my thread

[mrtnmoon]

it's funny. put up a happy avatar and all of a sudden people you've never heard of want to talk, or at least comment about what a great av it is. start to feel down and you're pretty much fucking on your own... doesn't matter how nice you are 95% percent of the time. and trust me, at least 95% of the time I put myself as nicer or nicer than all of the "nice guys on lit.

maybe I should put a huge cock pic on my profile and pretend it's mind. then I could get all kinds on women begging me to stay.

 

[Honey123]

I posted this on another board, but it's a pretty good summation at what's up with me so I thought I'd post it here, too.
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I decided it might be time for a little update to my story here. I've been off work since the middle of december. I was on the way to work and start having chest pain, so I took a little detour to the emergency room. overnight stay, stress test, something the dr. didn't like on the stress test, angiogram. bottom line... arteries were clear (good thing), but overall heart function is a lot worse (not so good thing). so, I am now in the process of being declared permanently disabled. according to HR at work I have to go through the company's short-term disability first, then halfway through that start the paperwork for long-term.

I've been a mess, off and on. that's a huge part of why I haven't been here posting as much as I used to and why I'm such a slacker when it comes to replying to PM's. there aren't many things that will make you feel more worthless than being out of work and flat broke at christmas time, or knowing that the first payment on that new car your brother somehow managed to wrangle for the family is due in january and where the fuck is the money going to come from now? so far we've been holding on, tho.

it's not a complete downer story. certainly I still have my moments of "xanax, take me away". for instance, when I think of my romantic prospects.... if I ever find someone, what could I possibly have to offer other than my (badly damaged) heart? however... I had my first session with a counselor last week. she said that she sees in me someone who's intelligent and who doesn't want to sit around doing nothing with their life. I will say that both of those statements are at least partially true.

she also said that being disabled should open up a whole new world to me as far as academic opportunities. whether that will turn out to be true or not remains to be seen, but at least for the moment it has me hopeful. now I just have to figure out what I wanna be when I grow up.
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ok, I've been a posting fool here, but other than that everything applies. I guess I post more here because it's more anonymous. I've met a bunch of people from the dada board and sometimes it's like family. you don't want your family knowing all your little quirks and kinks.

You have to make sure that you stay healthy.. It's important that you stay in a good frame of mind, too. Take small steps..

A lot of times Lit is a good way to relieve many types of frustrations

here I am at another symmetric post count...13,131. I'd lke to say I'm ready to leave Lit, but I'm addicted. would anyone notice or care? *shrug*

I can only think of one for sure and I have other methods of making contact.

Of course we would care! We all fall into the cracks..some of us just make a bigger noise when we do... There are those I can fool with when that happens to me, because they know that I am not pissed off.... If I get ignored when I post, I will say "HEY YOU IGNORED ME!" But, like I said, there are only a few I will do that with, because they are good natured..

it's funny. put up a happy avatar and all of a sudden people you've never heard of want to talk, or at least comment about what a great av it is. start to feel down and you're pretty much fucking on your own... doesn't matter how nice you are 95% percent of the time. and trust me, at least 95% of the time I put myself as nicer or nicer than all of the "nice guys on lit.

maybe I should put a huge cock pic on my profile and pretend it's mind. then I could get all kinds on women begging me to stay.

Don't put up a cock pic. Trust me on this. If done artistically, maybe...but I do believe the majority of the women and men really don't want to see that.

Your AV is great.. it's you and you look really happy! And Yeah..Litsters want to see happy people...

 

[elizabeth22673]

Good Morning Moonie
Stopping in to wish you a good day

 

[Honey123]

hey you!!!

 

[mrtnmoon]

Good Morning Moonie
Stopping in to wish you a good day

how goes it? hope you're havimg a good day.

 

[mrtnmoon]

hey you!!!

hey you!

(I am the master of charming repartee. )

 

[NorthernPA4U]

Your AV is great.. it's you and you look really happy! And Yeah..Litsters want to see happy people...

This is really good advice. It's an excellent AV, and is the kind of AV that says to people "here's someone I'd like to know better"

 

[Buttah]

Good evening Moon ... it's nice to see Honey here.

 

[mrtnmoon]

This is really good advice. It's an excellent AV, and is the kind of AV that says to people "here's someone I'd like to know better"

thanks. I'm getting ready to try another one. I really don't like it as much but I'm trying to get the hang of using ms paint.

