked hungrily at my mouth sucking my tongue and exploring my sensitive mouth.
My lips were swollen with the force of his passionate kisses.
Now the barriers were down, it seemed there was no end to Spencer's appetite.

His mouth moved on and on.
The soft growls he was giving as he devoured me make my body quiver and ache.
God... so erotic ... my body rocked as Spencer continued to taste until finally his hands moved to my sweater and drew it gently upwards.
Eagerly I wriggled free of the garment, but instead of letting Spencer return to capture my mouth, I flicked a tongue over his lips and then began to kiss downwards... licking his cheek... his neck.... teeth grazing as I sucked at his flesh, a long lick causing him to moan...
My breath was hot as I moved to suck his ear lobe and flick an exploratory tongue...
Then on again until I eased down his body able at last to kiss his chest ... long licks... small teasing nibbles ... my hands playing and pressing along his back, his shoulders ... his chest...

"God... Spencer ... you taste so good ..."

I groaned and moved my mouth to flick a tongue across one nipple then the other ... before easing myself lower to trail a tongue down to his abdomen... wondering if he would let me .... or if he would once more take control ....

I moaned ... loving the way we were duelling with each other.

 

[Poganin]

Spencer Grant

Although I longed for her full, tasty lips I willfully let Josie caress me, her touch making he shiver. She was kissing and touching me as if she knew exactly which buttons to press to get from me the desired response. She was moving constantly, her lips, tongue and teeth tracing my skin, her hands following her lips, massaging, tracing or scrathing places she'd just kissed or nibbled. The loose mane of her hair, golden in the light of the flickering flames, stroked and tickled my belly as her hands and tongue danced over my skin, making me gasp and shiver as she found yet another sensitive spot.

Josie was kissing a line down my chest towards my navel and her nails trailed lines down my sides. I reached to her and stroked my palms up Josie's forearms and into the sleeves of her t-shirt. She purred against the skin of my lower belly sending an electric shiver around my body that made my hips buck and buck again as she plunged her fingernails into my skin to hold me in place.

"J-Josie... ahhh..." I moaned and inhaled sharply as she put her fingers under the rim of my jeans and toyed with the elastic of my pants and her thumb flicking over the hard bulge of my erection. I heard her giggle and Josie looked up at me, fire in her eyes and devilish smile on her lips. With a deft motoin of her thumb she pushed the button out.

I realised I was panting now, my breath quick and tension of expectation making my body stiff. I reached for Josie and drew her upward, kissing her once and pulling her t-shirt over hear head only to throw in on the sand. I ran my head over her shoulders watching her full, beautiful breasts squeezed between her arms as she unzipped my trousers and slipped her hands inside, around my hips.

"God... Josie..." I moaned as she teasingly slid her knuckles across my erection. "How do you know... ooh... where..." the rest of my words were cut off as she kissed me deep and I embraced her running both my hands all over the smooth, warm skin of her back. I felt her breasts press into my chest, hard nipples grazing and burning my skin and I moaned into her mouth, chasing her tongue with mine.

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

Josie Rimmington

His abdomen ... his hips ... I was fascinated by the mascuine flesh as it quivered beneath my touch.
Spencer seemed to have lost his inhibitions as much as I had.
All we concentrated on it seemd was touching ... tasting ... learning each other's body.

"J-Josie... ahhh..."

Spencer's moans encouraged and reassured me that he was enjoying this exploration as much as I was.
I glanced up as I teased him, my fingers playing with the elastic of his pants.
His erection throbbed as I gently stroked that bulge.
I wanted to ... needed to see ... so quickly I unfastened the button, but before I could satisfy my curiosity, Spencer captured me in a firm and gentle grip and drew me upwards against his body.
I smiled as he kissed me and pulled off my tshirt.
I giggled as he discarded it rapidly, merely throwing it aside this time and then allowed me to reach down and unzip him, enjoying the look on his face as I eased the fabric down over his hips.

"God... Josie..."

My touch drew another exclamation from him.

"How do you know... ooh... where..."

I kissed him, my tongue pushing into his mouth, lashing and duelling before releasing his sensitive lips with a flick of the tongue.

"Spencer ... you taste so good ... feel so good ...
I don't know ... I just need to touch you ... to taste you ... you drive me crazy .... "

I told him breathlessly.

"I want you ... I have ... for a long time now ... "

I confessed and moaned as I felt my sensitive breasts brush the coarse surface of his hard chest.
Again the shared moan ... the shared kiss ...
I stroked his pulsing cock knowing that this was all I wanted ... to be with Spencer ...

"I'm not a little girl Spencer ... "

I purred as I eased my mouth away from him.
I gasped as his hands moved to my breasts in answer.

"I haven't done ... this much ... I... "

I moaned and arched my back as he continued his attentions.

"God ... I've never wanted anyone like this ... felt like this before ... "

I declared.
I didn't want him to think I was some slut who went to bed with a string of men .... although I knew somehow that Spencer would never think that ... I wanted him to know how special this was ... no strings ... but ... beyond what either of us had imagined perhaps..

"Ohhh.... yess ... Spencer!"

I gasped, my teasing hands stilling as I stretched my body out beneath him, offering it up for his exploration, inviting his hands and mouth to explore my aching body.

"Ummm... ahhhh ... please ...."

I begged as he pleasured my quivering torso ...

 

[Poganin]

Spencer Grant

Leaning forward I eased Josie on the clothes spread on the sand, my right hand as if glued to her full breast that felt so magnificent to the touch. She had marvellous breasts and the sight alone was making me crazy. Josie was looking at me with eyes that burned with desire and I was aware that my own gaze was as hot. Gently I fondled the soft flesh beneath my fingers, feeling the stiff nipple slide across my palm which made her gasp. I lowered my head and planted a loving kiss on her right nipple, drawing a sweet moan from her lips.

I tried raising my head but Josie's left hand grabbed my neck and made me suck the nipple into my mouth and flick my tongue over it. Josie moaned loudly and giggled as I growled into her flesh, making her tremble.

"God, Josie..." I muttered against her skin. "You're so beautiful..." I said licking a thin trail from her right nipple to the left. "Your skin so smooth, " I whispered taking the left nipple between my teeth and pulling on it gently. I was loving the way she was reacting, making small gasps and moans as I caressed her in just the right way. "So sensitive... All aglow..." I muttered as I kissed the valley between Josie's breasts.

My hand left her breast and travelled down, grazing her skin, to rest on her hip, my fingers slowly worming their way over the material of her leggings to grasp and stroke her bottom and travel along her thigh.

Planting butterfly kisses on Josie's breasts I slid my palm along her inner thigh, enjoying the way her breath was quickening as my hand travelled higher, my fingers a mere inch from her sex.

Kissing my way up I returned to her lips and she embraced me tightly putting her tongue deep inside my mouth. I moaned as her right hand sneaked and embraced my cock, stroking the whole throbbing length and gliding delicately over the sensitive head. I broke the kiss and panting looked in her eyes. I felt her squeeze me harder but never stopping the gentle strokes.

"Josie... how I want you... I want to make you feel good..." I whispered. "I haven't been with a woman for a while... Forgive me if I devour you whole, hmm?" I smiled at her warmly and kissed her passionately, slowly slipping my hand into her leggings.