need help finding a story...

[alwayspink]

I need help trying to find a storie I read in Lit.com.
I dont remember the name, just it was wrote for a girl I believe by a guy friend, it was about her liking pain....It seemed to be a true story....she would do things to herself and i remeber she met a with a master and it said in the storie she knew that wasn't for her...she just liked the pain....if any of this sounds like a story you know, please let me know, i would love to read it again, thanks