 

[NorthernPA4U]

I must admit, even if I didn't like you, popping in here to see the AV's os Honey and Butterscotch woukd be well worth the visit!

 

[mrtnmoon]

I must admit, even if I didn't like you, popping in here to see the AV's os Honey and Butterscotch woukd be well worth the visit!

true that. that's what lead to my comment about the laws of physics not existing here.

 

[elizabeth22673]

how goes it? hope you're havimg a good day.

it's going..
how about you?

 

[mrtnmoon]

it's going..
how about you?

kind of out of it, really. haven't even taken any pills yet. lol

 

[elizabeth22673]

kind of out of it, really. haven't even taken any pills yet. lol

no...you out of it??


((((((((prince fahooney))))))))

 

[mrtnmoon]

Don't put up a cock pic. Trust me on this. If done artistically, maybe...but I do believe the majority of the women and men really don't want to see that.

Your AV is great.. it's you and you look really happy! And Yeah..Litsters want to see happy people...

trust me... even if I manged to take a cock pic and the camera didn't break, I wouldn't put it up here. I have enough insecurity... that wouldn't help. lol.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Good evening Moon ... it's nice to see Honey here.

butterscotch stopped by and I missed it! inconceivable!

 

[mrtnmoon]

no...you out of it??


((((((((prince fahooney))))))))

yeah, I know it's hard to believe. I started on a new med yesterday and it's kind of got me off my game. *hugs*

 

[Honey123]

hey you!

(I am the master of charming repartee. )

LOL... well I'll let you say it first today!

This is really good advice. It's an excellent AV, and is the kind of AV that says to people "here's someone I'd like to know better"

Thank you...Yes, he looks like he is fun.

Good evening Moon ... it's nice to see Honey here.

Hey beautiful!!!!

trust me... even if I manged to take a cock pic and the camera didn't break, I wouldn't put it up here. I have enough insecurity... that wouldn't help. lol.

lol... You have to be very secure and ready for the tiniest of secrutiny

 

[mrtnmoon]

I guess I've been sleeping too much lately. any time I miss a visit from pretty females, something ain't right.

and yes, I meant you too, lizzie.

 

[mrtnmoon]

I get counseling session#2 tomorrow. last time she was asking about things like if something happened when I was younger, because I've been battling insecurity for most of my life and depression for a good part of it. trouble is, I thought of a couple of things, but I dunno if I'm gonna be able to bring myself to talk about them.

 

[mrtnmoon]

I had my second counseling session yesterday. it's too soon to tell, but overall I think it's going to help. she's given me some potentially positive aspects of the disability thing to look into.

one of the things that makes me most uncomfortable is when she asked me how I see myself... like today she asked me what my good qualities are, as if I was trying to sell myself.

I managed to come up with some pretty generic sounding words but I think they're fitting for the most part. I don't always let it show here but I'm smart and funny, warm, caring, passionate. affectionate is a big one. I could totally see myself with someone in the kitchen helping make dinner... slipping up behind her and wrapping my arms around her, kissing the back of her neck.... or just sitting on the couch cuddling, holding hands if we were walking somewhere.

of course, I didn't think it was appropriate to tell her how much I love eating pussy.

 

[elizabeth22673]

Morning Moonie~
Glad your counseling went well. And you made me giggle about not telling her you like eating pussy. Hmm she might have asked you to demonstrate
((((((((Moonie)))))))
Have a good day hon and hope to chat soon

 

[mrtnmoon]

Morning Moonie~
Glad your counseling went well. And you made me giggle about not telling her you like eating pussy. Hmm she might have asked you to demonstrate
((((((((Moonie)))))))
Have a good day hon and hope to chat soon

I would have been only to happy to demonstrate. she's not drop dead gorgeous, but she's definitely a cutie.
hope you have a good day, too.

 

[Buttah]

Morning Moon ... what are you up to today?

 

[mrtnmoon]

Morning Moon ... what are you up to today?

hello, ms. parkay. haven't been up to much lately.... new meds make me a little sleepy, and I had a nice long phone chat with a friend to catch up with her. what have you been doing?

oh yeah... I've also been busy trying to think of ways I can keep beauties like you and honey stopping by my thread.