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[NorthernPA4U]

that's ok.... I really don't like you that much, either.

and, just for that, I'm gonna tell you about the rest of my day..... came home with the intention of riding my bike, because I figured if I didn't do it right away, I wouldn't. unfortunately, bro had been trying to work out a new seat thingy for me and he wasn't finished. grrr....

turned my computer on and it wouldn't come on. at all. no lights or anything. grrr....

no bike, no computer, I might as well eat. well, I could have jacked off but at the moment I was way too tired for that. if I'd had a beautiful girl in front of me, I don't even know if I could have worked up the energy. I sure would havbe tried, tho... just didn't seem worth it for my left hand.

so I ate, watched a little tv and fell asleep not too long after I hit the couch.
and, lo and behold, after I slept a little bit I managed to get that wank in.
and this morning, lo and behold, my computer decided to come on. woo-hoo!

edited to add: I managed to put about 5 miles on the bike about 11 o'clock last night. 2 days in a row. go me.

GO YOU!

Interesting conversation

Sorry to hear about your reception at work. I dunno, though, seems to me that work is more or less like that. And, from my experience, coming home from work is more or less like that as well.

 

[mrtnmoon]

GO YOU!

Interesting conversation

Sorry to hear about your reception at work. I dunno, though, seems to me that work is more or less like that. And, from my experience, coming home from work is more or less like that as well.

yeah... I kind of talk to myself a lot. I don't often do it in my thread, but I was bored this morning.

as I said, my reception at work was kind of what I expected, having had to be off work for extended periods a few times. it just kind of irks me... whenever I know someone has been off for awhile, I always try to make some kind of "welcome back" comment the first time I see them.

one of my co-workers once said something like, "I'm not here to make friends." maybe most of the people I work with feel that way, I dunno.

 

[NorthernPA4U]

one of my co-workers once said something like, "I'm not here to make friends." maybe most of the people I work with feel that way, I dunno.

Maybe people just hate their jobs, and don't want to be there. When I've had a job like that, I was less sociable than when I enjoyed my job.

Or maybe you just work with a bunch of jerks.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Maybe people just hate their jobs, and don't want to be there. When I've had a job like that, I was less sociable than when I enjoyed my job.

Or maybe you just work with a bunch of jerks.

I think it's probably a little bit of both, combined with the fact that I may be a little more sensitive than the average bear. maybe I just try to welcome people back because I know what it feels like to think no one cares.

 

[mrtnmoon]

I indirectly received a piece of good/bad news a little while ago. "she" got another job. thinking logically and with my brain, I know that it will probably be best for me in the long run. my heart, tho, is having trouble dealing with the fact that I'll probably never see her or talk to her again after this weekend. if, in fact, she shows up for work this weekend. I may have already seen her for the last time.

 

[NorthernPA4U]

I indirectly received a piece of good/bad news a little while ago. "she" got another job. thinking logically and with my brain, I know that it will probably be best for me in the long run. my heart, tho, is having trouble dealing with the fact that I'll probably never see her or talk to her again after this weekend. if, in fact, she shows up for work this weekend. I may have already seen her for the last time.

As you say, it's a mixed blessing at best. If you do see her, at least let her know that it's been great working with her, and let her know you'll miss her.

 

[Buttah]

Hi Moony ... how's it going hon?

 

[mrtnmoon]

Hi Moony ... how's it going hon?

to be honest, not so good right now. I can't seem to make a connection with anyone in real life..... and there are times I feel like I'm making connection with people here, but it's really just a figment of my imagination. I'm just not good looking enough, flirty enough or mysterious enough to hang, damn me for letting the real me show through so much.

wish I was one of those guys that was able to flirt an bs and score "friendships" or more with so many of the ladies here. sometimes I think I should just bail. if not for the trivia threads I might have been gone long ago.

