Needfulls Rejects

[Needfull Thing]

Maybe the truth is that for some of us, our path lie so far from the norm that those things we wish we could have, the basic needs of other human beings, are not for us. Sometimes I feel so lost and strange, but it is only when I am trying to forge connections with other people. To make them like or desire me.

When I feel something come over me and the words I type seem to be inspired, it all fades away. Its not really me, but... sometimes I can find the right words to make people understand a feeling or to put into words what they themselves are hardly aware of feeling or thinking about.

Maybe I am Alone because of that. Because that is MY destiny.

 

[misturbond]

Maybe the truth is that for some of us, our path lie so far from the norm that those things we wish we could have, the basic needs of other human beings, are not for us. Sometimes I feel so lost and strange, but it is only when I am trying to forge connections with other people. To make them like or desire me.

When I feel something come over me and the words I type seem to be inspired, it all fades away. Its not really me, but... sometimes I can find the right words to make people understand a feeling or to put into words what they themselves are hardly aware of feeling or thinking about.

Maybe I am Alone because of that. Because that is MY destiny.

I don't think so, bro. I don't think being alone is anyone's destiny. Destiny is a strange and powerful thing, different for each of us. I don't know what mine is and I may never know. I can't make someone like or even love me, but I can give them the opportunity to do so. I would hope the souls I encounter really see me, but not all do. I put my cards on the table, this is me, this what you get. Some take and others leave and I have no problem with that. Like you, it's important for me to feel a connection on some level to another person. I can usually recognize when there's one and when there isn't. I'm in this thread because there's a connection between myself and others, small, but it's there.

 

[Lady Reiha]

Hiya Reiha! Long time no see and you'll get the bribe later. In private.

Ahem. Anyhoo...yeah its the weekend. While the rest of you spend time with friends and family and all that jazz, I'll probably be here. Killing time.

* Ears perk up* A bribe? What kind of bribe?

and I'm working all weekend!


( bonjour Daizie and misturbond!!! )

 

[Needfull Thing]

* Ears perk up* A bribe? What kind of bribe?

and I'm working all weekend!


( bonjour Daizie and misturbond!!! )

Umm chocolate, snuggly stuffed Hippo and...well that new AV is giving me an idea or two. Chronie would break my limbs in consecutive order.

 

[Needfull Thing]

I don't think so, bro. I don't think being alone is anyone's destiny. Destiny is a strange and powerful thing, different for each of us. I don't know what mine is and I may never know. I can't make someone like or even love me, but I can give them the opportunity to do so. I would hope the souls I encounter really see me, but not all do. I put my cards on the table, this is me, this what you get. Some take and others leave and I have no problem with that. Like you, it's important for me to feel a connection on some level to another person. I can usually recognize when there's one and when there isn't. I'm in this thread because there's a connection between myself and others, small, but it's there.

I don't know if it is a matter of destiny or not. I'm not sure it matters. What I do know is that the pain I feel when I am even reminded of those things I have not had and seemingly cannot find, is too much to bear. Its like an insanity.

So I avoid. I made the choice not to even think about them in a serious manner. For me, sex, affection, connection, romance and love do not exist. Because if I let myself think about them, the beast awakens and I will spiral down into such a deep depression that it is dangerous.

I can care and let myself be soft. I can say that I love you all with complete honesty, because that is the only love I am able to have. So I will always be here for you, each and every one. If you EVER need to talk, find me.

 

[Lady Reiha]

Umm chocolate, snuggly stuffed Hippo and...well that new AV is giving me an idea or two. Chronie would break my limbs in consecutive order.

Reiha spreading happiness all around:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTMXXd6bNfM&NR=1

 

[misturbond]

Nice to see life return to the barren planet.

 

[Needfull Thing]

Hey guys. Not feeling really great tonight. Wish I had somebody to talk to. Hope you're all having a great weekend and have an even better Memorial Day.

 

[misturbond]

Hey, bro. Sorry you're feeling bummed, Hope your Memorial Day was alright.