 

[mrtnmoon]

work, bleah....... sometimes I get the feeling they're trying to make me quit. of course, they're supposed to be a "christian organization", but it just sounds like so much bullshit when the big boss tells me he's praying for me. if you wanna do me a favor, cut me a little slack til I get back to full strength. fuck you, 2 faced bastard.

 

[mrtnmoon]

it's always heartwarming to sign in and find out I don't have any PM's, especially when I haven't been around much the last few days. I was going to stick around for awhile and at least look through the trivia threads or maybe look around and see if I could find someone in particular, but I think I'll go ride my bike and go swimming instead. may be back later, may be back tomorrow. may not be back. have a good one.

 

[NorthernPA4U]

to be honest, not so good right now. I can't seem to make a connection with anyone in real life..... and there are times I feel like I'm making connection with people here, but it's really just a figment of my imagination. I'm just not good looking enough, flirty enough or mysterious enough to hang, damn me for letting the real me show through so much.

wish I was one of those guys that was able to flirt an bs and score "friendships" or more with so many of the ladies here. sometimes I think I should just bail. if not for the trivia threads I might have been gone long ago.

First, while you've said this a couple of times, I don't think you're such a bad looking guy. I don't think you are giving yourself enough credit there.

As far as the other ... I'm not a great flirter either, so I can't give you much advice there. You'll probably have to seek out the ladies' advice on that one.

it's always heartwarming to sign in and find out I don't have any PM's, especially when I haven't been around much the last few days. I was going to stick around for awhile and at least look through the trivia threads or maybe look around and see if I could find someone in particular, but I think I'll go ride my bike and go swimming instead. may be back later, may be back tomorrow. may not be back. have a good one.

Swimming ... I wish I had a place around here to go swimming.

Have a good afternoon. I do hope you come back ... but if not, find something better to replace Lit with.

 

[mrtnmoon]

First, while you've said this a couple of times, I don't think you're such a bad looking guy. I don't think you are giving yourself enough credit there.

As far as the other ... I'm not a great flirter either, so I can't give you much advice there. You'll probably have to seek out the ladies' advice on that one.


Swimming ... I wish I had a place around here to go swimming.

Have a good afternoon. I do hope you come back ... but if not, find something better to replace Lit with.

well...I appreciate the sentiments. due to my bro being gone for the night and me having the house alone, I should have been able to get a past fuck buddy to come over. her feelings seem to have changed, tho. in the past, I tried to talk to her and make her feel good about what was going on in her life. at the same time, she'd be rubbing all over me and sucking my dick, but of course, I'm the evil bastard that only cared about sex. whatevr ... I'm naked, which is always a good feeling and the more pills I take the higher I get. thank gof for xanax.

 

[NorthernPA4U]

well...I appreciate the sentiments. due to my bro being gone for the night and me having the house alone, I should have been able to get a past fuck buddy to come over. her feelings seem to have changed, tho. in the past, I tried to talk to her and make her feel good about what was going on in her life. at the same time, she'd be rubbing all over me and sucking my dick, but of course, I'm the evil bastard that only cared about sex. whatevr ... I'm naked, which is always a good feeling and the more pills I take the higher I get. thank gof for xanax.

Don't take too many ...

 

[mrtnmoon]

Don't take too many ...

I probably won't, but if I accidently do, no one will have to listen to this bullshit again.

 

[NorthernPA4U]

I probably won't, but if I accidently do, no one will have to listen to this bullshit again.

Sorry that things didn't work out with your lady friend.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Sorry that things didn't work out with your lady friend.

thanks, me too. but, life goes on, or not.

 

[NorthernPA4U]

thanks, me too. but, life goes on, or not.

Yeah, I'm with you there. I know with me, when I was left here by myself last fall, it was pretty depressing ... but a person learns to cope. There are good days in life, and bad days; sometimes things seem more bleak than what they are, and sometimes they seem too rosy.

Well, it's her loss.