 

[turtledove]

**Leaves snuggles & a few s for Needfull Thing to feel better**
http://i193.photobucket.com/albums/z240/Chokezilla17/Cats/_.jpg
I hope you have a better day today

Hello misturbond-nice to meet you. Interesting AV

 

[pleasantville]

Another long weekend alone. Don't mean to whine but ugh I just wish something good would happen.

 

[turtledove]

Another long weekend alone. Don't mean to whine but ugh I just wish something good would happen.

Awe--so sorry to hear that
What is it you wish to happen?

 

[pleasantville]

Awe--so sorry to hear that
What is it you wish to happen?

I wish the woman who is my best friend would allow herself to love again. I feel that I am at the point where I need to move on but in other ways I have never had a friendship like this. Frustrating!

 

[turtledove]

I wish the woman who is my best friend would allow herself to love again. I feel that I am at the point where I need to move on but in other ways I have never had a friendship like this. Frustrating!

Ah.....I soooo know that feeling (being that same woman-relearning to love & trust again) it takes a lot of time. Now I need a "Love interest"

 

[pleasantville]

Ah.....I soooo know that feeling (being that same woman-relearning to love & trust again) it takes a lot of time. Now I need a "Love interest"

Well, I was thinking that 4 1/2 years of friendship should show I can be trusted. I have been their for her in so many ways and we count on each other for friendship. She knows my ambition and we have talked in the past about me moving on but when we try we both want it to work. Am I just an idiot or what?

 

[turtledove]

Well, I was thinking that 4 1/2 years of friendship should show I can be trusted. I have been their for her in so many ways and we count on each other for friendship. She knows my ambition and we have talked in the past about me moving on but when we try we both want it to work. Am I just an idiot or what?

Are you saying you want more from her--or to find someone else?
Nope--not an idiot Hun--just more patient then most men.

 

[pleasantville]

Are you saying you want more from her--or to find someone else?
Nope--not an idiot Hun--just more patient then most men.

Well thanks. I just know she is an incredible woman. On the other hand I hate being alone.

 

[turtledove]

Well thanks. I just know she is an incredible woman. On the other hand I hate being alone.

I totally understand--same here.

 

[pleasantville]

I totally understand--same here.

Thanks for the therapy doc. I do feel better being able to get it out

 

[turtledove]

Thanks for the therapy doc. I do feel better being able to get it out

lol--you are very welcome
I'm open most evenings--and some mornings

 

[pleasantville]

lol--you are very welcome
I'm open most evenings--and some mornings

drops a nickle in the can.

 

[turtledove]

drops a nickle in the can.

LOL-thx--need all the help I can get
I'll see ya later--have to go for a while Have a good day-<<<ciao>>>

 

[MollyDolly]

Just thought I'd drop my 2 cents in and wave hello *waves to everyone*

Sometimes I think that being alone is the way to do things. No bullshit, no faking it, just me. I have lots of friends, and I'm a fairly happy person. I think that it would be awesome to find someone who I could love- but I haven't. Does that mean it won't ever happen? No. Does it mean that I've lost hope? Nope. Does it mean that I'm actively looking? Meh. I'm more of a "sit back and let it happen" kinda girl- no stress. I've been single long enough that it doesn't frighten me. I'd rather be alone than pretending that I've found a man who I could share my life with- or being with a man who is just pretending that he could share his life with me. So, for now, I share with my friends and keep my eyes open for him, whoever he is.

 

[Needfull Thing]

Pleasantville- I understand perfectly where you're coming from man. I have a similar situation. TD *kisses* That kitty is adorable!

Molly~ You seem to be a vivacious woman, who knows what she wants. I'm sure you'll get it. Till then, I'm sure you play with lots of boys and girls.

Not all of us have something in our lives worth waiting WITH.

 

[MollyDolly]

Molly~ You seem to be a vivacious woman, who knows what she wants. I'm sure you'll get it. Till then, I'm sure you play with lots of boys and girls.

Play with lots of boys and girls? Nope- I'm a choosy sort of girl. I'm just looking for one good one, not a gaggle.