 

[mrtnmoon]

before you write off taking pills so much, let me give you the upside. you can tell some of the pompous assholes on the gb what you really think of them without
really giving a damn whether they reply or not. it's kind of liberating.

the qownside? sometimes your posts take forever to type.

 

[NorthernPA4U]

before you right off taking pills so much, let me give you the upside. you can tell some of the pompous assholes on the gb what you really think of them withouth really giving a damn whether they reply or not. it's kind of liberating.

the qownside? sometimes your posts take forever to type.

I know what you mean about some of the people on the GB ... but what can you do, there are people like that in my real life as well. All it does is cause me to grind my teeth and put money in my dentist's pockets.

There are a couple of times I started to do just that, but my post got so long I got bored with what I was doing and said to-hell-with-it and just deleted it before it got posted.

There are a few nice people over there, though.

 

[RainDove25]

No wasting your work.. you type you post! I like hearing what you say.. even if it is to bi-atch slap a GBer...

and yes some are super! but just watch out for the meanies!.. phfffftttt! on them..

There are a couple of times I started to do just that, but my post got so long I got bored with what I was doing and said to-hell-with-it and just deleted it before it got posted..

 

[mrtnmoon]

I'm sure there are others, but morewickedfun is the first one that comes to mind. also flyin' free, but I don't see nearly as much as her or butterscotch. butterscotch pops in to say hi on occasion, but I don't see her nearly as much as I'd like to without stalking her.

as far as nice people on the GB I mean. I just realized it may not have been clear what I was talking about. now that I'm sober I confused myself.

 

[mrtnmoon]

I guess I'm going to take a couple more and go to bed. the upside is that she got another job, so I won't have to see her anymore.... which doesn't really mean I'm ready to not see her. I'd give anything to hold her one more time.

oh, god, girl of my dreams, I love and care about you so much.

 

[mrtnmoon]

last night kind of reminded me about denis leary's riff aboout NyQuil. "the label says may cause drowsinesss, it should say don't make any fucking plans!" I think I took 7 or 8 xanax all together last night and I still felt pretty lucid....well, except for the fact that my typing was worse than usual.

then a friend stopped by for awhile. we talked, I got some much needed hugs..... you have no idea how much I needed a hug. I was hoping she wanted something more, but alas, it was not to be. anyway, at that point I started feeling not so lucid and laid down on the couch. that was all she wrote until just a little bit ago. upside? first really good night of sleep I've had in forever. downside? I still feel kind of groggy.

before anyone thinks I'm turning into a pill-popper again, I won't have to see "her" at work anymore {one of the reasons I started taking them when I got home last night) but overall that should curtail my use quite a bit. unless I just like getting high so I have the nerve to say whatever I want to those Gb'ers

 

[NorthernPA4U]

last night kind of reminded me about denis leary's riff aboout NyQuil. "the label says may cause drowsinesss, it should say don't make any fucking plans!" I think I took 7 or 8 xanax all together last night and I still felt pretty lucid....well, except for the fact that my typing was worse than usual.

then a friend stopped by for awhile. we talked, I got some much needed hugs..... you have no idea how much I needed a hug. I was hoping she wanted something more, but alas, it was not to be. anyway, at that point I started feeling not so lucid and laid down on the couch. that was all she wrote until just a little bit ago. upside? first really good night of sleep I've had in forever. downside? I still feel kind of groggy.

before anyone thinks I'm turning into a pill-popper again, I won't have to see "her" at work anymore {one of the reasons I started taking them when I got home last night) but overall that should curtail my use quite a bit. unless I just like getting high so I have the nerve to say whatever I want to those Gb'ers

Hey, you don't have to take pills to get up the nerve ... just call on some of us and we can get you all riled up.

 

[MercyMia]

Hi, mrtnmoon,

We must not be online at the same time very much, otherwise, how have I missed reading this thread of yours?

I haven't read but a few of the most recent posts (please don't make me catch up on all 70 pages!). I'll bookmark this though and come in to chat every so often.